tying you down...I’m sure you have the power to change it. If you want to something bad enough, you fight for it. You find a way to make it happen. You don’t give up. You can make your own future. And I want to help you. Let me in. I’m not scared of these people.”
I could tell you the exact moment I saw the expression on her face change. How she considered my words for the briefest second before her eyes drew in, her mouth turned down and her eyes disconnected from what her heart was saying to her. I could already see her fear. It returned so quickly.
“It’s not just about what would happen to me...but to you too James. You don’t understand their power. What they’re capable of.” She started to back away again. “I can’t do this. I can’t be the one to let them hurt you. And I don’t need your help. Look, just to be clear...this thing that’s happening between us...this feeling...this, I don’t know, desire, connection, whatever it is...it’s nothing. Okay. Nothing. You got that? We can only be friends...nothing more. In fact, I think it’s better if we just stay away from each other altogether. Alright? I’m betrothed...” She squeezed her eyes shut and then open again. “I mean...taken...And you’re...” she paused, “not part of my world.”
She was trying very hard to push me away. Protect me from something she was scared of. I knew that I didn’t understand what kind of people she was up against and what kind boundaries they had set. But I could feel that she wanted a way out. She wanted me.
“Anais. This is your life. Your choices. Your body. But if it was me and I was stuck in some kind of controlling secret society, I wouldn’t let them take my freedom so easily. I would find a way to make choices that were my own. And I know you’re trying to protect me in some way...somehow, by keeping me at arm’s length, but I wouldn’t have offered myself if I wasn’t sure I could handle the heat...the danger...or whatever it is that you’re in. So please Anais...won’t you let me try for you...”
“James.” She whispered, like she was about to give in. She even stepped towards me for a brief moment. But her fear was stronger than her belief in me, and why wouldn’t it be? She barely knew anything about me except that there was something between us. A connection I was starting to think couldn’t be denied. But then seconds turned into minutes, and I found myself left standing in that room...alone.
{8}
The screaming echoed down the hospital hallway. My Dad, Colton tensed beside me. He stood and began pacing around the room. I knew he wanted to run down the corridor and be with Mommy, his feet shuffling awkwardly every time there was a moan or a scream¸ but he stopped himself when he looked at me. He wasn’t allowed to leave my side. He promised Mommy when she was wheeled away that he would make sure he would never leave me. He would stay and make sure I was safe.
Daddy ran his hands through his hair, still pacing. I had different hair to Daddy. I also had different eyes and a different face. Mommy told me it was because I had two Daddies. I was a special boy which is why I was lucky to have two. But my first Daddy was dead. I had never met him. Never knew who he was. It was before I was born. And then Mommy married Colton, my new Daddy. He is a nice man. Very caring, strong and protective. I loved him very much.
Daddy sat next to me again. He looked nervous. He was breathing fast. “James...how are you doing? Are you alright?”
“What do you mean Daddy?”
“I mean with...last night. Everything happened so quickly. And then we had to get your mother to the hospital. I know we haven’t had a chance to talk about what you saw. What you did. I need to know...how you are feeling...what you remember doing.”
Last night...last night. I tried to think about what happened only hours ago at home, but I couldn’t remember anything. My mind had gone black, like when I sleep. I
I could tell you the exact moment I saw the expression on her face change. How she considered my words for the briefest second before her eyes drew in, her mouth turned down and her eyes disconnected from what her heart was saying to her. I could already see her fear. It returned so quickly.
“It’s not just about what would happen to me...but to you too James. You don’t understand their power. What they’re capable of.” She started to back away again. “I can’t do this. I can’t be the one to let them hurt you. And I don’t need your help. Look, just to be clear...this thing that’s happening between us...this feeling...this, I don’t know, desire, connection, whatever it is...it’s nothing. Okay. Nothing. You got that? We can only be friends...nothing more. In fact, I think it’s better if we just stay away from each other altogether. Alright? I’m betrothed...” She squeezed her eyes shut and then open again. “I mean...taken...And you’re...” she paused, “not part of my world.”
She was trying very hard to push me away. Protect me from something she was scared of. I knew that I didn’t understand what kind of people she was up against and what kind boundaries they had set. But I could feel that she wanted a way out. She wanted me.
“Anais. This is your life. Your choices. Your body. But if it was me and I was stuck in some kind of controlling secret society, I wouldn’t let them take my freedom so easily. I would find a way to make choices that were my own. And I know you’re trying to protect me in some way...somehow, by keeping me at arm’s length, but I wouldn’t have offered myself if I wasn’t sure I could handle the heat...the danger...or whatever it is that you’re in. So please Anais...won’t you let me try for you...”
“James.” She whispered, like she was about to give in. She even stepped towards me for a brief moment. But her fear was stronger than her belief in me, and why wouldn’t it be? She barely knew anything about me except that there was something between us. A connection I was starting to think couldn’t be denied. But then seconds turned into minutes, and I found myself left standing in that room...alone.
{8}
The screaming echoed down the hospital hallway. My Dad, Colton tensed beside me. He stood and began pacing around the room. I knew he wanted to run down the corridor and be with Mommy, his feet shuffling awkwardly every time there was a moan or a scream¸ but he stopped himself when he looked at me. He wasn’t allowed to leave my side. He promised Mommy when she was wheeled away that he would make sure he would never leave me. He would stay and make sure I was safe.
Daddy ran his hands through his hair, still pacing. I had different hair to Daddy. I also had different eyes and a different face. Mommy told me it was because I had two Daddies. I was a special boy which is why I was lucky to have two. But my first Daddy was dead. I had never met him. Never knew who he was. It was before I was born. And then Mommy married Colton, my new Daddy. He is a nice man. Very caring, strong and protective. I loved him very much.
Daddy sat next to me again. He looked nervous. He was breathing fast. “James...how are you doing? Are you alright?”
“What do you mean Daddy?”
“I mean with...last night. Everything happened so quickly. And then we had to get your mother to the hospital. I know we haven’t had a chance to talk about what you saw. What you did. I need to know...how you are feeling...what you remember doing.”
Last night...last night. I tried to think about what happened only hours ago at home, but I couldn’t remember anything. My mind had gone black, like when I sleep. I
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