have let me be your patron, Monica, but I certainly hope that you let me be your intended. However you wish to interpret that.
“Please continue to take care. I am waiting.
“Yours, Henry.
“PS. I have included one of my private numbers. It is text and email only.”
***
“My dearest Henry,
“You speak to my romantic sensibilities. Perhaps you’re that much of a smooth talker. Your charisma certainly leaves nothing to desire. In fact, I would venture a guess that you don’t usually have such difficulties getting a woman’s attention. Not that you had difficulties getting mine. As you say so yourself, it is not as easy as we would like it to be for us to simply be together. This cat and mouse game we willingly play will be the death of me.
“Just yesterday I was thinking of you while we had our monthly patrons’ dinner. I can’t believe it’s been a whole month since you came into my life. Mr. Witherspoon was here, but I did not dare ask about you. I assume that you have not told anyone about us. Although I hadn’t mentioned it yet, I prefer things this way. I can’t afford for people to speculate and say things about me. I already pushed boundaries being so open with my dinners with you.
“When I think that it’s only been a month, I’m both surprised and accepting of it. You and I, Mr. Warren, are people who know exactly what they want and how to go about getting it. We’re practical, aren’t we? Waiting until the time is right. As frustrated as I was with you for leaving me that day, I understand why you did it. I will continue to improve myself until I can fully love you without hesitation.
“Should I use that word? Even though I am a romantic, I am also a sensible woman. ‘Love’ is something we can’t know about until later. I loved too easily the last time I was in a relationship. It was that naiveté that led to me being taken advantage of.
“I’ve been doing some research about you, Mr. Warren. You’re a hard man to track down on the internet. I like that you’re not a public persona. They can be exhausting to deal with.
“This past week I decided to start doing some redecorating in my room. You might not recognize parts of it the next time you come by. The decorations are the same, and I have no desire to give up my recently acquired items… I’ve merely started adding in a few things here and there. It created a commotion when I had a single contractor in here giving me a quote on the work he could do. I haven’t added any crosses, but there is good potential for the hook in the ceiling above my bed. Eventually I want to convert some of my closet space into a… well, you’ll see once my plan has come into fruition. I think you will like it, assuming I have pegged you as a certain kind of Dom.
“Even though we cannot meet face to face right now, please know that I look forward to every one of your messages. Sometimes I convince myself that this relationship of a sort is completely in my head and that you don’t even really exist. Perhaps I made you up after all. A man I created in my mind because you were cool and kind to me, when so many men weren’t. I fill my heart with images of our life together, like any silly girl in young love would do, but at the end of the day I see your letters and know that this is real. This is true. One day, when I am ready, you will come to me and give me everything that I crave.
“Or at least I desperately hope so. When you’re in my position, Mr. Warren, hope is all you have.
“Truly yours, Monica.”
***
“Monica,
“As long as we’re sharing, I will tell you that I too thought you might have been an illusion. Never before had I seen and spoken with a woman as elegant and intelligent as you. I am only more attracted to the fact that you wish to enter that sort of lifestyle with a man, let alone me. When I think about you, I also convince myself that I have it all in my head and heart. I’m supposed to be a
“Please continue to take care. I am waiting.
“Yours, Henry.
“PS. I have included one of my private numbers. It is text and email only.”
***
“My dearest Henry,
“You speak to my romantic sensibilities. Perhaps you’re that much of a smooth talker. Your charisma certainly leaves nothing to desire. In fact, I would venture a guess that you don’t usually have such difficulties getting a woman’s attention. Not that you had difficulties getting mine. As you say so yourself, it is not as easy as we would like it to be for us to simply be together. This cat and mouse game we willingly play will be the death of me.
“Just yesterday I was thinking of you while we had our monthly patrons’ dinner. I can’t believe it’s been a whole month since you came into my life. Mr. Witherspoon was here, but I did not dare ask about you. I assume that you have not told anyone about us. Although I hadn’t mentioned it yet, I prefer things this way. I can’t afford for people to speculate and say things about me. I already pushed boundaries being so open with my dinners with you.
“When I think that it’s only been a month, I’m both surprised and accepting of it. You and I, Mr. Warren, are people who know exactly what they want and how to go about getting it. We’re practical, aren’t we? Waiting until the time is right. As frustrated as I was with you for leaving me that day, I understand why you did it. I will continue to improve myself until I can fully love you without hesitation.
“Should I use that word? Even though I am a romantic, I am also a sensible woman. ‘Love’ is something we can’t know about until later. I loved too easily the last time I was in a relationship. It was that naiveté that led to me being taken advantage of.
“I’ve been doing some research about you, Mr. Warren. You’re a hard man to track down on the internet. I like that you’re not a public persona. They can be exhausting to deal with.
“This past week I decided to start doing some redecorating in my room. You might not recognize parts of it the next time you come by. The decorations are the same, and I have no desire to give up my recently acquired items… I’ve merely started adding in a few things here and there. It created a commotion when I had a single contractor in here giving me a quote on the work he could do. I haven’t added any crosses, but there is good potential for the hook in the ceiling above my bed. Eventually I want to convert some of my closet space into a… well, you’ll see once my plan has come into fruition. I think you will like it, assuming I have pegged you as a certain kind of Dom.
“Even though we cannot meet face to face right now, please know that I look forward to every one of your messages. Sometimes I convince myself that this relationship of a sort is completely in my head and that you don’t even really exist. Perhaps I made you up after all. A man I created in my mind because you were cool and kind to me, when so many men weren’t. I fill my heart with images of our life together, like any silly girl in young love would do, but at the end of the day I see your letters and know that this is real. This is true. One day, when I am ready, you will come to me and give me everything that I crave.
“Or at least I desperately hope so. When you’re in my position, Mr. Warren, hope is all you have.
“Truly yours, Monica.”
***
“Monica,
“As long as we’re sharing, I will tell you that I too thought you might have been an illusion. Never before had I seen and spoken with a woman as elegant and intelligent as you. I am only more attracted to the fact that you wish to enter that sort of lifestyle with a man, let alone me. When I think about you, I also convince myself that I have it all in my head and heart. I’m supposed to be a
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