lights, the smells. Following in her fatherâs wake, the child gamely steps further into this strange world, amid the hubbub of voices, the clink of cutlery and the bright newness of the lighting.
Meanwhile, her fatherâs heading straight for one of the tables, by the window. A small table covered with a white tablecloth like the others. Now, thereâs a lady sitting at this particular table, a lady whoâs looking at the child and smiling.
âFrance,â the father says, âIâd like to introduce you to a friend: Agnès.â
The child is taken aback. She doesnât understand. He must have got this wrong. She stands next to her father and stares at this stranger, this pretty, young, blonde, nicely made-up, well-dressed, smiling stranger. And everything happens very quickly. The father gets the child to sit down, sits down himself. He takes the chair facing the woman; the child is in the middle, between them. The father says something. What? The child doesnât know. The lady carries on smiling with her pretty lips, smoothed over with dazzling red, and her pretty teeth. She just wonât stop smiling, her eyes on the father one moment and the child the next. And the father, well, he just wonât stop talking. The child doesnât grasp, doesnât hear what heâs saying.
The waiter comes to take their order and the child canât tear her eyes away from this woman with her perpetual smile. But now the ladyâs talking, the redlips are moving very quickly. Her voice is soft, musical, pleasing â and yet the child canât make out any words. Actually, what was the question her mother told her to ask?
In fact she, the child, is the one whoâs being asked something. When it comes to questions, itâs the lady whoâs doing the asking, leaning towards her slightly: Does this big girl go to school yet, then? Of course not, of course she doesnât go to school, the child mutters inwardly, giving just a shake of her head in reply. Not bored all on her own? What a thought. The child shakes her head furiously.
Sheâs so sweet! Shame sheâs lost her tongue⦠Or hasnât she? Has she?
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The conversation falters. Or rather is reduced to an exchange between the lady and the childâs father, over her head, given theyâre facing each other, as her father and mother used to before, the child now thinks. But here, is it because of the noise, in order to talk and hear each other, these two lean slightly closer together over the table, which is so narrow that it wouldnât take much for their heads to touch. And with them there are no arguments.
Their food arrives. The child has no idea what sheâs eating. Sheâll never know. But what she does know is that itâs not going down.
âEat up, then,â says her father, as he used to at home; and it feels very funny to the child, those same words,words she hasnât heard for a long time. But whatâs changed is that heâs saying them very gently. Not angry at all.
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And now the question sheâs meant to ask comes back to her all of a sudden. What if I asked now? thinks the child. But just then she sees something, something that catches her attention, something extraordinary.
There across the table, her fatherâs hand, the big rust-speckled hand she knows so well, the giraffe-hand, the hand that belongs to her, the child, has just come down over that small, elegant white hand with the red nail varnish which was resting meekly next to the plate: the ladyâs hand.
Time stands still.
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The child wonât remember anything of the rest of the meal, nor how it ended. Anything of what was said, what happened, what was eaten or what she herself didnât eat. Oh, it doesnât matter, leave it, itâs all right ⦠Yes, her father said those words, very sweetly, that much she does remember. Youâd think nothing matters any more for the
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