Brother Cadfael 15: The Confession of Brother Haluin by Ellis Peters
Authors: Ellis Peters
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as the blood flowed back achingly into his numbed legs.
"In God's name, man," said the young man Roscelin impatiently, "must you use yourself so hardly when you have already enough for any sane man to carry?"
Haluin was too startled, and his mind still too far away, to be capable of grasping that, much less answering it. And if Cadfael privately considered it a perfectly sensible reaction, aloud he said practically, "Keep firm hold of him so, while I pick up his crutches. And God bless you for appearing so aptly. Spare to scold him, you'd be wasting your breath. He's under vow."
"A foolish vow!" said the boy with the arrogant certainty of his years. "Who's the better for this?" But for all his disapproval he held Haluin warmly and firmly, and looked at him sidelong with a frown at least as anxious as it was exasperated.
"He is," said Cadfael, propping the crutches under Haluin's armpits, and setting to work to chafe life back into the cold hands that could not yet grip the staves. "Hard to believe, but you had better credit it. There, you can let him lean on his props now, but hold him steady. Well for you at your years, you can sleep easy, with nothing to regret and nothing to ask pardon for. How did you come to look in here so timely?" he asked, eyeing the young man with fresh interest, thus at close quarters. "Were you sent?"
For this boy seemed an unlikely instrument for Adelais to use in shepherding her inconvenient guests in and out of Elford - too young, too blunt, too innocent.
"No," said Roscelin shortly, and relented to add with better grace, "I was plain curious."
"Well, that's human," admitted Cadfael, recognizing his own besetting sin.
"And this morning Audemar has no immediate work for me, he's busy with his steward. Had we not better get this brother of yours back to his lodging, where it's warmer? How shall we do? I can fetch a horse for him if we can get him mounted."
Haluin had come back from his distant place to find himself being discussed and handled as if he had no mind of his own, and no awareness of his surroundings. He stiffened instinctively against the indignity. "No," he said, "I thank you, but I can go now. I need not trespass on your kindness further." And he flexed his hands and gripped the staves of his crutches, and took the first cautious steps away from the tomb.
They followed closely, one at either elbow in case he faltered, Roscelin going before up the shallow steps and through the doorway to prevent a possible stumble, Cadfael coming close behind to support him if he reeled backward. But Haluin had gathered to his aid a will refreshed and strengthened by achievement, and was resolute to manage this walk alone, at whatever cost. And there was no haste. When he felt the need he could rest on his crutches to draw breath, and so he did three times before they reached Audemar's courtyard, already populous and busy about bakery and mews and wellhead. It said much for young Roscelin's quickness and delicacy of mind, Cadfael reflected, that he waited without comment or impatience at every pause, and refrained from offering a hand in help until help should be invited. So Haluin came back to the lodging in Audemar's courtyard as he would have wished, on his own misshapen feet, and could feel that he had earned the ease of his bed.
Roscelin followed them in, still curious, in no haste to go in search of whatever duties awaited him. "Is that all, then?" he said, watching Haluin stretch out his still-numbed limbs gratefully, and draw the brychan over them. "Then where do you go when you leave us? And when? You'll not set out today?"
"We go back to Shrewsbury," said Cadfael. "Today - that I doubt. A day's rest would be wisdom." By the weary ease of Haluin's face, and the softened gaze turned inward, it would not be long before he fell asleep, the best and best-earned sleep since he had made confession.
"I saw you ride in with the lord Audemar yesterday," said Cadfael, studying the youthful
"In God's name, man," said the young man Roscelin impatiently, "must you use yourself so hardly when you have already enough for any sane man to carry?"
Haluin was too startled, and his mind still too far away, to be capable of grasping that, much less answering it. And if Cadfael privately considered it a perfectly sensible reaction, aloud he said practically, "Keep firm hold of him so, while I pick up his crutches. And God bless you for appearing so aptly. Spare to scold him, you'd be wasting your breath. He's under vow."
"A foolish vow!" said the boy with the arrogant certainty of his years. "Who's the better for this?" But for all his disapproval he held Haluin warmly and firmly, and looked at him sidelong with a frown at least as anxious as it was exasperated.
"He is," said Cadfael, propping the crutches under Haluin's armpits, and setting to work to chafe life back into the cold hands that could not yet grip the staves. "Hard to believe, but you had better credit it. There, you can let him lean on his props now, but hold him steady. Well for you at your years, you can sleep easy, with nothing to regret and nothing to ask pardon for. How did you come to look in here so timely?" he asked, eyeing the young man with fresh interest, thus at close quarters. "Were you sent?"
For this boy seemed an unlikely instrument for Adelais to use in shepherding her inconvenient guests in and out of Elford - too young, too blunt, too innocent.
"No," said Roscelin shortly, and relented to add with better grace, "I was plain curious."
"Well, that's human," admitted Cadfael, recognizing his own besetting sin.
"And this morning Audemar has no immediate work for me, he's busy with his steward. Had we not better get this brother of yours back to his lodging, where it's warmer? How shall we do? I can fetch a horse for him if we can get him mounted."
Haluin had come back from his distant place to find himself being discussed and handled as if he had no mind of his own, and no awareness of his surroundings. He stiffened instinctively against the indignity. "No," he said, "I thank you, but I can go now. I need not trespass on your kindness further." And he flexed his hands and gripped the staves of his crutches, and took the first cautious steps away from the tomb.
They followed closely, one at either elbow in case he faltered, Roscelin going before up the shallow steps and through the doorway to prevent a possible stumble, Cadfael coming close behind to support him if he reeled backward. But Haluin had gathered to his aid a will refreshed and strengthened by achievement, and was resolute to manage this walk alone, at whatever cost. And there was no haste. When he felt the need he could rest on his crutches to draw breath, and so he did three times before they reached Audemar's courtyard, already populous and busy about bakery and mews and wellhead. It said much for young Roscelin's quickness and delicacy of mind, Cadfael reflected, that he waited without comment or impatience at every pause, and refrained from offering a hand in help until help should be invited. So Haluin came back to the lodging in Audemar's courtyard as he would have wished, on his own misshapen feet, and could feel that he had earned the ease of his bed.
Roscelin followed them in, still curious, in no haste to go in search of whatever duties awaited him. "Is that all, then?" he said, watching Haluin stretch out his still-numbed limbs gratefully, and draw the brychan over them. "Then where do you go when you leave us? And when? You'll not set out today?"
"We go back to Shrewsbury," said Cadfael. "Today - that I doubt. A day's rest would be wisdom." By the weary ease of Haluin's face, and the softened gaze turned inward, it would not be long before he fell asleep, the best and best-earned sleep since he had made confession.
"I saw you ride in with the lord Audemar yesterday," said Cadfael, studying the youthful
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