heâs not losing weight.â
âI once knew a girl who was anorexic,â Kendra said. We waited for more, but after a long pause, she said, âWhat do you think is wrong with him?â
âNothing!â I exclaimed. âHeâs fine.â
âThank you, Dr. Dunhill,â Morgan said. âThat was a brilliant diagnosis.â
âHe always takes care of himself,â I said, thinking about when Roberto took me to see Mark. âHeâs got a doctor.â
âOh?â Morgan and Kendra both said.
âMaybe heâs got Lou Ferrignoâs disease,â Kendra guessed.
I snorted and Morgan said, âYeah, thatâs it. Heâs going to get mad and turn into the Hulk. Lou Gehrigâs disease, you idiot.â
âWhat is Lou Gehrigâs disease?â Kendra asked. I shrugged. Morgan looked at the floor. âI see. Anyway, we shouldnât be talking about Roberto behind his back.â
âThank you,â I pointedly said to her. âBesides, itâs not like Morgan really cares about Roberto. Sheâs probably just worried heâll kick it and stiff her with the rent.â
âI think heâs positive,â Morgan stated.
Kendra and I were quiet and stared at Morgan as if sheâd just announced that she was leaving to fill Mother Teresaâs vacant sandals.
âBut heâs not gay,â Kendra said. She turned to me and asked, âIs he?â
âYou donât have to be gay to contract HIV, you ninny,â Morgan said.
âI know that!â
âHeâs not,â I said.
âGay? Or positive?â Kendra asked.
âNeither. Both,â I said, even though I couldnât be sure. I didnât want to think about either scenario. âYou can be a real bitch, Morgan. Would it matter to you if he was positive? Or if I was?â
âItâs not like Iâm wishing anything bad on him. People with HIV are still discriminated against. The world can be a sucky place. Iâm concerned. Thatâs all.â
I didnât buy it.
âDonât you have to get back to work?â I asked. âThanks for stopping by and spreading sunshine on our day.â
Morgan shook her head and quietly left. As I finished my egg, Kendra said, âI donât think heâs positive. Roberto looks fine to me. A little tired, maybe, but who isnât? Heâs still hot. Heâs always flirting with me. I think itâs cute. Donât you?â
I wanted the conversation to end, so I just nodded and quietly washed my plate. Kendra turned to leave, then jumped back when the apartment door opened. Morgan stuck her head back in and said, âHey. Thatâs my plate youâre using. Youâd betterâ¦â
Her tirade trailed away when I held up the dripping plate, then did my best to rub away the plateâs pattern with a dish towel. I grunted a few times to make it seem like I was using Herculean strength to make her plate shine. I asked, âAnything else I can do for you?â
She ignored me and said to Kendra, âCome on. Weâll share a cab downtown.â
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As the sun was setting, I sat outside on our fire escape with Roberto and told him about Morganâs egg tirade. He laughed in all the right places and said, âWasnât it always eggs that dragons guarded in medieval times?â
âI thought it was treasure.â
âMaybe eggs are all she has left.â
I disagreed. If Morgan left, our apartment would be empty again. She was the one with all the furniture, the appliances in the kitchen, the television and DVD player, and the good stereo in the living room. We used her things all the time, because we had nothing. I knew the main reason she annoyed me so much was that she seemed so in control of her life. I always felt like there was something inside me that was defective. Maybe the decision-making part of my brain. I was a factory reject. Any day