know how it would affect us. It was also possible when using pepper spray on a suspect, to have the wind blow it back on us. I now knew the pepper spray was practically incapacitating. If I had to shoot a suspect due to any of these previous scenarios, I could articulate my reasoning due to my experience. This would be the most painful single experience I would have at the academy. I never wanted to be pepper sprayed again. Thanksgiving break at last. The police department in Small Town, Arizona was having its annual Thanksgiving banquet on Saturday and my husband and I were invited. I was nervous. It would be my first time meeting most of my department, and I worried about what they would think of me. With a potluck dish in hand, my husband and I arrived and were introduced around to everyone. There was no way to remember all the Officer’s names much less their spouse’s names. The Chief and Sergeant’s wives were great. They were excited to finally be getting a female at the department. The officers stay back. Besides saying a brief hello, during introductions, they kept to themselves. I was not deterred. I had won over my fellow cadets at the academy and I had no doubt I could get along with the officers I would be working with. The situation would also improve once I was actually wearing a badge. There would be plenty of challenges coming my way in a department that had never before employed a female cop. But I was looking forward to them. Now all I had to do was finish my last three weeks at the academy.
Chapter 20 Electric Erection
The end of our time at the academy was in sight. We could all see it and we were feeling it too. Everything was being thrown at us at once. We were preparing for the AZ-POST (Arizona Police Officer Standards and Training Board) exam. This would be our final. We had to pass in order to be certified as police officers in the state of Arizona. It covered all the material we’d learned since entering the academy. We were hitting the books hard. We were also preparing for our “stop and approach” practical tests. These are an even more grueling set of scenarios than the ones we had in our ninth week. Then, on the Friday morning of “stop and approach” week, we would be given our last PO-PAT (physical) test. Our nerves were shot and we were all tense. Even with everything being put on our shoulders, the environment at our dorms in the evening was relaxed. We spent time sitting around in a large group talking about our academy experience and singing songs. A couple of the cadets brought guitars and we listened and joined in whenever we knew the words. The cadet who sat on my left in our classroom finally opened up and told me he did not think I had a chance in hell of making it through the academy on that first day. He had just gotten out of the military when he was hired by his agency and was in top shape. He sat next to me all those weeks and was always pleasant but he didn’t really warm up to me until those evenings we sat around talking, laughing and singing. He was a great guy and had a great career in front of him as a law enforcement officer. I also spoke quite a bit with Class Leader Clark. I had so much admiration for him. He was the smartest guy I had ever met. Before coming to the academy he was preparing to take his L-SAT (Law School Admission Test). He made a last minute change and decided to go into law enforcement. He had a wife and four children waiting at home for him. The fate of our class rested on his shoulders. I don’t think any other cadet could have handled it as well as him. He had backed me since day one and I would never forget his encouragement. My body continued to give me problems and during one of my chiropractor visits, I was set up with a TENS machine to help relieve my back pain. The TENS unit gives off electronic pulses and interrupts the pain signals going to the brain. One evening I brought it out to our nightly group session and