slipping over my shoulders, my arms, my chest. âThis is not really what I had in mind. Are you forgoing the romance? The long talks and teasing caresses?â
I clear my throat. âI want to see if you can play.â
âOh, Rain.â His tone makes things shrink inside me like theyâre being singed at the edges. âIâm game.â
He unbuttons his shirt. Slides out of his pants. âTo the bed?â
âNo. Right here.â
His chuckle is joyful, and I clench my teeth and squeeze my eyes against it. He wraps an arm around my waist and braces me against the window. His body is so firmâI wait for the warmth from within that I felt before, but it doesnât come.
Be soft!
âI donât know what to do.â My heart slams in my paper-thin chest. âYou have to show me.â He doesnât say anything, and I grip the window ledge, my fingernails throbbing as they grind the metal. âYouâre going to have to help me.â
Why wonât he answer?
âJohnny.â
âShhh,â he says. âFirst rule, you donât have sex with your head turned on. Actually, thatâs the only rule.â
I believe him. Maybe I have to. I give in to his kissing and pressing. My legs relax so terribly slowly . . . like ice thawing against his heat.
I am here. And this is . . .
Pain streaks up from my insides, clawing all the way to my mind.
Happening .
CHAPTER
10
W hen Johnny lets go, I slip down the window. My hips tip like theyâve been realigned, and he laughs. âThatâs always a favorite part.â He holds an arm out, and I brace myself on it to keep from falling to my knees. âYouâve got your Void legs now, Rain.â
I watch him dress.
My own clothes are too far away.
âYour first time and standing. I knew you werenât going to disappoint me.â He fastens his pants.
I have to swallow twice before my words will come. âCan I see my brother now?â
âTomorrow. Ben will need to take you, and heâs on his night duties.â His brown eyes are too lively. âIâm hungry. You?â
âNo.â I may never eat again.
âSuit yourself.â He leans in to kiss me, and after what we just did, Iâm surprised to find his lips intimate. He presses his face against mine for a moment. âI can still be a gentleman,â he says like heâs trying to convince himself. He locks eyes with me. âThank you. I enjoyed that.â
I donât quite believe it when the door shuts, when I realize itâsover, and heâs gone.
âYouâre welcome.â
I pull on my clothes and lean against the window. His body raged so hot against mine that it seemed to burn an impression of him into my back. I relish the cool of the pane, hoping the window can put the fire out.
Sparks and stars? How could I have been such a fool? The only spark between Johnny and me is the jolt of his needs. And what I need now is the strength of my family, or whatâs left of it. I need my brother.
Tomorrow , Johnny had said. Well, I canât wait.
My legs ache as I amble out the door, and the little bit of blood that left me makes my pants stick to my thighs. Still, I keep going.
The hallway light is dim, set low for night, and it draws spiky shadows down the walls. The Family Roomâs lights are off altogether, and I creep around the sleeping girls to the corner window where Ben resides. I pull back a curtain and find his boots at face level. His legs slide up and down on the wall for balance while his arms lift his body in a series of vertical push-ups.
âWow,â I say. âThatâs intense.â
He kicks down, and I duck out of the way of his swinging legs. âOn this ship, itâs too easy to go soft,â he says through pants. âYouâve got to . . . to try.â He peels his sweaty shirt over his head and uses it to wipe his face. I look to the window to
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