bemusedly, the vaguest hint of a smile playing about his lips. âRobert, I came to talk about you . And the wrong we boys did in letting you take the fall for us. In letting you alone be punished.â
A diversion. Itâs hard for any guy to admit to his impotence.
Well, I kept at him. For a while, rather than face up to the lop-eared specter, Carter continued to claim interest in the incident that had led to my parentsâ leaving Plains. He showed a single-minded determination to divert the conversation from its true purpose. I could see how, in your high-level talks, he could have been a tiger. Still, I cycled back to the rabbit. And finally my subtle handling opened the floodgates.
âOh, all right. Trivial episode, relatively, but Iâll give you the story if you really want it.â
It wasnât till after the Reagan inauguration, he said, when he went back to South Georgia, that he really thought about the rabbit incident. He had time, in Reaganâs early months, to read the jeering accounts; he had time to reflect that there had been nothing out of the ordinary in his behavior in the fishing boat. He had merely caught sight of an animal in the water and, surprised, jerked an oar in its direction. Heâd done it the same way you might swat a fly. His train of thoughtâmoving from the Ayatollah Khomeini to Warren Christopher and standards of cancer care at Sloan-Ketteringâhad been rudely broken. He realized what the animal was a split second later and lost interest. He had seen swamp rabbits before, mostly in marshes; they took to water readily, to escape from predators.
Two of the four rabbit species in Georgia, he said, swam well; only the cottontails couldnât swim.
For a while, he said, heâd toyed with conspiracy theories. The Reagan strategists, after all, were lean and mean, unlike his own friendly posse of good olâ boys with their antiquated notions of honor and straight shooting. He imagined far-fetched scenarios: James Baker creeping through the foliage with a phalanx of hungry coon dogs, scaring rabbits out of their hollows
and chasing them toward the pond; Ed Meese, wearing oversize waders and a filthy baseball cap, pulling up to the waterline in a rickety truck with traps full of long-ears foaming at the mouth.
The thing was, said Carter with lazy good humor, he, unlike the Republicans, had long been a friend to the meek and the undefended. Heck, he had signed the Alaska Lands Act. And yet the rabbit had swum against him!
He laughed awkwardly. Clearly he was masking a wound that still ached. I had no doubt the rabbit had affected his conjugal performance.
Iâd already put back a good part of the bottle; Carter had barely sipped. I needed a release valve, since my then-wife was attending twelve-step meetings that seemed to consist of a gaggle of hausfraus who had fastened like limpets to the notion that every man jack was a substance abuser. To hear them tell it, a lone Miller Lite in the hand of a spousal equivalentâI use the term advisedly, as there were several lesbians in the groupâwas the equivalent of a Scud missile. Though only dimly aware of the wordsâ definitions, Debbie had armed herself to the teeth with jargon culled from these get-togethers. Terms like codependent and enabling were thickening the air like poison-tipped arrows.
âYou wish youâd got it, donât you,â I said.
âIâm sorry?â
âThe rabbit. Hit your mark, man. Instead of missing.â
Carter stared at me with his mouth agape. In that moment, the ex-free-world leader looked like a village idiot.
âWould have read better,â I went on. âIn the history books. Youâre afraid your name will bear the stigma of that moment of weakness. Of your symbolic impotence.â
âGosh, I . . .â He trailed off.
The inability to speak at all is, in my line of work, highly significant. I had to press home my
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