She hesitates before stepping forward. Her hair is all over the place, she has no make-up on, and is still in the same pale blue dress she wore yesterday and the day before; this is a woman who prides herself on her appearance. And yet she looks more beautiful than ever. I stand behind her until she finally sits.
âEat this and then weâll go. Iâll drive us out along the Wattle Creek road. We can use the spotlight.â
I dish up the food and sit at the other side of the table. âShe could turn up ⦠anywhere.â
Caroline pushes her plate to one side. âWhat else havenât you told us?â
I take another sip of wine. âIf Iâd have known ⦠I didnât think it mattered.â
She jumps up, jerking the table, spilling wine. âTwo people disappear and you donât think it matters? My God, Eddie, youâre a heartless bastard. And there was me thinking you might actually feel something.â
âThatâs not what I meant. I didnât want to scare you, not before weâd found her. Listen to me.â I try to reach her but she pulls away. âI love you.â
When she turns back, her face has set into a pyramid of dark lines. âTwenty-three women spent today searching for Georgie, and yesterday, and the day before, and the day before that. Weâve been searching for two weeks.â
âThe police will find her.â
âTwo detectives with dogs? Theyâre out twelve hours a day. How long do you think itâs going to take?â
âThey know what theyâre doing. Come on, eat before it gets cold and then weâll go.â She hasnât eaten properly in days, or slept more than a few hours at a time. You canât expect to think straight like that.
She sits again, out of exhaustion by the looks of it, and watches me eat. I cut a chunk of steak and offer it to her on my fork, but she refuses. In the kerosene light, her face glows. I do really love this woman.
âHave some wine.â I push the glass towards her. âWhere are you going?â
âOut.â
âYouâll need some warmer clothes. Iâll get you some. Wait here. Why donât you take a shower? Youâll feel better. Iâll get you something to wear and then weâll go.â
She stops at the door, turning to face me. âThis is your favourite, not mine,â she says, gesturing towards the plate.
âWait,â I say.
I think about the tiny blue vein pulsing in Carolineâs neck as I rush out through the shop.
Itâs cool outside. A constant drone of cicadas shivers through the air. There is a stark quarter moon. The wine has made me feel weightless; my feet skate along. When I pass the truck, I get an idea. I open the shed, pull out the gear and load up the boot, just in case.
The caravan seems to shrink as I approach. Someone has left the door open. I flick on the light and sort through a pile of clothes for some jeans and a long-sleeved blouse. I pick out a few blouses for Caroline to choose from. They smell of her. For a while I forget what Iâm doing, even think of lying down and closing my eyes, and then I catch sight of Georgieâs clogs. I abandon the clothes on the bed and bend down to pick one up. Itâs so small, it fits in the palm of my hand, engine red, black laces, like a dollâs shoe. My strawberry girl.
I drop the clog, scoop up the clothes, and head out with the smallness of that clog inside me. When Iâm halfway across the tarmac, the darkness seems to close in on me. I canât see. I start to run head first. I keep running until I reach the shop. Only when I open the door do I realise how terrified I am.
Caroline is standing by the window in a towel. Her hair is wet. She looks annoyed. âWhat took you so long?â
I hand over the clothes and sit on the settee. My cine-camera is out of its case. Monica must have been playing with it. I check the controls and
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