Fearless Attraction (Cassie Series) by Ashley Beale Page B

with. Telling him I cheated on him would probably hurt him a lot less than telling him I love him, then calling him someone else’s name.
                  In this moment, right here, I absolutely hate myself. I'll never forgive myself, not ever.
                  Despite Avery's hatred right now, I reach out and grab his hand, giving it a squeeze. "I'm sorry Avery, I really am. I don't know what I was thinking. I love you so much."
                  "But you love him too, don't you? You still haven't gotten over him."
                  I swallow down the lump forming, trying my best to be strong. Not for myself, but for him. To give him reassurance that he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. His eyes slowly open to look at me when I'm silent. "I don't know," I answer honestly. "I thought... I thought I got over him, until I saw him."
                  His eye widen and he looks both hurt and angry. "When did you see him?"
                  "He was at your fight." I don't mention the next day, not sure if this is an appropriate time or not.
                  He tilts his head and looks at me. "Did you talk to him?"
                  I shake my head no. I didn't talk to him at the fight. I'm not completely lying.
                  "Have you talked to him at all?"
                  He knows me too well. I nod my head as a new set of tears start flowing from my eyes.
                  His eyes narrow and his voice is weaker when he talks. "Is that all you did... talk?"
                  I shake my head and look down. I start sobbing uncontrollably as he stands up and walks away. I let him walk away. I just sit here as tears flow freely.
                  I think he is completely gone when I stand up and unlock my apartment door. I look down the long hall that leads outside, the direction he had gone, just to see him staring at me from a distance. He has glossy eyes and I can see him shaking. Seeing him this way reminds me that it isn't safe for him to be driving his bike.
                  "Avery?" My voice chokes on the word.
                  He startles, like he wasn't expecting me to notice him, or speak, or say his name. He doesn't reply, so I continue. "Do you want to come in?" He shakes his head no. "Can I drive you home then? I don't feel safe having you drive your bike."
                  He thinks on it for a moment before he nods his head softly, then he turns and walks out the door.
                  I lock up my apartment again and run after him. He is standing outside my car, looking down at his feet, shuffling them uncomfortably.
                  On the ride to his house, I decide this may be my very last chance to make things right. Well, not right, they'll never be right again. Maybe better. Is that what it'll make it? Maybe, possibly. No, probably not. It's worth a shot though.
                  "I never meant to hurt you Avery. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me."
                  "I don't want to hear it Cassie."
                  I don't care, I continue. "You've been amazing to me. I made a mistake, a huge one. I just wanted to apologize to him and it just happened. I don't even know why I let it happen, but I'll never forgive myself. And I'm not asking for your forgiveness, I don't deserve it, but I want you to know, I really am sorry."
                  He turns his entire body to face me. I have to keep my eyes on the road but my body is quite aware of his eyes watching me. "Why the hell would you need to apologize to him?"
                  I exhale a deep breath. This isn't something Avery and I have ever talked about, not once. "When you were fighting over the summer and I was in Hawaii, Pierce and I talked... a lot. We got close." I glance over