Scarlett and I are moving in here with Star and Magnolia.” Star smiles like a lovestruck fool, and I know exactly how she feels because I’m wearing the same expression.
Both Magnolia and Scarlett screech like only tween girls can, jumping up and down, high fiving each other before flinging themselves into each others arms. “YAAAHHHHHHH!”
The only problem I now have is fielding my emotions and what to do about everything with Diesel.
After dinner, a ton of the bikers return to the house - even though Ryker was the only one technically not family to spend dinner with us. I sneak around the house looking for Diesel, hoping I can catch a moment alone with him and try to talk about everything that is going on; everything that has happened between us and where the hell I am supposed to go from here.
I’ve sidestepped River more than a couple times, and he is starting to look annoyed with me. His possessiveness is abundantly clear. It excites me and scares me all at once, because the one thing I am looking for right now is independence and I begin to wonder if that is something I will be able to obtain with him.
“What are you doing, Paisley?” River questions as he sneaks up behind me. His arms wrap around my middle and I debate telling him the truth. I’m not a liar. I hate lying actually. The little white lies I’ve told recently slowly eat me alive.
“Actually, River…” I turn in his arms to face him. His smile fades. “I am looking for Diesel. I need to talk to him about some stuff.” His bright green eyes darken, and I think I said the wrong thing.
“What would you have to talk to Diesel about?” I pull him toward the bathroom off the kitchen. Once we are inside I close and lock the door. We need privacy for this conversation.
“River, after that night in my room. We spent a night together. We were gonna give things a try until I found out he was involved with someone else. It’s complicated.” I sigh and turn away from him. My heart is beating so fast, I’m sure it is going to sprint right out of my chest. I’m worried about whatever is going to happen, but I continue talking.
“I care about him. I am torn between the two of you and I need you both to know that. I need to be honest with you, and with him.” My eyes start to pool with tears as I see River pulling away from me again. I hate that I just did that to him.
“Paisley, you gotta pick. You can’t bounce between us. I can’t share you.” I knew it was coming. I just didn’t want it to come so soon.
“I know River. I know. And I’m sorry.” I have to get away from him. I have to get away from everyone and everything. Maybe I should just talk to Star and see if she would mind loaning me money to get my own place - or even upping my hours at the art shop. Anything to just break away from this all.
I push out of the bathroom, and right into a giant brick wall of a man. I don’t need to look to know it is Diesel. When my body collides with his, he wraps his arm around me and pulls me close. My heart skips a couple beats and instantly my body is tingling from the simple touch.
“I’ve been looking for you.” I pull away from him, or at least try to. His arm tightens around my back. River picks that moment to walk out of the bathroom. He takes one look at us, and I just wait for the explosion. His fist collides with the wall behind my head, and I flinch. Did I think he was going to hit me?
Diesel pulls me away, and River just walks out the back door into the cold December night. I give up.
“You’ve been lookin’ for me, Princess?” Diesel chooses that moment to snap me back to reality - the reality where I do nothing but hurt other people. After being hurt so brutally myself, how can I live knowing what I’m doing to the men in my life?
“Yeah, we need to talk about some stuff.” I almost want to say step into my office and pull him back into the bathroom, but instead I take him to my bedroom. He takes a seat in
Both Magnolia and Scarlett screech like only tween girls can, jumping up and down, high fiving each other before flinging themselves into each others arms. “YAAAHHHHHHH!”
The only problem I now have is fielding my emotions and what to do about everything with Diesel.
After dinner, a ton of the bikers return to the house - even though Ryker was the only one technically not family to spend dinner with us. I sneak around the house looking for Diesel, hoping I can catch a moment alone with him and try to talk about everything that is going on; everything that has happened between us and where the hell I am supposed to go from here.
I’ve sidestepped River more than a couple times, and he is starting to look annoyed with me. His possessiveness is abundantly clear. It excites me and scares me all at once, because the one thing I am looking for right now is independence and I begin to wonder if that is something I will be able to obtain with him.
“What are you doing, Paisley?” River questions as he sneaks up behind me. His arms wrap around my middle and I debate telling him the truth. I’m not a liar. I hate lying actually. The little white lies I’ve told recently slowly eat me alive.
“Actually, River…” I turn in his arms to face him. His smile fades. “I am looking for Diesel. I need to talk to him about some stuff.” His bright green eyes darken, and I think I said the wrong thing.
“What would you have to talk to Diesel about?” I pull him toward the bathroom off the kitchen. Once we are inside I close and lock the door. We need privacy for this conversation.
“River, after that night in my room. We spent a night together. We were gonna give things a try until I found out he was involved with someone else. It’s complicated.” I sigh and turn away from him. My heart is beating so fast, I’m sure it is going to sprint right out of my chest. I’m worried about whatever is going to happen, but I continue talking.
“I care about him. I am torn between the two of you and I need you both to know that. I need to be honest with you, and with him.” My eyes start to pool with tears as I see River pulling away from me again. I hate that I just did that to him.
“Paisley, you gotta pick. You can’t bounce between us. I can’t share you.” I knew it was coming. I just didn’t want it to come so soon.
“I know River. I know. And I’m sorry.” I have to get away from him. I have to get away from everyone and everything. Maybe I should just talk to Star and see if she would mind loaning me money to get my own place - or even upping my hours at the art shop. Anything to just break away from this all.
I push out of the bathroom, and right into a giant brick wall of a man. I don’t need to look to know it is Diesel. When my body collides with his, he wraps his arm around me and pulls me close. My heart skips a couple beats and instantly my body is tingling from the simple touch.
“I’ve been looking for you.” I pull away from him, or at least try to. His arm tightens around my back. River picks that moment to walk out of the bathroom. He takes one look at us, and I just wait for the explosion. His fist collides with the wall behind my head, and I flinch. Did I think he was going to hit me?
Diesel pulls me away, and River just walks out the back door into the cold December night. I give up.
“You’ve been lookin’ for me, Princess?” Diesel chooses that moment to snap me back to reality - the reality where I do nothing but hurt other people. After being hurt so brutally myself, how can I live knowing what I’m doing to the men in my life?
“Yeah, we need to talk about some stuff.” I almost want to say step into my office and pull him back into the bathroom, but instead I take him to my bedroom. He takes a seat in
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