father.
No memories at all, up until the moment when she was alone with him again, walking through the streets, after the lady had left, the lady whoâd wanted to kiss her goodbye.
âYouâll see her again soon,â the father said as they walked away. âI love her very much, you know.â
The child said nothing. Itâs true, she lost her tongue that day.
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The father and child walk back through the streets they came along that morning. Theyâre both thinking about all sorts of things. And then the father asks the child what she thought of the lady. The child thinks. She ends up saying she doesnât know.
âBut you do think sheâs pretty, donât you?â the father says, not letting it drop.
Yes, the child thinks sheâs pretty. She wonât say more than that. That will be all for today. Sheâs tired.
The father gently squeezes the childâs hand in his. But the child thinks of the ladyâs white hand, and her own hand stays inert.
When they arrive home, the childâs father takes her all the way to the door, kisses her and then leaves, very quickly, as usual.
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The child realizes she hasnât asked the wretched question.
When her mother appears and asks how she got on with her task, she says she forgot.
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That night the child has a strange dream. Sheâs in the local square with her mother, as she so often used to be. Her mother is sitting on a bench alone and the childâs not far away, playing with a ball. Itâs a beautiful day. The motherâs wearing a very pretty dress, a red one, and her nails are painted red too.
All of a sudden someone arrives, someone the child doesnât immediately recognize. But yes, of course, itâs her father, wearing the blue jumper he wore to the restaurant and with his pipe in his hand. He sits down next to the mother and talks to her, right up close. Theyâre not at all angry, quite the opposite; heâs put an arm around her shoulders, like lovers do, and theyâre looking at each other the way they used to, when the father came home.
And the child feels something inside her, an odd, a very odd kind of contentment.
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But just then she wakes up. The feeling of happiness lasts a little longer. And a little longer. And disappears.
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Now the father comes to pick up the child every other Sunday. Sometimes the blonde lady is there, sometimes she isnât.
The last time the child is to be alone with her father he suggests taking her outside in the fresh air, onto the fortifications at the old city gate, the Porte des Lilas. The child thinks this lilac-scented name is pretty, but you know, her father says, there are no lilacs there. Even so, the child says.
Itâs a Sunday afternoon. Her father didnât come to pick her up till after lunch. He seems in a good mood. In fact he seems in a much better mood since he left home.
Itâs a lovely day. In the bus they stood on the platform at the back, which delighted the child.
Once there, at the fortifications (the father also calls it the wastelands , an expression the child rather likes), there are sorts of hills and lots of grass. Itâs almost the country. There are people sitting or lying on the grass, children running. Youngsters tearing down the slopes on bicycles.
The father and his child climb up the highest hill. Itâs hard for the child. When she tires, her father puts her on his shoulders. From up there the child risks this gesture, wrapping her arms around her fatherâs neck. She presses her cheek to her fatherâs head and is happy to be reacquainted with the smell of his hair, and of his skin, which is always mingled with the smell of pipe tobacco.
They reach the summit. Hoisted up on her fatherâs shoulders, the child feels sheâs on top of the world.
Above them and around them thereâs nothing but the vast blue sky, dangling its unusual-shaped clouds over
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