the way, and Jay was to die for,” another said. My mouth dropped open and I peered through the bathroom door. It was not the Blondesquad, but a wannabe group that followed the Blondesquad in hopes to be recognized one day. I flushed the toilet and went to wash my hands. One of them shushed the others. “Hey Brogan,” a little brunette said. I didn’t know her name but I knew she was in first period with Jay and me. I nodded in her direction and left the bathroom. When I hit the hall I heard laughter coming from the bathroom behind me. I was pissed. Screw Jay. Screw Becca. I wanted my life to go back to normal. I wanted it to be Meg and me cruising through our junior year, mostly unrecognized and totally drama free. Interacting with Jay bought me a ticket into the world of social hell and I didn’t want to be here. He was gonna’ hear it from me today. I wanted off this ride.
When the final bell rang I grabbed my stuff and ran for the school doors. I was going to catch Jay before Becca and her gang swooped him up in her car. I waited at the bottom of the stairs, trying to look calm. Everyone left through this door so I was guaranteed to see him. Soren passed me and said a quick “Hey Brogan.” I worried about what would happen if Becca came out first or if they came out together. I hadn’t figured out what I would do then...abort the mission? It was freezing outside and the sky had clouds heavy with precipitation. Maybe we would see snow before Thanksgiving. I scanned the crowd at the top of the stairs and found Jay bounding down the steps. When he hit the last one I picked up my bag and caught up to him.
“Jay, wait a second. I need to talk to you.” He had the nerve to roll his eyes at me, but he stopped and faced me.
“Fine, what do you want?” I would be lying if I said his coldness didn’t piss me off and hurt.
“Five minutes.”
“Fine.” He led me to an alcove that was away from the exiting students. “What?”
“I don’t know what has happened. What happened to us. I had a normal life, quiet, one amazing friend, no drama before you came to town.” I licked my lips. He looked up at my face, prepared to take whatever I gave him...his walls were up. “Then you show up, save my life, amaze me with kindness and charisma.” A tear fell down my face. “I let you in.” I looked down at the ground, tried to gather the strength in my voice to say the next part. “I never let anyone in.” I lost myself as the realization set in. “Then as fast as you drew me in - you pushed me away and now? Here I am... without you and drowning in drama.” I looked up at him and he is stared at me intently, but he was silent. “I was willing to take the drama - any and all of it, if I had you. But you’ve turned away from me and ...now you’re with Becca. I can’t believe you wasted no time in sleeping with her..” I had to look away when I said that last part. “I want off this ride. I’m sick of it. I’m sick of hoping you’ll be my friend again only to find out you have nothing to say to me.” I shook my head. More tears. “That’s it. You can’t have anymore of me.” I turned and walked away from him.
He didn’t follow. I left him standing there with a shocked look on his face. But he chose Becca. I put my sunglasses on so I didn’t have to worry about the tears falling from my eyes. When I was ten steps away I heard Becca in a group of girls on my right gushing over Jay and bragging that she was going to ask him to come home with her again. Bitch.
Chapter 12
“Brogen, are you ok?” Meg called my phone as soon as I got home.
“No. I couldn’t keep my shit together to find out why he’s been blowing me off. I just told him I want out of his life,” I yelled. I was still mad and couldn’t lower my
When the final bell rang I grabbed my stuff and ran for the school doors. I was going to catch Jay before Becca and her gang swooped him up in her car. I waited at the bottom of the stairs, trying to look calm. Everyone left through this door so I was guaranteed to see him. Soren passed me and said a quick “Hey Brogan.” I worried about what would happen if Becca came out first or if they came out together. I hadn’t figured out what I would do then...abort the mission? It was freezing outside and the sky had clouds heavy with precipitation. Maybe we would see snow before Thanksgiving. I scanned the crowd at the top of the stairs and found Jay bounding down the steps. When he hit the last one I picked up my bag and caught up to him.
“Jay, wait a second. I need to talk to you.” He had the nerve to roll his eyes at me, but he stopped and faced me.
“Fine, what do you want?” I would be lying if I said his coldness didn’t piss me off and hurt.
“Five minutes.”
“Fine.” He led me to an alcove that was away from the exiting students. “What?”
“I don’t know what has happened. What happened to us. I had a normal life, quiet, one amazing friend, no drama before you came to town.” I licked my lips. He looked up at my face, prepared to take whatever I gave him...his walls were up. “Then you show up, save my life, amaze me with kindness and charisma.” A tear fell down my face. “I let you in.” I looked down at the ground, tried to gather the strength in my voice to say the next part. “I never let anyone in.” I lost myself as the realization set in. “Then as fast as you drew me in - you pushed me away and now? Here I am... without you and drowning in drama.” I looked up at him and he is stared at me intently, but he was silent. “I was willing to take the drama - any and all of it, if I had you. But you’ve turned away from me and ...now you’re with Becca. I can’t believe you wasted no time in sleeping with her..” I had to look away when I said that last part. “I want off this ride. I’m sick of it. I’m sick of hoping you’ll be my friend again only to find out you have nothing to say to me.” I shook my head. More tears. “That’s it. You can’t have anymore of me.” I turned and walked away from him.
He didn’t follow. I left him standing there with a shocked look on his face. But he chose Becca. I put my sunglasses on so I didn’t have to worry about the tears falling from my eyes. When I was ten steps away I heard Becca in a group of girls on my right gushing over Jay and bragging that she was going to ask him to come home with her again. Bitch.
Chapter 12
“Brogen, are you ok?” Meg called my phone as soon as I got home.
“No. I couldn’t keep my shit together to find out why he’s been blowing me off. I just told him I want out of his life,” I yelled. I was still mad and couldn’t lower my
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