head, she couldn’t speak. She couldn’t express the way her heart felt like it was breaking all over again. She thought she could be so strong through this, but she couldn’t. With just one look at Lucas, she felt like she was still the 21-year-old woman that ran all those years ago.
“Why ain’t I over him AA? Why?” Fallon said into the pillow. She wasn’t sure that Audrey heard her until she felt Audrey’s hand on her back, rubbing softly.
“I don’t know Fal.”
“I just don’t understand,” Fallon cried as she sat up looking over her. “Is it ‘cause of my secret or is it because I truly still care for him? How though? It’s been so long, and he hurt me so bad. How can I still care for him? I. just. don’t. understand.”
Audrey’s face filled with worry as she wrapped Fallon in her arms. “I feel so stupid, like a weak little whiny baby. I’m not that person. I am strong, I am amazing, I am successful. I am the best fucking mom ever! And look at me! I am a mess, cussing left and right. He fucking does this to me!”
Fallon hated that she was putting all this on Audrey, but she didn’t know what to do, who to talk to about it all. All she knew was that she was hurting and she needed someone to tell her what to do.
“Fallon, I don’t know baby. Love is tricky, intense. I don’t know what to say,” Audrey said into her hair. Fallon nodded slowly, knowing that her baby sister wouldn’t have the words to console her.
Who would?
No one knew about Lucas, no one knew what he did, no one knew the mess he could turn her into. Only she knew and only she knew how to deal with him, and that was to completely cut him out of her life.
She had to, or she was gonna go bat-shit fucking crazy.
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If looks could kill, Lucas would have been dead at least five times that night. He didn’t know that Fallon could give such deadly looks but she could, and they kind of scared him.
Just a little bit though.
Seeing Fallon would have been everything he wanted if she would have been a little nicer. She was feisty and a little rude, but he liked it. He liked that she didn’t take his shit, he liked that she was a little angry. She had been so submissive when they were together, and now it seemed that she was standing up for herself.
And that was one hell of a turn on.
Call him sadistic but he liked a girl that knew what she wanted and how she wanted it. All he had to do was make her realize that he was the one she wanted. That he had changed, and that he could be the man she needed and trusted. He didn’t know how he was going to do it but he would.
There was only one thing bothering Lucas though, and that was the way Fallon and Elli looked at each other when he said that they had dated seven years ago. Something wasn’t right; Fallon had stared Elli down after the words were spoken, and then she did everything but fully run away from them. What was that about? The owner knew something, and he was determined to find out what it was.
The next morning, Lucas skated around the rink for the morning warm up along with his team. When he stopped by the boards for a drink, Sergei Arshan skated up beside him, also grabbing his drink. Lucas nodded towards him before smacking Sergei’s shin with his stick.
Sergei did the same before saying, “We’re going out tonight, you should come.”
Lucas laughed before squirting some Gatorade in his mouth. “It is Sunday.”
“So?”
“I’m good, catch me on a Friday or Saturday and I’m yours,” Lucas said with a smirk on his face.
There was no way he could go out tonight even if he wanted, not that he did. He had an early morning flight to catch. He was going up to Michigan to see his mom for a couple of days. Since he was on a break before heading out on a six-game road trip, he figured using that time to see his mom would be best. He would be gone for three days and when he came back home, he planned on going to
“Why ain’t I over him AA? Why?” Fallon said into the pillow. She wasn’t sure that Audrey heard her until she felt Audrey’s hand on her back, rubbing softly.
“I don’t know Fal.”
“I just don’t understand,” Fallon cried as she sat up looking over her. “Is it ‘cause of my secret or is it because I truly still care for him? How though? It’s been so long, and he hurt me so bad. How can I still care for him? I. just. don’t. understand.”
Audrey’s face filled with worry as she wrapped Fallon in her arms. “I feel so stupid, like a weak little whiny baby. I’m not that person. I am strong, I am amazing, I am successful. I am the best fucking mom ever! And look at me! I am a mess, cussing left and right. He fucking does this to me!”
Fallon hated that she was putting all this on Audrey, but she didn’t know what to do, who to talk to about it all. All she knew was that she was hurting and she needed someone to tell her what to do.
“Fallon, I don’t know baby. Love is tricky, intense. I don’t know what to say,” Audrey said into her hair. Fallon nodded slowly, knowing that her baby sister wouldn’t have the words to console her.
Who would?
No one knew about Lucas, no one knew what he did, no one knew the mess he could turn her into. Only she knew and only she knew how to deal with him, and that was to completely cut him out of her life.
She had to, or she was gonna go bat-shit fucking crazy.
*************************************************
If looks could kill, Lucas would have been dead at least five times that night. He didn’t know that Fallon could give such deadly looks but she could, and they kind of scared him.
Just a little bit though.
Seeing Fallon would have been everything he wanted if she would have been a little nicer. She was feisty and a little rude, but he liked it. He liked that she didn’t take his shit, he liked that she was a little angry. She had been so submissive when they were together, and now it seemed that she was standing up for herself.
And that was one hell of a turn on.
Call him sadistic but he liked a girl that knew what she wanted and how she wanted it. All he had to do was make her realize that he was the one she wanted. That he had changed, and that he could be the man she needed and trusted. He didn’t know how he was going to do it but he would.
There was only one thing bothering Lucas though, and that was the way Fallon and Elli looked at each other when he said that they had dated seven years ago. Something wasn’t right; Fallon had stared Elli down after the words were spoken, and then she did everything but fully run away from them. What was that about? The owner knew something, and he was determined to find out what it was.
The next morning, Lucas skated around the rink for the morning warm up along with his team. When he stopped by the boards for a drink, Sergei Arshan skated up beside him, also grabbing his drink. Lucas nodded towards him before smacking Sergei’s shin with his stick.
Sergei did the same before saying, “We’re going out tonight, you should come.”
Lucas laughed before squirting some Gatorade in his mouth. “It is Sunday.”
“So?”
“I’m good, catch me on a Friday or Saturday and I’m yours,” Lucas said with a smirk on his face.
There was no way he could go out tonight even if he wanted, not that he did. He had an early morning flight to catch. He was going up to Michigan to see his mom for a couple of days. Since he was on a break before heading out on a six-game road trip, he figured using that time to see his mom would be best. He would be gone for three days and when he came back home, he planned on going to
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