chair whose seat had rotted out. The chair sat back on its haunches. Theyâd gone off on foot the other day, charged with fantasiesâover the next rise, what if they came upon men in chaps, branding and cutting calves. Or a wild horse in a corral, a rodeo rider breaking him bareback. Even as they laughed, imagining the dirty things theyâd do, Nick had thought: The man we are after is still external to us both, even now. If asked to pin down who that man could be if not Sam, Nick would have said two or three things without thinking: He regularly wrestles some actual creature of the earth, and heâs glad to be alone, whenever he can, and one day is so much like another that he doesnât hear them going by. It was another way of saying he had to be careless. Oddly enough, the cowboy lover in Nickâs head didnât need sex and hadnât had a lot. He was pretty shy. And if he wasnât Sam, then Sam could not obsess him like a dream any longer. That meant that here they were at last, merely a man and a man, and Nick had the same power to be careless as Sam. He knew how much he preferred the dream.
âI never know what I want until itâs time,â Sam said. âYou know what I thought about doing when I was driving up here? Going to your house.â
âIn Bel-Air?â
âI figured I ought to see how the other halfâs living these days. But then when I saw you at the door, I remembered I wanted to get laid.â
Nick was standing at ease, halfway across the room, his hands in his back pockets. They both looked surly, as if it were a duel coming up. They were just out of range of each otherâs weapons and they went through their footwork to loosen up. Sam was already hard as he slipped his Leviâs down around his thighs. No underwear, of course. Sam followed the fashion in these matters to the letter.
âAnd after that?â Nick asked with mock weariness, as if Sam was going to have his own way no matter what. âThen would it amuse you to tour Bel-Air?â
âI wonât know until itâs time. I donât think ahead if I can help it.â
Ritaâs right, Nick thought as he moved to the bed and knelt between Samâs legs. The flash of Rita brought back, like a second in a dream, the whole halting theory of Rita and the world. âInstead of growing up,â she had said last week at dinner, âI read a thousand books. In books, the people start their letters, âDear So-and-so, I think of you so often.âAfter a while it made me mad. I wanted to say, âBut people donât think that often. About anything.âAnd Nick protested. He never forgot a face himself, and it would have been the truth if heâd said it in his letters, because everyone he knew went through his mind from time to time, as if on cue. But Sam was the sort of person Rita must have meant. Meanwhile, the thought of Rita passed in a moment, but it was odd enough for anything to intrude among the cowboys and surfers that crowded Nickâs heated brain when he went to bed. As to letters, he didnât know what he was talking about. His only commerce with the mails had to do with paying bills.
He held Samâs hips in his hands and sucked him up and down. It was as good a place to start as any, and it held him off from too much tight embracing, which made Sam nervous and shook him off. Also, he could be fairly certain for the time being that he wouldnât say the wrong thing, and now, at the first touch, he always fell into his most unguarded moment. If it had gone another way and heâd sucked Samâs ear, something he delighted in, he might have whispered, while Sam squirmed, the very antidote to his detachment. He knew Sam so well already that his cock seemed to have a taste all its own, which it didnât, but as it was in his mouth that Nick made the connection, taste was a way of thinking about it. Actually the texture and the
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