sick of listening to you.â
âAnd Iâm sick of you acting like this,â I said. âI wonât let you drink around the baby.â
âThat suits me fine. Maybe itâs not even mine.â
I felt as if heâd kicked me in the stomach. In the dim light inside the truck his face looked like a strangerâs.
âGabriel, how can you say a thing like that?â
âIâm sick of you ragging on me all the time! This is the real me! Take it or leave it!â
âAnd Iâm sick of watching you kill yourself with booze! If you hate life so much, why donât you just blow your head off?â
âMaybe I will!â he roared. He kicked me out of the truck; actually kicked and pushed me out. Then he went around back and dragged Jack out, leaving us there, by the side of the road. We waited in the dark for Gabe to come back for us, then we walked home. That was two nights ago. It was the last time that Gabe and I spoke.
Usually, after we fought, heâd call and apologize. Iâm sorry, honey girl; it wonât happen again. Heâd say he was going to quit drinking so much. Heâd promise that things were going to change.
This time he didnât call me and I didnât call him. I was too angry. I was too proud. This is the last straw, I thought; Iâve had it.
We were supposed to go to Mendocino for dinner this weekend. Gabe told me about it on Monday night, the night before he turned on me. We were parked in his truck, in front of my house. Gabe had his hand on my belly. My folks were inside, watching the news on TV. I thought: Wait till they hear the news about this baby.
He told me heâd made a reservation at Collins House, a beautiful old inn overlooking the sea. I said he shouldnât do that; itâs too expensive. He doesnât make much money at the planter box factory.
âWeâre going,â he said. âYou deserve the best. Weâll have a nice dinner Saturday night, just you and me and Jasper.â Thatâs what he jokingly calls the baby. Heâs sure itâs going to be a boy. Gabe patted my belly. âItâs hard to believe heâs really in there. How does he breathe?â
âThrough the cord, I think. Itâs complicated. Gabe, weâve got to plan this out. Weâve got to tell our families.â
âYouâre the one whoâs been putting it off. Honey, I want you to marry me.â
I said, âMaybe we shouldnât get married right away.â Iâd always thought we would, someday, but things were happening too fast. I had to finish high school. And what about college? I was going to go to college. How could I be a wife and mother? I wasnât done with being a girl. I felt as if someone had handed me a script and said, Here, you play the woman.
âWhy not?â Gabe said. âThatâs what people usually do, especially when theyâre going to have a baby. Besides, I love you.â
âI love you too. But that doesnât mean we need to get married.â
Gabe looked mad. He said, âMost girls in town, theyâd jump at the chance, if I asked them.â
âThen go ahead and ask them! How about Susie Richards?â
âI hardly even know her.â
âYou must think Iâm so stupid! I know whatâs been going on!â
âIt ainât going on anymore,â he said. âAnyway, she didnât mean nothing to me.â
âThen why did you sleep with her?â
âWhat do you want me to do?â He hit the steering wheel, hard. âIâm not a little boy, Iâm a man! You make love to me once, then cut me off! What difference does it make now? Youâre pregnant!â
âThanks to you!â
âHey, you were there too!â
He was right, of course. Iâd written the script with my own hand.
He left abruptly, tires squealing. I went into the house. My mother sighed. My father gave me an
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