Exforth, but surroundings meant little to Piper. The main thing in his life was his writing
and he continued his routine on the ship. In the morning he wrote at a table in his cabin and
after lunch lay with Sonia on the sundeck discussing life, literature and Pause O Men for the
Virgin in a haze of happiness.
'For the first time in my life I am truly happy,' he confided to his diary and that band of
future scholars who would one day study his private life. 'My relationship with Sonia has added a
new dimension to my existence and extended my understanding of what it means to be mature.
Whether this can be called love only time will tell but is it not enough to know that we
interrelate so personally? I can only find it in myself to regret that we have been brought
together by so humanly debasing a book as POMFTV. But as Thomas Mann would have said with that
symbolic irony which is the hallmark of his work "Every cloud has a silver lining", and one can
only agree with him. Would that it were otherwise!!! Sonia insists on my re-reading the book so
that I can imitate who wrote it. I find this very difficult, both the assumption that I am the
author and the need to read what can only influence my own work for the worse. Still, I am
persevering with the task and Search for a Lost Childhood is coming along as well as can be
expected given the exigencies of my present predicament.'
There was a great deal more in the same vein. In the evening Piper insisted on reading what he
had written of Search aloud to Sonia when she would have preferred to be dancing or playing
roulette. Piper disapproved of such frivolities. They were not part of those experiences which
made up the significant relationships upon which great literature was founded.
'But shouldn't there be more action?' said Sonia one evening when he had finished reading his
day's work. 'I mean nothing ever seems to happen. It's all description and what people
think.'
'In the contemplative novel thought is action,' said Piper quoting verbatim from The Moral
Novel. 'Only the immature mind finds satisfaction in action as an external activity. What we
think and feel determines what we are and it is in the essential areness of the human character
that the great dramas of life are enacted.'
'Ourness?' said Sonia hopefully.
'Areness,' said Piper. 'Are with an A.'
'Oh.'
'It means essential being. Like Dasein.'
'Don't you mean "design"?' said Sonia.
'No,' said Piper, who had once read several sentences from Heidegger, 'Dasein's got an A
too.'
'You could have fooled me,' said Sonia. 'Still, if you say so.'
'And the novel if it is to justify itself as a mode of inter-communicative art must deal
solely with experienced reality. The self-indulgent use of the imagination beyond the parameter
of our personal experience demonstrates a superficiality which can only result in the
unrealization of our individual potentialities.'
'Isn't that a bit limiting?' said Sonia. 'I mean if all you can write about is what has
happened to you you've got to end up describing getting up in the morning and having breakfast
and going to work...'
'Well, that's important too,' said Piper, whose morning's writing had consisted of a
description of getting up and having breakfast and going to school. 'The novelist invests these
events with his own intrinsic interpretation.'
'But maybe people don't want to read about that sort of thing. They want romance and sex and
excitement. They want the unexpected. That's what sells.'
'It may sell,' said Piper, 'but does it matter?'
'It matters if you want to go on writing. You've got to earn your bread. Now Pause
sells...'
'I can't imagine why,' said Piper. 'I read that chapter you told me to and honestly it's
disgusting.'
'So reality isn't all that nice,' said Sonia, wishing that Piper wasn't quite so highminded.
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