interviews.â
The alcohol has made me brave. I donât feel like buttering him up, so I just start going through my list of questions. âLetâs not play games. Are you going to tell me whether you took Jasmine?â
His eyes bore into mine. âYes.â
My heart leaps into my throat until I hear what he says next. âIt might be next week or it might be in ten years.â
This guy doesnât make sense. He likes to talk without saying anything.
âIs Jasmine alive?â
âCanât answer that. Iâm not hungry for the D.A. to come and give me more charges,â he says. âLet me tell you something off the recordâÂI try not to lie at all.â
I have a hard time believing that.
âThen tell me the truth.â
He leans forward putting his elbows on the small counter. âA lot of Âpeople canât handle the truth.â
âThen tell me you didnât take her. If you donât lie, then tell me you are innocent.â
âDoesnât matter how guilty I am of any of this stuff. Itâll be a jury thatâll decide.â
âYou arenât answering my questions. Hereâs what I thinkâÂBecause you wonât tell me youâre innocent, that makes me think youâre guilty.â
âYour intuition is good.â He leans back in his metal chair.
His responses are starting to sound like heâs shaking a Magic 8 Ball. I keep pressing. I want to rattle him. Get a reaction.
âWhat you said the other day, about being a BuddhistâÂyou canât really believe that justifies what you do?â
âA long time agoâÂsay twenty-Âtwo years agoâÂsomething happened to me. I was living in Livermore, and something happened that turned me on to what Buddhism really meant. Helped me understand myself and my needs and my wants.â He gives me a knowing look that sinks my stomach like a cement block in the ocean.
I look down, scanning my notes so he canât see my reaction. The only thing I know that happened twenty-Âtwo years ago in Livermore was that my sister disappeared from our front yard.
âWhat happened twenty-Âtwo years ago?â I try to seem nonchalant, but the tremor in my voice gives me away. I can tell by the way he cocks his head that he notices. He watches me carefully for a moment before he answers. I try to mask the emotions on my face. Placid. As still and quiet as a mountain lake.
âThat doesnât ring a bell, but maybe my memoryâs not that great, either.â He smiles as he says it. âIâm not quite sure. What do you think happened?â
He startles me by bursting into laughter. The sound makes the hairs on my arms stand straight up. It is a high-Âpitched cackle that trills through the phone and makes my scalp tingle. After a moment, the laughter trails off, and he grows eerily still. He stares at me. I stare back. We both are holding the phone to our ears, our eyes locked. There it is again. I didnât imagine it last time. His eyes are dead, devoid of humanity
No. I refuse to let my mind go there. He couldnât have taken Caterina. I wonât believe it. I canât. Looking at his dead eyes, I wonder whether Iâd rather never know what happened to Caterina than even imagine for a moment that Johnson had her in his clutches.
I need to get him to talk. To trust me. Thinking hard, I try to remember everything I know about killers and what makes them spill the beans. Then I hit on itâÂIâve heard Âpeople often want to talk about what theyâve done, either to brag or get it off their chests.
âYou want to tell somebody about it, why not tell me? Iâm not a cop.â
He looks me dead in the eye, and says, âIâve been keeping in stuff worse than that for more than twenty years.â
âLike what? What is worse than that? When you tell me that, it makes me think you have been killing
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