and a couple of football players came over and I sensed them closing in. Fear dried my throat.
âYo, Kristopher,â one of the guys said. âYou here to give Sam-I-am another rimjob? Heâs got the lube ready for you.â
Sam slammed his locker shut and I jumped.
âCan it, Luke,â Sam said. Then he turned to me, pointing his index finger at my mouth. âYou stay away from me, you hear?â
âOh no, are you breaking up with your boyfriend, Sammy? Maybe I can make it up to you tonight.â Bruce gave Sam the goose and Sam elbowed him in the neck. âOooh, come on, baby. . . .â
His friends walked toward the gym, and as Sam turned to follow, I grabbed at his arm again. This time, when he pulledaway, a thread of his sweater caught in my fingernail. He rounded on me. I could feel the muscles in his arm spasm.
âSam, please . . . ,â I begged. âLet me explain.â
âWhat the fuck is there to explain?â Sam said. His eyes were bright, like there were tears hovering in his eyes. He leaned in, and I allowed myself to hope that he was going to listen. But instead he just whispered, âI thought I loved you, you fucking man-whore. And youâve been lying to me. I have nothing to say to you. Ever. Again.â
He turned and left before I could explain that I hadnât known for that long, that I hadnât been lying. But what would have been the point? Because how could I ever convince him that I was telling the truth?
I collapsed against the lockers, and slid down into a crumple. Above me, people turned to stare as they hurried to class. I couldnât see their faces through my tears, but I could feel the pounding and shuffling of their feet as they walked past.
The bell rang. The ground went silent. And I began to process how deeply I had been betrayed.
CHAPTER 14
I spent first period in the girlsâ bathroom, using a paper towel soaked in cold water to bring down the puffiness in my eyes. Then, after the bathroom cleared a few minutes before the bell rang, I dragged myself to the north-wing stairs and waited.
In less than a minute, I heard a pair of uneven steps echoing through the empty hallway. Even after sheâd transitioned to a soft cast, Veeâs teachers still let her out of class early so she could get a head start on the crowds. Iâd been her bag carrier long enough that I knew her schedule by heart.
She froze when she saw me, and stared at me as if I were a stranger, not the person who physically carried her part of the way to the school nurse the day she broke her leg.
My hands clenched as I turned toward her. âHow could you do this to me, Vee?â
âDo what?â she asked, seeming surprised, but that wasVee. Always an incredible actress.
âYou told,â I said, my voice still stuffy with tears. âEverybody knows. Sam, too. How could you? I had the right to tell him myself. I wouldâve been able to make him see that Iâm the same person. Iâm still Kristin. Not a freak.â
âWait a second, wait a second.â She put her hands out as if she were stopping traffic. âCalm down. I told Faith, but youâd already told her part of it. I did not tell Sam.â
âThen how does he know? Who else did you tell?â
âOnly Faith, I swear!â
Something about the tension in her shoulders and the set of her jaw told me she was lying. âNo one at all?â I pressed. âReally?â
Vee squirmed. She actually squirmed, and it should have been a victory, but instead it was a disaster. âOkay, fine. I told my momââ
âOh. My. God. You told your mother?â I wanted to throw up.
âI mean, what was I supposed to do?â she said defensively. âI had to tell someone. Itâs all so fucked up. I mean, I was so traumatizedââ
â You were traumatized?â
âWhatever, I was in shock. So I told my mom. And she said
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