pain. With all the resentment he held toward his father, his heart still bled for him. Looking to his side, it amazed him how pain could be such a cohesive bond in bringing people closer together. The bottom line wasâthey were family. Beyond their differences and hard feelings, they shared a common love and the pain that came from losing it. Heâd always thought of his father as being lazyâin a fearful sort of way. Now, he just felt bad for him. Evan realized that his love for his father was stronger than his own pride. He placed his hand upon his paâs trembling shoulder. Allowing his own tears loose, his mind suddenly flashed Carleyâs smiling face. His body shuddered at the unexpected picture, and he realized that the woman he thought was his soul mate had already become nothing more than a bad memory.
Tara huddled against her brother. As the pastor spoke, her thoughts jumped from Lila to Bryce to the possible reasons Georgey didnât make it to the funeral. Her mind was everywhere and she felt a wave of anxiety wash over her. Her life was in complete shambles, but looking around she discovered that Evan had been right. She wasnât alone. There was pain etched into every face. All I want is a drink , she thought. Her body craved it terribly. She looked across the casket and noticed Grampa Johnâs mouth moving. Heâs whispering something to Grandma , she realized. That was it. She lost it.
Trapped in his own bitterness, anger and sorrow, John stared at his wifeâs coffin. Suddenly, Aliceâs bony finger nudged him hard in the back, causing goose bumps to cover his body. Itâs her touch, he knew. Iâd never miss it. The strong smell of lilac wafted in the air. Sheâs tryinâ to tell me somethinâ .
As if heâd been blinded for days, his eyes reached across the casket and rested upon his family. He gasped at the sight of them. Quickly studying each face, for the first time he could see the painâand it wasnât only from grieving the loss of Alice. The entire family was broken. He could feel it as plain as Aliceâs message on his back. They were all slumped over from the weight of the cross they each carried. How could I have been so blind? he thought, kicking himself for missing it. If there had been a second hole, he would have endured his own grief and buried their pain instead. His concern had already shifted.
John continued to study their eyes. It was clear. The very fabric of their lives had become stained and tattered. The look on the two young ones only confirmed Johnâs beliefs of the world beyond the mountains. Like a cruel dream grinder, itâs chewed âem up and spit âem out.
Their parents werenât in any better shape. Hank could barely stand, while Elle neglected her own needsâas usualâand tended to him. John felt Hankâs pain and cringed over the doubts of being able to heal the one who needed it most. He shook his head. The quilt that Alice spent so many years on is unravelinâ at the seams, he thought. No wonder she kept pokinâ me until I opened my eyes. While my squaw struggled so hard to remember her own life, her family was all fightinâ to forget their own. He felt one more nudge in the back and grinned. âI know, Alice. I know,â he said aloud. Others glanced nervously at the outburst. Johnâs grin scared them more.
The preacher had just finished his sermon when John dropped to both knees and spoke to his wife. âI see now, squaw. Seems I still got some chores that need tendinâ to.â He placed his lips to the frozen casket and kissed her. âYouâre right, as usual. Thereâs some mendinâ to be done. So leave the porch light on for me and Iâll be along when Iâm through.â Standing slowly, he straightened out his back and steeled himself for the chores ahead of him. I still got a few more miles to go , he decided. And it
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