The Historian by Elizabeth Kostova

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    ―I know what you‘re looking for, sir. There is such a listing, for universities and museums, although it‘s by no means complete. We don‘t have it here—the central library desk can show it to you. They open tomorrow at nine o‘clock in the morning.‖
    My train to London, I remembered, didn‘t leave until 10:14. It would take only ten minutes or so to glance through the possibilities. And if Sultan Mehmed II‘s name, or the names of his immediate successors, appeared among any of the possibilities—well, I hadn‘t wanted to see Rhodes so very badly after all.
    Yours in profoundest grief, Bartholomew Rossi
    Time seemed to have stopped in the high-vaulted library hall, despite the activity all around me. I had read one whole letter, but there were at least four more in the pile beneath it. I noticed, looking up, that a blue depth had opened behind the upper windows: twilight. I would have to walk home in it alone, I thought like a frightened child. Again I felt the urge to rush to Rossi‘s office door and knock briskly on it. Surely I‘d find him sitting there turning over pages of manuscript in the pool of yellow light on his desk. I was perplexed, all over again, the way one is after a friend‘s death, by the unreality of the situation, the impossibility it presented to the mind. In fact, I was as much puzzled as I was afraid, and my bewilderment increased my fear because I couldn‘t recognize my usual self in that state.
    As I pondered this, I glanced down at the neat piles of papers on my table. I had taken up a great deal of the surface with this spread. As a consequence, probably, no one had tried to sit down opposite me or to occupy any of the other chairs at the table. I was just wondering if I should gather up all of this work and walk home to continue there later when a young woman approached and seated herself at one end of the table. I saw, looking around, that the surrounding catalog tables were full to capacity and strewn with other people‘s books, typescripts, card-catalog drawers, and notepads. She had no other place to sit, I realized, but I felt suddenly protective of Rossi‘s documents; I dreaded the involuntary glance of a stranger‘s eye on them. Did they look obviously mad? Or did I?
    I was just about to gather the papers together, carefully, preserving their original order, and pack them away, just about to make those slow and polite movements with which you try falsely to assure the other person who has just sat down apologetically at the cafeteria table that you really were leaving anyway—when I suddenly noticed the book the young woman had propped up in front of her. She was already flipping through the center section of it, a notebook and pen lying ready at her elbow. I glanced from the book‘s title to her face, in astonishment, and then at the other book she had set down nearby. Then I looked back at her face.
    It was a young face but already aging very slightly and handsomely, with the light crinkling of skin I recognized around my own eyes in the mirror every morning, a barely veiled fatigue, so I knew she must be a graduate student. It was also an elegant, angular face that wouldn‘t have been out of place in a medieval altar painting, saved from a pinched look by the delicate widening of cheekbones. Her complexion was pale but could have turned olive after a week in the sun. Her lashes were lowered toward the book, her firm mouth and spreading eyebrows somehow made alert by whatever her eyes followed on the page. Her dark, almost sooty hair sprang away from her forehead with more vigor than was fashionable in those tightly groomed days. The title of her reading, in this place of myriad inquiry—I looked again, again astonished—was The Carpathians . Under her dark-sweatered elbow rested Bram Stoker‘s Dracula .

    At that moment, the young woman glanced up and met my gaze, and I realized I‘d been staring directly at her, which must have been offensive.