Lament for a Lost Lover by Philippa Carr Page B

achievement in any case. Ninety-nine women out of a hundred would be that.”
    “Well, go on,” I prompted. “What else did Lady Eversleigh say? I trust you hid your fury.”
    “I didn’t show by a twitch of my nose or a twist of my lips how furious I was. Or if I did … she put it down to my love of the art.”
    “Your love of yourself more likely. Tell me more.”
    “She became a little coy. ‘Our families,’ she said, ‘are hopeful that there might be a match between Arabella and Edwin. For a long time my husband has admired General Tolworthy. He is one of the best soldiers in the King’s army. The King is very grateful to him.’ I nodded and said with sarcasm which was lost on her: ‘When we get back to England the King will want to show his gratitude to people like the General.’ ‘He has promised,’ she answered, ‘so I think that once we are back …’ I finished for her: ‘His daughter would be an excellent match for you son.’ ‘That is what Lord Eversleigh thinks,’ she replied, ‘and so do Arabella’s parents. The times make everything so difficult and it is rarely that a happy arrangement can come about. It is for this reason that I should like to see this matter settled.’”
    I was shifting uneasily on my chair, feeling embarrassed and a little angry that my affairs should be discussed in this way.
    “Then it came,” went on Harriet. “The play was so romantic. Juliet and Romeo were the great lovers of all time. She thought it would be rather charming for the two who everyone was hoping would want to make a match of it should play the parts together.”
    “And what did you say to that?”
    “What could I say? I caught something in her eye. I think Charlotte had been carrying tales. I had an idea that if I refused she would have made it impossible for me to stay here. She is a very ungrateful woman. She has already forgotten that I have prevented her house party’s being a tiresome bore. The fact is she doesn’t want me to play love scenes with Edwin and she thinks you and he should. It will be a little practice for you.”
    “Well, I think it’s all rather sordid. What are we going to do?”
    “You’ll have to play Juliet, and the way you’ll play it I should think would be deterrent rather than a spur to love.”
    “There are times,” I said, “when you are insufferable. I do believe you think no one is of the least account but yourself.”
    I was thinking of Edwin then; his tender look, his easy smile, his tall, lean body and his rather sleepy brown eyes. I was in love with Edwin. My parents and his wanted us to marry. How could I feel incensed because Harriet had been robbed of her part? I was glad. I would play Juliet. Edwin and I would spend hours rehearsing together. I should be with him all the time. I had been a little bored with Lady Capulet.
    I must confess that I admired Harriet. I knew what a blow it was to her. Naturally as the professional actress she had wanted the main part and should have had it. But after her outburst to me, she determined not to show her anger.
    She called us all together and explained that some parts would be changed. She herself had too much to do stage-managing so she was not going to play Juliet after all. She thought I could do the part. She herself would take over the Nurse which was a really big role. They would see that this would mean a little change here and there.
    I looked at Edwin, wondering if he would mind.
    He smiled at me with that lovely tender smile, and taking my hand kissed it as Harriet had taught him to do in the part.
    “You will find me lacking,” he warned.
    “As you will find me.”
    “I can’t believe that.”
    He pressed my hand warmly. I was so happy. Then I remembered what he had said about accepting what was offered him and reconciling himself to it. But I was sure he was pleased to play the lover with me.
    As for myself, I kept thinking of what Lady Eversleigh had said to Harriet. Our parents wanted