it — that indefinable thing that men should have to make women want them.”
But suddenly Brooke’s mood seems to shift, and she even looks a bit angry.
“Why are you making this all about you? What you did or didn’t do? Did you ever consider that she was just frigid when it came to full on intercourse?”
“Not really because she said she had a boyfriend in high school that really made her feel good. She made it clear it was me; whatever it was, I was lacking. Besides, my experiences hadn’t been good in high school either.”
Brooke huffs and folds her arms over her chest. “Really? Maybe she was lying about the boyfriend. She could’ve made him up to cover for her issues. Did you consider that?”
“No, Rachel wouldn’t do that to me. She loved me; I know she did. We stayed close even despite all that.”
“Do you still see her?”
“No, other than seeing her once last year; but we still talk. She took a job at Pixar and moved up North.”
“Does she have a boyfriend now?”
“Not that I know of, but that doesn’t prove anything. I don’t have a girlfriend either.”
“You’re unreal, Nathan.” She shakes her head with disbelief. I can hear the martini drawl in her tone. “Maybe I should just sleep with you and show you what you’re capable of. You need to know what good sex is.”
Oh, good God
. My heart flip-flops at the idea of it. Yet, despite the absolute thrill and how much I want her, this isn’t how I would want it to happen for us. I need her to desire me…not have sex with me to help me.
“Do you think that’s a good idea,” I ask carefully. “I mean, that’s really generous of you but are you sure you’d want to do that? I mean, you aren’t even attracted to me.”
“How do you know that? Maybe I’m wildly attracted to you? Maybe I go to bed every night thinking about you that way.”
Okay…it’s official. She’s really drunk.
I know I’m beet red. No mirror is needed to confirm this. I’m also so painfully hard that I have to lean back in the booth and pivot my hips to adjust myself. “Brooke…” I stammer.
“Okay, I’m sorry…I’m being crass. My point, poorly made, is that I want to help you. And if showing you how to have fun in bed helps you, I’d like to do that. I think you’re amazing, Nathan. I want you to understand how beautiful sex can be. I don’t want you to have all these negative images plaguing you. You aren’t ever going to be truly happy until you get past this.”
Our waitress comes over with her hands on her hips. “Can I get you two some food? Looks like you could use it. Today’s special is prime rib with baked potatoes, how about that?”
We both nod at the same time. When she leaves to put the order in, Brooke reaches over and rests her hand on my arm.
“Don’t worry, we’ll take this slow…one small step at a time. All right?”
I nod, still completely confused about what I’ve signed up for. Am I getting a baked potato and Brooke in my bed? The whiskey must be playing with my head. I can’t even remember if I told her that I had lied about liking Dani, when all I want is her.
After devouring our plates of food, and considerably more sober, we debate in the parking lot who should drive. She finally agrees to let me drive her car. Back at Sketch Republic the parking structure is empty except for my little red Mini-Cooper. I desperately don’t want to say goodnight yet. I never get enough of her.
I am so done for.
After I park her car next to mine we both get out and face each other. She steps closer, and I step back until I’m against my car.
“Are you okay?” she reaches over and touches my wrist. It’s the lightest touch, like a butterfly brushing against me. Yet still, the spot burns hot and wild.
“Shall we practice?” She steps closer still. There’s nowhere for me to go.
“Practice?” I ask, my voice shaky.
“Our kiss, just our kiss,” she whispers and a second later she is pressing up
But suddenly Brooke’s mood seems to shift, and she even looks a bit angry.
“Why are you making this all about you? What you did or didn’t do? Did you ever consider that she was just frigid when it came to full on intercourse?”
“Not really because she said she had a boyfriend in high school that really made her feel good. She made it clear it was me; whatever it was, I was lacking. Besides, my experiences hadn’t been good in high school either.”
Brooke huffs and folds her arms over her chest. “Really? Maybe she was lying about the boyfriend. She could’ve made him up to cover for her issues. Did you consider that?”
“No, Rachel wouldn’t do that to me. She loved me; I know she did. We stayed close even despite all that.”
“Do you still see her?”
“No, other than seeing her once last year; but we still talk. She took a job at Pixar and moved up North.”
“Does she have a boyfriend now?”
“Not that I know of, but that doesn’t prove anything. I don’t have a girlfriend either.”
“You’re unreal, Nathan.” She shakes her head with disbelief. I can hear the martini drawl in her tone. “Maybe I should just sleep with you and show you what you’re capable of. You need to know what good sex is.”
Oh, good God
. My heart flip-flops at the idea of it. Yet, despite the absolute thrill and how much I want her, this isn’t how I would want it to happen for us. I need her to desire me…not have sex with me to help me.
“Do you think that’s a good idea,” I ask carefully. “I mean, that’s really generous of you but are you sure you’d want to do that? I mean, you aren’t even attracted to me.”
“How do you know that? Maybe I’m wildly attracted to you? Maybe I go to bed every night thinking about you that way.”
Okay…it’s official. She’s really drunk.
I know I’m beet red. No mirror is needed to confirm this. I’m also so painfully hard that I have to lean back in the booth and pivot my hips to adjust myself. “Brooke…” I stammer.
“Okay, I’m sorry…I’m being crass. My point, poorly made, is that I want to help you. And if showing you how to have fun in bed helps you, I’d like to do that. I think you’re amazing, Nathan. I want you to understand how beautiful sex can be. I don’t want you to have all these negative images plaguing you. You aren’t ever going to be truly happy until you get past this.”
Our waitress comes over with her hands on her hips. “Can I get you two some food? Looks like you could use it. Today’s special is prime rib with baked potatoes, how about that?”
We both nod at the same time. When she leaves to put the order in, Brooke reaches over and rests her hand on my arm.
“Don’t worry, we’ll take this slow…one small step at a time. All right?”
I nod, still completely confused about what I’ve signed up for. Am I getting a baked potato and Brooke in my bed? The whiskey must be playing with my head. I can’t even remember if I told her that I had lied about liking Dani, when all I want is her.
After devouring our plates of food, and considerably more sober, we debate in the parking lot who should drive. She finally agrees to let me drive her car. Back at Sketch Republic the parking structure is empty except for my little red Mini-Cooper. I desperately don’t want to say goodnight yet. I never get enough of her.
I am so done for.
After I park her car next to mine we both get out and face each other. She steps closer, and I step back until I’m against my car.
“Are you okay?” she reaches over and touches my wrist. It’s the lightest touch, like a butterfly brushing against me. Yet still, the spot burns hot and wild.
“Shall we practice?” She steps closer still. There’s nowhere for me to go.
“Practice?” I ask, my voice shaky.
“Our kiss, just our kiss,” she whispers and a second later she is pressing up
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