successful relationship?â And Sam turned and walked out the door.
âInsufferable prig,â Louise spat out from her bed. âWho does he think he is, moralizing about the wickedness of lying one minute and all set to belt a woman the next?â
âHis behaviour is regrettable,â Philip interjected smoothly, âbut he would never hit a woman. He is a Cambridge student!â
âOh well, thatâs all right then,â Louise answered sarcastically.
Philip took Anneâs arm and said in the gentlest tones, âWhy donât we go and have a drink? We deserve it.â
They sat side by side in a corner of a quiet pub.
âDo you know that Sam described you as beautiful, sweet and very spiritual?â
The dimples reappeared in Anneâs cheeks, and she felt beautiful and spiritual, just like she had felt like a liar when Sam had yelled at her.
âTalk to me about Sam. I want to understand him better. His behaviour often bewilders me ⦠his excitability and the way he yells. In my home, nobody ever raises their voice.â
Anne remembered one day when her father had failed to come home from the pub at all. She and her mother had sat in silence for hours until there was a knock on the door. A neighbour informed Mary that there was a âdrunken personâ in the gutter down the road who resembled her husband. âThank you,â Mary said, and shut the door in the neighbourâs face.
Four men brought Eddie home, carrying him into Maryâs neat parlour and laying him on the sofa. When he awoke, much later, he looked up at Mary with a foolish smile and his bright blue sailorâs eyes. All she said to him was, âYouâre pickled, man. Look at yourself.â
To scream at someone because they invented excuses for their tardiness was ludicrous.
Philip began to talk about Sam. He smoothed away the feeling that Sam was strange. He just had strong feelings that were hard to control. âYou need to guide him towards restraint through gentle remonstrance.â
Anne gave him a blank look.
âYour gentleness is enough,â he amended. âPerhaps you donât need to remonstrate. The constant example of your moderate behaviour will mould Samâs reactions in spite of himself. Try to see him as a young, impetuous boy.â
Anne smiled in relief. This description regulated him to something understandable and controllable. His behaviour was regrettable, not terrifying. Philip was intuitive and intelligent, a gentleman in every sense of the word, and he had had known Sam for a long time.
Yet she could not help comparing the way Philip talked of Sam with the way Sam had described Philip. Delight versus deprecation. Sophistication versus innocence. A tiny part of her felt that Samâs conduct in this area, at least, was more honourable.
FOUR
M y fatherâs handwriting snakes down the side of the page, beside my motherâs typed lines. He has highlighted the words âInsufferable prig, who does he think he is, moralizing about the wickedness of lying one minute and all set to belt a woman the next?â and written in the margin:
Both here and on page 77 when Louse says Sam has âan overpowering need to be loved,â Madelyn is projecting her conclusions â reached after eighteen years of marriage â into Louiseâs mouth. It is her opinion that my judgmental attitude towards others and my need to be loved constitute a blend of security and insecurity. Louise did not know me well enough to utter such a statement.
It is the first comment he has introduced, and it surprises me because I had forgotten that my father gave me this manuscript so that we could discuss it together.
I glance at the clock and am horrified to see it is after 4 a.m. That means itâs midnight my time. Anxiety rushes through me. Am I expected to make an appearance by a certain hour in the mornings? I recall my fatherâs suggestion to