into trouble with their parents to go with me.â
Even though he wasnât looking at her directly, he could feel her thoughtfully studying him. That was something different for Noah. The rare times he was with a woman she might look at him with amusement or even lust. But none ever studied him as though she was interested in the man beneath the surface. The notion that Bella saw him differently left him feeling restless and very vulnerable.
âDid your parents know where you were or what you were doing?â she asked.
His short laugh was a brittle, hollow sound. âThey didnât care. They were more concerned about fighting over money or booze, or the one junky car they owned.â
âIâm sorry. That mustâve been tough.â
Sometimes in the quiet of the night, Noah could still hear the yelling and banging, the threats and tears. Back then, no matter where heâd tried to hide in the house, the violent sounds would reach him. Now after all these years, he still couldnât outrun the memories.
âIt couldâve been worse. They never laid a mean hand on me.â He stared out at the pines and the patches of silvery moonlight on the ground. âAs a very small boy, I can remember my mother being very loving to me. She made me feel wanted and protected. But something changed, I didnât know what. Except that my parents had started fighting. After that, she began to push me away. Finally, she left and never came back.â
âHmm. Thatâs odd that she didnât take you with her when she left.â
Surprised by Bellaâs comment, he looked over at her. âWhy do you say that? It was obvious she didnât want me around.â
She shook her head. âYou donât know that for sure. She clearly loved you once and a mother just doesnât stop loving her child. And she sure doesnât abandon it. She might have had emotional issues and figured youâd be better off without her. Or she couldâve been afraid. Your dad might have used you as a threat against her.â
âNo. Mom wasnât afraid for herself,â he reasoned. âShe stood up to him like a bulldog terrier.â
She leaned forward and returned her bowl to the tray. âYou donât understand, Noah. I didnât mean she was afraid for her own safety. I have the feeling she was trying to protect you. Believe me, in my line of work I see it all the time. Women make bad choices and then they become so afraid they make even worse choices. Your mother probably ran off because she didnât know any other way to handle the situation.â
Noah had never thought in those terms. As a teenager heâd carried around the bitter hurt of being abandoned and that feeling had never left. Now Bella expected him to see things in a different light.
A sardonic smile twisted his lips. âDo you always look at things through rosy glasses? I thought you had to be a hard-nosed cynic to be a lawyer.â
Chuckling, she touched a fingertip to her nose. âOh, it doesnât feel that hard to me,â she joked, then her expression turned serious. âHave you ever tried to locate your mother?â
A spot deep inside him squeezed so hard it caused his fingers to curl into his palms. âNo. I donât even know if sheâs still alive.â
âI have connections,â she said. âI could make a search for you. No charge, of course.â
âBella, think about what youâre asking,â he said gently. âIâve been doing fine like I am. What would it accomplish if you found her?â
âHave you ever thought she might need you?â
Her question shouldâve had him bursting out with laughter. The notion that Margo Crawford might need her son was certainly absurd. And yet Noah couldnât feel any humor.
âNo. Iâve never thought about it. And I donât intend to.â
She seemed to accept his response because
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