then something happened.â What if we could go backwards, and find out at what point in time an interventionâintensive family services, sayâwould have made a difference, and figure out what the problem was for that individual at that point in time?â
No one forgets the withdrawal of home and family, the leaching away of hope. Some kids remember not a sudden breach but a gradual ebb, connections receding like a tide going out, until they wake up one morning to find themselves stranded. Others speak of something more abrupt: a grandmotherâs death or a parentâs arrest, and a childhood swept away with the force of a riptide.
By the time Jared was nine, he had lost everything. âMy mom is totally gone on crack. We moved to our grandmaâs house in the Fillmore. The family sold the house, everybody took their money and started using dope with it, so we didnât have anything. So we ended up in the Tenderloin [District] selling dope.â
He soon learned that he was not the only one. âBy nine, all those other kids out there were in the same situation. However they got there, we were there on the street, and they became my friends.â
Whatever safety these children had lay in sticking together. âIf somebody messed with us, weâd jump them.â Otherwise, they kept a low profile.
âIn kidsâ minds?â he continued, referring to children like himself and his friends, back then. âItâs desperation. A lot of kidsâ moms and dads arenâtthere, or they are there and on dope. Or the dadâs in jail and the momâs on dope. So these kids have grown up having to fend for themselvesâselling some weed or some ecstasy pills or even crack or heroin. Thatâs not bad , because they have to take care of themselves, and theyâre doing what they gotta do. In their minds. But theyâre still kids.â
It wasnât long before Jared was arrested. His tone was flat as he described the treatment he received in what would be a string of institutional placements.
âThe absence of love plays a big factor. The group homes. These people donât genuinely care. If I slam a bowl of food down in your face, slam it down on the table, you can feel it,â he said. âPeople forget, these are kids, they need love.â
The trajectory Jared described was clear enough. From canned food to cornflakes to starving to stealing; from a bowl slammed on a table to a tray slipped through a cell door.
âAnd then you got some that are hardened,â Jared mused, talking about the kids he grew up with. âFor some, itâs normal to walk around with a pistol. But for society, thatâs not normal.â
âWhat are you doing with this .357 Magnum?â he continued, offering an imagined dialogue between âsocietyâ and the child.
âIâm going to school.â
âWhy do you need a gun?â
âBecause these dudes from the other side of town go to school and Iâm the only person from my neighborhood that goes there and I donât want to get jumped. Or robbed. Or beat up every day.â
âAnd so itâs normal for some kids,â he reiterated, leaning across the table as if to bridge the gap between the world he was describing and what Jared, who is black, dubbed âCaucasian Acres.â In this barely hypothetical subdivision, he explained, the actions seen as ânormalâ on the block where he grew up are met with incomprehension and then incarceration.
Jared had no interest in portraying himself as a victim. He described the ânormalâ he knew as a child: âpulling runnersâ (eating quickly, without paying, then literally running) at the all-you-can-eat soup and salad bar at Sizzler to get a reprieve from the bottomless hunger, pooling the dayâs take with four or five other kids until they had enough to pay an addict to get them the key to a hotel room in a
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