again.
“Do you still love him?” I blurt.
She looks up with wide eyes, her jaw slightly slack. “What?” I shake my head, about to tell her that she didn’t have to answer that, but she’d already slumped back in despair. “If I said yes…” She started slowly. “Would that make me pathetic?”
“No, that would make you human,” I tell her.
“Well I don’t want to be human, not if it means I’m open to getting my heart broken again!”
“You’re not, ” I insist. “You’re just willing to try and put the pieces back together again.”
Remy laughed, narrowing her eyes in thought; it was scary sometimes how the bubbly, innocent girl could be so… competitive. “I spy with my little eye…”
“P! Something beginning with P!” She bursts, a smirk on her face. Dana looks over at me and rolls her eyes.
“People?” She mumbles under her breath, before returning her attention to the magazine she’s been flipping the pages of for the last hour.
Remy turns to her in shock. “Did you just read my mind?”
“Hey guys!” Joey walks over and falls dramatically next to me, a wide smirk on his face. “You could have told me we were sitting outside for lunch today, I was sat on my own looking like a looser for ten whole minutes!”
Remy giggles, “maybe we were trying to tell you something.”
His eyes widen, making us all laugh. “Don’t worry, Joey,” I tell him with a grin. “We’d never abandon you.”
“Aw, thanks Darcy,” he gushes, wrapping his arms around me in a tight hug. “I know I can always count on you!”
I share a look with Dana, who blushes and looks away. After our talk yesterday, she’d made me promise not to tell anybody about her still harbouring feeling for Alex, and I’d promised. But that didn’t mean I wasn’t going to talk to her about how she felt.
I knew she still liked him, but I also understood that he was a jerk and he broke her heart. I must be a horrible friend. What kind of friend is happy for their friend to have feelings for somebody who broke their heart?
Joey pokes my cheek, bringing me back to earth; Remy and Dana are arguing over I Spy and Joey has been trying to show me a text by shoving his phone in my face. “ Look, ” he exclaims. “Some loser has just lied about being raped! I just got told then from their cousins friend who-“
“Joey,” I say slowly. “I, um, I gotta go.” I jump up and say a rushed bye before running inside the school and to the empty library – even the librarian has gone for lunch. I fall against a bookshelf at the back and bring my hand up to cover my face.
That word…
Every time I hear it, I break. I take a deep breath, my heart racing as I try to pull myself together.
No, I think to myself. I will not break down. I push the memories back into the deepest, darkest corner of my mind and forget about them as much as I can. I sigh, wipe my eyes fiercely with the sleeve of my jumper, and stand up. I won’t let it get to me again.
But no matter how much I try to convince myself, there’s still that internal voice called my subconscious whispering mockingly; yeah right.
Seventeen
“And then I’m going to change my name to Simon, so every body has to do what I say…” Remy laughed evilly, falling back against Joey’s leg. We were sat in my house – unfortunately, they’d turned up so we could “study”, and yet none of them said anything about how empty it was and about its poor state. I was beginning to thing none of them cared.
So here we are; me, Joey, Remy and Dana. Joey was sat on the chair in the corner, me and Dana were sat on the couch (again, avoiding The Dent) and Remy was, well, she was rolling on the floor as she made a long list of evil plans to do in the future.
Dana looked bored, her head leaning on her hand as she watched Remy try to pull off Joey’s shoe. I nudged her gently. “You okay?”
“Yeah…” she nods, a frown pulling at her
“Do you still love him?” I blurt.
She looks up with wide eyes, her jaw slightly slack. “What?” I shake my head, about to tell her that she didn’t have to answer that, but she’d already slumped back in despair. “If I said yes…” She started slowly. “Would that make me pathetic?”
“No, that would make you human,” I tell her.
“Well I don’t want to be human, not if it means I’m open to getting my heart broken again!”
“You’re not, ” I insist. “You’re just willing to try and put the pieces back together again.”
Remy laughed, narrowing her eyes in thought; it was scary sometimes how the bubbly, innocent girl could be so… competitive. “I spy with my little eye…”
“P! Something beginning with P!” She bursts, a smirk on her face. Dana looks over at me and rolls her eyes.
“People?” She mumbles under her breath, before returning her attention to the magazine she’s been flipping the pages of for the last hour.
Remy turns to her in shock. “Did you just read my mind?”
“Hey guys!” Joey walks over and falls dramatically next to me, a wide smirk on his face. “You could have told me we were sitting outside for lunch today, I was sat on my own looking like a looser for ten whole minutes!”
Remy giggles, “maybe we were trying to tell you something.”
His eyes widen, making us all laugh. “Don’t worry, Joey,” I tell him with a grin. “We’d never abandon you.”
“Aw, thanks Darcy,” he gushes, wrapping his arms around me in a tight hug. “I know I can always count on you!”
I share a look with Dana, who blushes and looks away. After our talk yesterday, she’d made me promise not to tell anybody about her still harbouring feeling for Alex, and I’d promised. But that didn’t mean I wasn’t going to talk to her about how she felt.
I knew she still liked him, but I also understood that he was a jerk and he broke her heart. I must be a horrible friend. What kind of friend is happy for their friend to have feelings for somebody who broke their heart?
Joey pokes my cheek, bringing me back to earth; Remy and Dana are arguing over I Spy and Joey has been trying to show me a text by shoving his phone in my face. “ Look, ” he exclaims. “Some loser has just lied about being raped! I just got told then from their cousins friend who-“
“Joey,” I say slowly. “I, um, I gotta go.” I jump up and say a rushed bye before running inside the school and to the empty library – even the librarian has gone for lunch. I fall against a bookshelf at the back and bring my hand up to cover my face.
That word…
Every time I hear it, I break. I take a deep breath, my heart racing as I try to pull myself together.
No, I think to myself. I will not break down. I push the memories back into the deepest, darkest corner of my mind and forget about them as much as I can. I sigh, wipe my eyes fiercely with the sleeve of my jumper, and stand up. I won’t let it get to me again.
But no matter how much I try to convince myself, there’s still that internal voice called my subconscious whispering mockingly; yeah right.
Seventeen
“And then I’m going to change my name to Simon, so every body has to do what I say…” Remy laughed evilly, falling back against Joey’s leg. We were sat in my house – unfortunately, they’d turned up so we could “study”, and yet none of them said anything about how empty it was and about its poor state. I was beginning to thing none of them cared.
So here we are; me, Joey, Remy and Dana. Joey was sat on the chair in the corner, me and Dana were sat on the couch (again, avoiding The Dent) and Remy was, well, she was rolling on the floor as she made a long list of evil plans to do in the future.
Dana looked bored, her head leaning on her hand as she watched Remy try to pull off Joey’s shoe. I nudged her gently. “You okay?”
“Yeah…” she nods, a frown pulling at her
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