“Henry!” breathing in deep, another wave of pain tore at me. “Emergency services ….” I gasped. I need help and now. “Henry confirm order!” “Order confirmed paramedics in route…order issued for potential miscarriage. Blood loss substantial. I’ve also sent your blood pressure readings. Doors have been unlocked as all security measure lowered for their arrival.” Crying on the floor, I heard Brady scream to Charlie asking where I was. Brady ran into the bathroom… “Oh Jesus” he lowered down to me… “Just breathe through it...I saw the alarms going off.” “Oh dear lord…what’s happening…where’s all the blood coming from?” Charlie ran into the bathroom, eyes wide and in shock. “ME” my voice shaky. “The baby…it’s the baby isn’t it?” Charlie ran over kneeling to the side of me. I couldn’t answer him…this was too surreal…I was going to lose her…I knew it. My hands and sight fell to my belly and one more on the blood that covered my legs, the floor and my robe. “Paramedics pulling in driveway,” Henry announced “Charlie, I’m going to get them and bring them in. Keep her talking…she’s going into shock!” “I love you Lilly…remember that. You’ll be ok.” he offered, his tone low and shaken. The more he spoke, the more his words became barely audible. My eyes focused on all the blood and the pain that was coursing through, was now numb. “MY feet are numb.” I blankly stared “Look at me Lilly!” He force my head in his direction but my tears seamed to blur his face. He said nothing and shook his head slow. “I’m left with nothing Charlie….nothing” “No…you have me…I love you Lilly. You hear me…I love you and I’m not going anywhere…” he spoke thru what looked like his own tears.” The paramedics made their way with their gurney. It was all too much as Charlie raised my body and placed me in the gurney. The oxygen mask was on my face and before I realized it, I was now in an ambulance. Paralyzed in fear and knowledge; I understood, I knew I was losing the baby. It was all such a quick blur. The exam; then the inevitable D&C as they called it for short. Waking in the recovery room, I felt numb. Charlie, ever present, just staring out the window. I suppose he didn’t notice me wake up. Looking at him it was clear he had done his share of crying. Shifting my gaze, I saw Sebastian? He was seated in the chair by Charlie; bent over holding his head. “You should take a walk Charlie…clean yourself up; she’s going to need you to be strong for her. Seeing you look like shit, won’t help her.” Sebastian spoke to him, yet held his face towards the floor. “How do I help her? How do I make this ok? This is my fault…I got her pregnant and now she’s lost the baby…how in the world do I begin to make this ok?” without looking to me he walked from the room visibly upset. “I don’t know brother,” Sebastian whispered. It was just Sebastian and me. “Why are you here?” I whispered. His head shot up and his expression lost. I watched as he rose to his feet and walked to my bedside. “Why are you here?” I repeated “Because I care…I’ve always cared Lillian”, he looked down to me and grazed my cheek. “You tried to take my baby.” I shook my head. He reached for my hand. “I’m so sorry for your loss Lilly…truly.” The tears again fell on their own accord…my baby; the one I only just got use to…was gone. Sebastian was quick and slid into the bed holding me tight to his chest. “You’ll get thru this Lilly” he whispered as he held me tight. “How?...you said once that I should let go and feel… what has that done for me? Tell me Sebastian…What do I do with this now…my heart feels dead. My heart feels like it’s been torn from my body.” “You’ll heal Lilly…I promise you…Charlie loves you…let him help you heal…he needs you as much as you