broke
my jaw. The fucking asshole laid into me good. If Gin didn’t break my nose, Rampage
sure the fuck did. I think he broke a few ribs and if he didn’t break ‘em, he sure
the fuck cracked ‘em. I’m bruised from head to toe. Shit aches so goddamn bad, but
it’s my heart that hurts the worse.
I fucked shit up so bad I don’t think I could ever get Lil to come back from it. This
shit is so much worse than when I left her alone at my place. I broke something in
her that’ll never be fixed. And if it could be fixed, I wouldn’t have the slightest
idea where to start. I can’t even fix my goddamn self. I hate that this is where we
are and I hate that I caused all this damage and hurt. I should pack up my shit and
go nomad for a while, give everyone a fuckin’ break.
“Why’d you fuckin’ do it asshole?” Peaches screams at me, pointing wildly. “Haven’t
you fucked her over enough? Why’d you hurt her like this?”
“None of your fuckin’ business, bitch.” I snap at her. Cali is standing in my doorway,
watching quietly while Peaches is behind her making all kinds of noise, trying to
push her way in here. If she can make it, I’m gonna smack the fuck out of her.
“None of my business?” Peaches repeats slowly.
“You stupid? You fuckin’ heard me.”
Charging at the door, Peaches looks ready to kill me. Cali braces her arm on the other
side of the doorway to stop Peaches. I don’t know why I’m eggin’ her on. I shouldn’t
even bother. Jesus Christ, I don’t want to hear it from her. I already got it from
the guys, I don’t need her shit too.
“Fuck you! You’re fuckin’ disgusting. I can’t believe you fucked that nasty piece
of gash over Lil.”
Her words make my gut twist painfully. I fuck up so goddamn bad. Sadly I don’t even
know what I did or didn’t do last night. I was so goddamn fucked up I can’t remember
anything past seeing Lil’s key on my kitchen counter. That was it for me. I might
have fucked that stupid bitch; I might not have. God, I was so fucking high I’m not
even sure I could have gotten it up if I wanted to. I’m so fucking stupid. I should
have fought harder. I should have never let that shit go. Part of me wants to tell
Peaches I might not have fucked that gash, but what’s the point? They saw that bitch
naked on me and that shit didn’t look good. They’re not gonna believe me anyway. Fuck
it.
“I hate you!” She screams at me. Yeah bitch well I hate me enough for the both of
us.
****
“Here, asshole.” Cali says sitting down next to me on my bed a while later. No knock,
nothing. She just came right in, making herself comfortable as she leans against the
headboard, pushing me over. Rolling over to look at her she looks shocked and a little
squeamish when she sees my face.
“Oh fuck. Yeah, you’re really gonna need these.” Holding her hand out to me, she hands
me four white pills and a shot. I lift, or at least try to, an enquiring eye at her.
“It’s the good stuff honey,” she assures me. Fuck it. I throw the shit back and chase
it with the liquor.
“Why you here Cali?”
She shrugs her shoulders and looks like she’s thinking about it. “Not really sure
since I fuckin’ hate ya n’ the fact you ran our sister off, but I know Lil would hate
to see you like this n’ I love her, so here I am taking care of her man because he’s
too much of a fuckin’ mess to do it himself.” That one stung.
“Thanks.” I tell her sarcastically. I may be fucked up, but I didn’t miss her little
jabs. She’s not in here for me. This shits all for Lil.
“Don’t thank me. If I had it my way, those would’ve been somethin’ to kill your ass.
Considerin’ Lil loves you n’ so do
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