them worry! If it wasn’t the police or Maya, frankly, I didn’t care to be bothered.
Next, I instructed him that he is to prevent me from ever getting back together with Able at all costs and not to pay it any attention if I started acting as if I didn’t remember anything that I had just told him in the morning. He was to follow tonight’s instructions to the “T” for me, no matter what.
He looked at me like I was smoking crack, but didn’t question me any further. Instead, I asked him to trust me and that the less he knew right now, the better.
I was in my room getting changed when the phone started ringing off the hook. Joel played his role perfectly. Able was frantic with worry, but it served him right for not being the person he appeared to be. He was that shy, quiet type. A real snake in the grass! Be careful of these ones, ladies. I had to learn that the hard way so do not say that I never warned you.
Dressed in jeans and my favorite team sweatshirt, I scrubbed off all the heavy layers of makeup that my younger self had caked onto my face. I rarely wore foundation anymore because it made my skin feel like it couldn’t breathe under the added weight of it and I stayed far, far away from mascara since it had a tendency to smear, leaving me with not so pretty looking raccoon eyes.
It was only midnight, but I still wondered if it was too late to go over to Maya’s tonight as I had originally planned. If I were going anywhere else but there, I would have stayed home, but Maya had the coolest mom on the planet. She was more like a mom to me than my own mother was and wouldn’t have minded me coming over at any hour of the night.
Maya had been suspended from school for fighting and wasn’t allowed to attend the prom, even though she had already paid for her ticket well in advance. She was supposed to meet me at the after-party, but she was the second person I called from the motel office and told her not to bother… that I was coming to her instead.
I found her sitting out on the curb in front of her pale yellow house when I drove up. She wasn’t surprised that I had managed to travel back to the past for a third time now. The way she acted, you would think that this kind of thing happened all the time.
I immediately started to fill her in on my current dilemma. This was going to be a big decision for me and I was starting to truly second guess myself. I prayed that she could ease some of my fears so I didn’t chicken out altogether.
Taking my time, I explained to her that tonight I had gotten so wasted that I ended up having unprotected sex with Able against my better judgment, which lead to a lot more unprotected sex in our future. How things were great between the two of us for weeks after that… we all graduated then went off to party our little hearts out at grad-night, where we had the time of our lives celebrating my 18th birthday.
How we were all enjoying the freedom of having had finished school, when I found out that I was pregnant just a couple of months afterwards. “At first, Able was so supportive. He even went to all of my doctor appointments with me. I was three months along when he pulled a 360 and changed his mind about the baby.” I told her.
“That little fucker! What did he do?” she said pissed.
“He told me in a damn parking lot that he wasn’t ready to be a dad and asked me to have an abortion.”
“No girl… tell me he didn’t? How could he?”
“ I know right! I was so heartbroken that I shutdown and did exactly as he asked. I didn’t want to trap him and I definitely didn’t want to be a single mother at eighteen either. We didn’t speak after that day, he completely abandoned me. I felt as if I didn’t have any other choice but to terminate the pregnancy. I knew my mom wouldn’t have helped me with the baby like any normal grandmother would have and my dad would have been so disappointed in me for throwing away my future.
My hands were tied. I can see
Next, I instructed him that he is to prevent me from ever getting back together with Able at all costs and not to pay it any attention if I started acting as if I didn’t remember anything that I had just told him in the morning. He was to follow tonight’s instructions to the “T” for me, no matter what.
He looked at me like I was smoking crack, but didn’t question me any further. Instead, I asked him to trust me and that the less he knew right now, the better.
I was in my room getting changed when the phone started ringing off the hook. Joel played his role perfectly. Able was frantic with worry, but it served him right for not being the person he appeared to be. He was that shy, quiet type. A real snake in the grass! Be careful of these ones, ladies. I had to learn that the hard way so do not say that I never warned you.
Dressed in jeans and my favorite team sweatshirt, I scrubbed off all the heavy layers of makeup that my younger self had caked onto my face. I rarely wore foundation anymore because it made my skin feel like it couldn’t breathe under the added weight of it and I stayed far, far away from mascara since it had a tendency to smear, leaving me with not so pretty looking raccoon eyes.
It was only midnight, but I still wondered if it was too late to go over to Maya’s tonight as I had originally planned. If I were going anywhere else but there, I would have stayed home, but Maya had the coolest mom on the planet. She was more like a mom to me than my own mother was and wouldn’t have minded me coming over at any hour of the night.
Maya had been suspended from school for fighting and wasn’t allowed to attend the prom, even though she had already paid for her ticket well in advance. She was supposed to meet me at the after-party, but she was the second person I called from the motel office and told her not to bother… that I was coming to her instead.
I found her sitting out on the curb in front of her pale yellow house when I drove up. She wasn’t surprised that I had managed to travel back to the past for a third time now. The way she acted, you would think that this kind of thing happened all the time.
I immediately started to fill her in on my current dilemma. This was going to be a big decision for me and I was starting to truly second guess myself. I prayed that she could ease some of my fears so I didn’t chicken out altogether.
Taking my time, I explained to her that tonight I had gotten so wasted that I ended up having unprotected sex with Able against my better judgment, which lead to a lot more unprotected sex in our future. How things were great between the two of us for weeks after that… we all graduated then went off to party our little hearts out at grad-night, where we had the time of our lives celebrating my 18th birthday.
How we were all enjoying the freedom of having had finished school, when I found out that I was pregnant just a couple of months afterwards. “At first, Able was so supportive. He even went to all of my doctor appointments with me. I was three months along when he pulled a 360 and changed his mind about the baby.” I told her.
“That little fucker! What did he do?” she said pissed.
“He told me in a damn parking lot that he wasn’t ready to be a dad and asked me to have an abortion.”
“No girl… tell me he didn’t? How could he?”
“ I know right! I was so heartbroken that I shutdown and did exactly as he asked. I didn’t want to trap him and I definitely didn’t want to be a single mother at eighteen either. We didn’t speak after that day, he completely abandoned me. I felt as if I didn’t have any other choice but to terminate the pregnancy. I knew my mom wouldn’t have helped me with the baby like any normal grandmother would have and my dad would have been so disappointed in me for throwing away my future.
My hands were tied. I can see
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