look of defiance (or pity?):
âShit, Solange, do you really think there are people who still believe your fatherâs a pilot?â
Her face catches fire.
âYour father is a porter . Do you think I didnât know? Rose saw him carrying her bag when she went to England.â
Suddenly there is no more oxygen in the room. Pretend nothing has happened. Pretend to be what she has always been: the daughter of an Air Inter pilot and a shopkeeper from Clèves-le-Haut.
The girl whoâs having the party is called Lætitia, Lætitia dâUrbide; that means Happiness in Latin. There are at least fifty people, even high school kids and guys from the coast, and punch in salad bowls with ladles.
Stand up straight, like an air hostess.
Rose doesnât seem surprised to see her. Nor embarrassed, or anything. Perhaps sheâs already drunk a fair bit. But itâs impossible to have any contact with Rose now. To get anywhere near her, to be in the same space as her. Itâs as if a river separated them: Rose and her Parisian cousins and Lætitia dâUrbide on one bank, she and Delphine on the other bank. The same bank as Peggy Salami. With the weirdos, the hicks, the concierges, the badly dressed, the perverse , the squalid, those with big chins, the families with ten kids, the outliers, the people whoâve had the same car forever and a yard full of tyres. Like at the Bihotz place. To be labelled a Bihotz.
She serves herself a ladle of punch, drinks it in one go and starts to sway her hips. Letâs Dance . She knows the lyrics by heart; she learned them off the record sleeve, at Roseâs, as it happens. âThat girl is gifted,â Roseâs mother had said.
She will never go to Roseâs again. Never again.
Roseâs father is a teacher and her mother is a sort of assistant art teacher. Sure, they donât live in a chateau but their house is definitely cool and so, whatâs the word, welcoming.
She wants to cry.
Letâs Dance.
Her skirt is falling down, itâs so awkward. First she had put on her shiny gym leggings, and thrown together a very short skirt and a white jersey hooded top, with just a narrow band showing under her V-neck pullover, which sheâd worn back to front, and a fake leather belt that sits perfectly on her hips, very Madonna, and some pink spray in her hair and her fake Dockside shoes. And then she took the whole thing off (just as well sheâd got started early); she borrowed her motherâs Prince of Wales check skirt, her fatherâs black Polo shirt, and it ends up being a really fantastic outfit that looks neat, New Wave, with her imitation Docksides and big white clips in her hair to liven up the effect, and black mascara, and sheâs teased her hair to give it lots of volume. But in no time itâs all hanging flat again. And the skirt is slipping.
She bought some Kool menthol cigarettes and managed to get hold of some Get 27 liqueur; they go well together. Perhaps she shouldnât have drunk it on top of the punch because sheâs starting to freak out. Which is bad when you want to have a good time at a party and go really crazy.
She heads to the toilet so she can hitch the skirt up a bit higher. She is too fat. She makes a solemn resolution, on the spot, to replace a meal a day with cigarettes.
The dâUrbide parents donât seem to be at the chateau. They really are called dâUrbide, with an apostropheââfucking toffs,â says Delphine, who is disgustingly vulgar, a real fishwife. The only adult in the vicinity is Delphineâs mother, who hangs round the whole time, cleaning up glasses. Right now, in fact, she is wiping the floor. Can Delphine do anything she wants in front of her fucking bitch of a mother? It must be difficult. Like when Roseâs father was Roseâs teacher.
She says hello to Delphineâs mother so as not to appear a snob. Someone has put on Sade, the soft
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