âDonât make me feel like any more of a loser than I already do.â
âNo, Iâm the loser,â Gaia insisted.
âMr. and Mrs. Loser.â He sighed.
âOh, youâre proposing now?â
âWould you say yes?â
Gaiaâs entire face froze. Now Ed knew for sure that they were drifting apart. She couldnât even tell when he was kidding anymore. Which, of course, he was. Mostly. No, of course he was kidding. Mostly. . .
â Kidding, Gaia,â he groaned. âJust kidding.â
âI know, â she scoffed. Ed could see her start to breathe again. âI know that.â
He gripped her hand tightly and leaned closer. âGaia. . . if something has happened to your dad, tell me what it is.â
She looked deeper into his eyes, barely blinking for the next few seconds as she seemed to consider his demand.
âI donât know what it is,â she stated.
âWhat? What does that mean?â
Gaia suddenly pulled her hand away, leaning back awkwardly against her seat. âLook, heâs. . . heâs been transferred out of the hospital, and weâre. . . theyâre not sure where he is.â
Edâs eyes widened with disbelief. âThe hospital lost him?â He didnât doubt Gaia; it was just the most ludicrous thing heâd ever heard.
âThey just. . .â Gaia looked more and more anxious to make a run for it. Ed could see her eyes darting yearningly toward the staircase that led to the exit. He couldnât believe, after everything theyâd been through, that getting the truth from her about her struggles was still like pulling teeth . âI just need to find him,â she concluded. âThatâs all.â
Edâs stomach twisted itself into a knot. He couldnât fathom how she could have gone all this time without telling him something this massive. âWell, Iâll help you find him,â he insisted. âJesus, weâve been sitting herehaving dinner and you donât know where your father is? Why didnât you just tell me? We could have been looking for him this entire time. We could have been suing the crap out of that hospital. God, I hate hospitals. We should be making calls, we should be calling every goddamn hospital inââ
âEd, no !â Gaia snapped, slapping her hand down on the table.
Ed went silent. He had no idea what to make of her sudden outburst. Every time she opened her mouth, she seemed to make less and less sense. âGaia. . . what the hell is the matter with yâ?â
âEd, I love you, but you are out of all of this, do you understand?â She lowered her voice to an intensely urgent Whisper. âI wonât drag you back into it, do you hear? Not any of it.â Ed could only sit and watch as tears began to well up in her eyes. She gripped the table tightly as her words became more and more frenzied. âI donât want you to be my trusty sidekick, or my knight in shining armor, or the dead body lying on top of my dead body in some tragically romantic Romeo and Juliet death scene. I just want you to be my boyfriend. My boyfriend who is alive and. . . and safe and. . . here . Do you understand? I need to do it alone so that when itâs done, when itâs finally finished . . . I can come home to you.â
Ed could see a thousand different thoughts tugging away at her mouth for airtime. This had to be morehonesty than she had ever spewed out in one sitting, and Ed could tell from the look on her face that it hurt. It was physically painful for Gaia to talk like this.
âGaia, itâs all right,â Ed promised her. âI understand, okay? I do. You donât have to be soââ
âI have to go now,â she interrupted, swiping the tears too forcefully from her eyes as she stood up out of her chair.
âGaia, wait,â he said gently, standing
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