Kelly wasnât paying for the test in order to reject or accept Roz. Nothing was going to alter their relationship. It was just the thought of that other girl out there. She had to know.
When Kelly had first jumped in with an offer of one of her kidneys, she had experienced a queer flutter of pleasure, the satisfaction of sainthood. She had mocked herself, but what was wrong with feeling good about self-sacrifice? And as she couldnât make that sacrifice, what if there was someone else out there who could? Would they? She would, she was confident of that. If a complete stranger approached her out of the blue and told Kelly that one of her kidneys could save an unknown woman, she was certain she wouldnât hesitate. That glow of virtue. Kelly had a strong sense of morality. Her own, based on her own values. A morality that would have urged her to save someone else if she could, but that didnât stop her tricking her mother over the maternity test.
The result had come on the day theyâd heard from Roger and Mandy, inviting Roz to stay with them for a while to recuperate.
Roz was not Kellyâs mother.
Kelly had read the report, put it aside and concentrated on persuading her mother to accept the Padstowsâ invitation, making the arrangements, kicking the Astra into some sort of life, persuading Joe to move in for a few days to take care of the animals. Those were the things that mattered. The maternity test didnât.
But now Roz was here, it was time to think about the test. Somewhere out there was the child that Roz had carried for nine months, the girl whose blood and tissue might match. Kelly had arranged the test in order to know. What to do with the knowledge? She would have a week or two to think about it, while Roz was in Roger and Mandyâs care, but she had no idea what steps to take. Somewhere in her imagination lurked a nebulous image of serendipity, an accidental meeting of two young women who recognised each other by magical instinct. But it was never going to happen that way. Any meeting would have to be engineered and Kelly had no idea how to begin.
This house seemed alien in the night, with its trappings of affluent chic. She needed to be back at Carregwen, mulling over the options with the chickens, discussing it with Eleanor and Rigby the goats.
Then in the morning everything changed.
Before breakfast, she carried her kitbag out to the car and found it gone. She returned to the house. âMandy, whereâs the Astra?â
Mandy, busy with dried fruit, hurried to reassure her. âItâs all right. Rog will explain. Roger!â
He came through from the conservatory, a wet towel round his shoulders.
âExplain about Kellyâs car,â ordered Mandy.
He smiled and held up placatory hands. âItâs at Darnleyâs garage, Kelly. I arranged for them to come and take it. Urgent repairs.â
âBut I canât affordââ
âDonât worry about that. Iâm dealing with it. Be honest, Kelly, itâs not safe, is it? How you got here without killing yourself, God knows. I didnât want to see you driving off in it. The garage is going sort out the major problems. Canât guarantee theyâll fix every rattle, butââ
âHow long are they going to be? I need it. Itâs all right really. I know how to keep it going.â
âIâm not letting you loose in it, the way it is. Donât worry, weâre not holding you prisoner. The garage can work on it while youâre gone, and it will be ready when you come back to pick your mother up. And in the meantime, you can take Mandyâs Corsa.â
âNo.â
âYes,â insisted Roger, with Mandy nodding enthusiastic approval.
She would have refused if it hadnât been too late. But the Astra was gone, probably already disembowelled over some pit and she couldnât wait forever. Joe couldnât be left in charge of Carregwen
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