motherâs tired. The grandmother, whoâs there, has her important-days face.
The child waits for her father.
Sheâs ready. She thinks she looks gorgeous and wonders when heâll arrive. Sheâs been going round in circles in the apartment for a long time now, pacing in her little shoes, which make an irritating noise on the wooden floor.
âCalm down,â the grandmother scolds. âStay still for a minute, for Godâs sake! Youâll drive us mad!â
The motherâs irritable too, shuts herself in the kitchen âto avoid seeing him â.
At the first ring of the doorbell, the child runs to open the door. The father doesnât come in: he kisses the child and, as no oneâs appeared, he calls out that heâll âbring her back at about fiveâ.
There, theyâve left, the father and his child. Alone. Hand in hand. Her little hand reunited with her fatherâs big hand.
Her black shoes patter swiftly down the stairsâ¦
But thereâs already something panicking the child. Sheâs thinking about the question her mother has told her to ask her father, the words sheâs been made to practise and which sheâll have to pronounce: âDaddy, are you going to come back to us?â Tricky. The childâs well aware of that. When to say it? Now or later? And how? It bothers the child terribly, this problem does, as they walk along the street in silence, she and her father. She decides to put it off till theyâre having lunch.
For now sheâs trying to think only of this moment, of this hand holding hers at last, of the tall familiar figure beside her, a figure which leans over from time to time and asks if everythingâs all right, if theyâre not walking too quickly, if sheâs happy. Can you hear me, France?
Yes, of course everythingâs all right; no, theyâre not walking too quickly, but even so. The child trots along to keep up with her father, gives one-word answers. Happy, yes, very. But the thought of the question she must ask comes back to her. The child falls silent.
They take the Métro. They take the Métro as they did before. As they did that time with the Métro-ticket dogs. But today the father doesnât seem to be thinking about ticket dogs, or anything like that. Whatâs he daydreaming about exactly, with such a serious face? No knowing.He doesnât say anything. He doesnât see anything either, apparently, his eyes lost, gazing at a spot just above the child whoâs sitting facing him. She, the child, is looking at him with all her might. Actually, she rather likes it when heâs distracted.
Where are they going? It feels like a long way, possibly further than sheâs ever been in Paris. But, anyway, thatâs not what sheâs interested in, not where theyâre going, the name of the place, whether itâs near or far, not that sort of thing. Sheâs with her father, sheâs going to have lunch with her father, she has her father all to herself for the whole day.
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Now theyâre out in the street again, in an unfamiliar neighbourhood. The child is connected to the known world, to security, only by her fatherâs hand. And she thinks thatâs nice. He can take her where he likes. He takes care of her. Heâs her father.
He asks her whether sheâs hungry. Now thereâs a question. To please him she says that yes, sheâs hungry. He looks happy. âWeâll be there soon,â he says, and he looks happier by the minute.
But now the thought of her mission has come back to haunt the child and, once again, she can feel anxiety creeping over her. When? Before lunch? During it? Afterwards maybe?
âHere we are,â says her father.
He opens a glazed door and goes in with the child close behind him. Sheâs never been to a restaurant before, nevergone into a place like this. Sheâs dazed by the noise, the bustle, the
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