when I sneak out tonight to see Lark. With my eyes looking flat like everyone elseâs, and whatâs more keyed to someone elseâs identity, I can walk past any Greenshirt without a qualm.
âWhen do we leave?â I ask.
âOh, theyâre ready, but your surgery wonât be for a little while. Another couple of days at least.â
âAnd with them I can pass as an official citizen, a firstborn?â
She nods. âThese will be a huge step up from the black market lenses criminals use. They canât access all of the technology. Some things, like the filter for the altered sun rays, and the identity chip, work okay on the cheap, removable lenses. But there are deeper layers that no one has been able to suss out . . . until we found someone brilliant. Normally, the lenses are manufactured in a factory, and then sent to the Centerfor further modification by EcoPan. The cybersurgeon we found managed to hack into the Center to get the exact specifications. You donât have to worry. Theyâll work perfectly. Lots of other second children arenât as lucky as you.â
âLots?â I repeat. This is the first Iâve ever heard of other second children. What a day for revelations.
âA few, yes, but others use the cheap, removable lenses too. My sources donât talk much, as you might imagine. But from what I gather there are criminals using lower-quality fake lenses, rebels, cheating husbands and wives . . .â
So Iâm in great company. But back to the second children. âHow many of us are there?â I ask.
She presses her lips together briefly. âNot many. According to my source, perhaps twenty still walking the streets.â
âOh, thatâs . . . Wait, what do you mean still ?â
âOh, honey, youâll be just fine. We found a real genius to make your lens implants, bought the most secure identity, bribed all the right people . . .â
âWhat are you saying?â
She bites her lip. âMy source told me that the survival rate for second children trying to integrate into society . . . isnât as high as weâd like.â
âYou mean, we die?â
âNo, no,â she hastily begins, then amends it to âWell . . . a few are captured. But there are a lot who simply . . . disappear.â
A chill tickles my spine.
âDonât worry, honey, it wonât happen to you. Weâve taken every precaution.â She shakes her head as if tossing away the unpleasant thoughts.
Iâm haunted by the image of second children disappearing. The way Mom said it, it sounded like they just evaporate, turn into mist and drift away. It must be the Center, though,capturing second children. They must be dragged away into the night and fog, and no one ever knows what happened to them.
Mom wonât talk about it anymore, no matter how much I press. Not long afterward Ash comes home, and with a quick mutual glance Mom and I agree not to discuss anything serious or worrying in front of him. Stress aggravates his condition. I also want to ask where Iâll be going. Will it be to a childless couple? Will I be posing as an orphan, adopted by a kind relative? I might even have a brother or sister. Will I like them?
My new family must be kind, though, if theyâre taking the risk of welcoming in a secret second child. Theyâll be generous and loving and patient and caring, and theyâll help ease my way into the world. I know they will, because only that sort of person would defy all Eden to help a child.
How can I worry too much when I have Larkâs company to look forward to? Dinner passes insufferably slowly. I know I should be savoring every moment with my family before it all changes, but my thoughts keep straying to tonight.
Before I go to bed, I look at my strange, multicolored eyes. What will I feel like when my eyes are flat and