disrupting my thoughts. I quickly turned it on. “Did you find her?” I ask.
“ Yeah she’s at home. She said she doesn’t want to talk to you. Did you guys have a fight or something? She won’t tell me why she’s mad at you or why she doesn’t want to talk to you.”
“ No, we were fine and I fell asleep. I woke and she was nowhere to be found.” What the hell happened?
“ Give her some time. She seems upset. Shell come around.” I sure hope so.
“ I’ll try to message her later. Thanks for your help.” I turn the phone off and kick my car. I know it sounds like a kid thing to do but Fuck! I’m pissed at myself and I don’t even know why. How can she just walk into my life like that and I screw it up in my sleep? I can’t lose her. I have to get to the bottom of this.
Tuesday rolls around. I see her in chemistry, but it seems as if she arrives late that way there’s no time to talk. She bolts out of class the minute the bell rings. I haven’t seen her at the lunch table either. I don’t know if she’s going to a class or just hiding out during lunch. I feel as if I did something really bad. I send her a text after school.
Me: Babygirl, what’s wrong? I need to see your beautiful face. Meet me at football field after school.
I got no response. I went to the field in hopes shell show up. I sat there for three hours and she never showed. It’s beginning to hurt. I started falling for her and now I’m denied the right to see her.
Wednesday, I woke up sleep deprived. My mind was racing all last night thinking about her. What can I do to get her to talk? I’ve tried everything. I’ve texted, called, even stayed at her locker waiting for her. She never showed. I’m not sure what else to do.
Please talk to me. Tell me what I did wrong so I can fix this. I can’t stop thinking about you. I need you. Please call me.
I know I sound like lovesick bastard but what can I do? I don’t want to choose my pride and just let her go. She has become more than I imagined in our short time together. I can’t just let her walk out of my life without a fight. She still hasn’t responded.
Thursday, I still haven’t seen her besides the back of her head at chemistry class. I’ve talked to Larissa, but she claims not to know anything. As close as we are, I’m not sure to believe her. They were best friends before I came along. They have the bond that can’t be destroyed. But because I’m good friends with her, Ill choose to trust that she’s telling me the truth.
I miss you Serena. Please call me! I need to speak with you.
Still no response. My heart is breaking in half. I can’t begin to think what I’ve done to push her away from me. I’ve barely slept this week because she has consumed my every waking moment. How can I fall asleep when my heart is being torn in two? How can I do any of my normal daily activities when my heart hurts because I feel as if I lost my soul? The only thing to make this better is to finally talk to Serena. If only I can get to her.
Friday, I finally cave and decide to give her space. As much as it hurts to just sit here and wait, maybe that’s what needs to be done. I don’t text her today or call her. I have to fight myself otherwise ill pick up that phone. I need the will power to just say no. It’s hard as hell, because I want nothing more than Serena to just be in my arms again. I may be pushing her further away by always calling and texting. I didn’t want to seem like a stalker but I also don’t want to give up, and find out she found someone to treat her better. This is killing me inside. I have to find the strength to continue on without communication with the only girl I’ve ever loved. Yes, in all this mess I have realized that I have fallen in love with her. Now she’s gone.
Chapter 7
Serena One Week Later
The past week has been rough. I have tried to avoid Aiden at all costs. He