1990
Antonio,
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Well, Antonio, I am a little bit upset you didnât take the money. That was something I wanted to do for you as a present. People give each other presents all the time. Thatâs all it was. But if you feel like Iâm disrespecting on your manhood then I canât do nothing but respect that. But Iâm telling you, if you need it, donât be afraid to ask.
One person I ainât giving no money to is Roy. Now lemme tell you what this nigga did. He gonna ask me to go to the corner store right and pick him up some stuff. He was smoking the joe and got the munchies, plus he wanted some cigarettes and you remember Sanchez who own the store? Well, he always let me buy cigarettes for Mommy and Roy cause he know us. So I went and got just what Roy asked for: some Newports, OJ, cheese popcorn, 7Up, and we needed some more dish soap. So Iâm thinking he gonna give me the money before I left, but he claimed he was gonna give it to me when I got back. Well, when I came back he gonna talk about âWell if you had the money anyway itâs no use in me giving it back to you.â So I started screaming that I wasnât giving him his shit and he was like, âGirl you better quit playing with me. I ainât yo mama.â And I wasnât gonna give it to him Antonio, I meant it. But then my mother came out her room cause she was in there under the hood dryer wrapping her hair, and usually she donât take my side so
I just threw the bag on the floor and stomped to my room to turned on Queen Latifah just like I always have to. On the way back there though my mother said, âRoy, thatâs Natashaâs money. If I donât ask her for it then neither should you.â And Roy screamed âDenise, she need to contribute to this house. She grown and old enough to open her legs and hit the streets when she wanna so she shouldnât be hollering about no damn ten dollars.â Now, Antonio that made me so mad cause compared with most kids my age, Iâm doing good with myself. I donât even go out that much, only to the movies or parties or Times Square and thatâs only on the weekend. So my mother said, âNatasha do her part with the chores and she pay for almost everything she want, so I donât ask her for no money and she my own daughter.â Then Roy was like, âOh she my daughter too when the rent need to be paid to keep a roof over her head, but she your daughter when itâs time to correct her?â Then Mommy said âYou ainât correcting herâyou just keeping up mess.â Then I just heard Roy stomping around and opening the front door and he said something out in the hall like, âThis whole house ainât nothing but a mess. Drew had some sense getting the hell out.â
Well he was gone for a while before my mother came in the room with a towel wrapped around her head and she sat on my bed I guess expecting me to say something, but I just looked at her like, âWhat?â And she said, âNatasha, canât you just try to stop fighting with Roy? Yâall driving me up the wall, I swear.â And I didnât
even feel like talking about it, so I just sighed real loud and then she kept looking at me and I was like âWhat?â again. And she said, âWell, girl answer me,â and I said, âI didnât know there was a question,â and she just said, âWatch your mouth.â I just told her, Antonio, that I didnât like him, matter of fact I hated him and I couldnât wait to leave and I was going to France and not coming back. Then I told her about Laneiceâs mother and father, about how they didnât scream and fight and holler all the time and that was why I liked to go over there so much. I expected my mother to say something to that, but she didnât for a while and when I finally looked up she had her head down and she was crying. I didnât know what to
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