about this?
“Hell yeah, I’m smiling,” he said with a little laugh, as he wrapped his arms around me.
“Damn girl, I thought you were dying or something. You fucking scared me,” he said, and then kissed the top of my head.
“So you’re smiling because I’m not dying?” I asked. What about the part about me being fucking pregnant?
“Well, yeah,” He said with a laugh. “And because we’re gonna have a baby, darlin.”
“What? You’re happy about it?” I said. I was in shock.
“Yep,” He said with a smile “I think I’ll be a good fucking dad.”
“But I can’t be a mom,” I said before the tears started falling again.
“What do you mean?” He asked quietly, but there was an edge to his voice.
“I mean, I don’t think I can do it, Moon. I can’t have a baby.”
“We’re in this together, Sam,” he said, as he grabbed my hands.
“It’s my body, Moon; I don’t think I can do this.” The truth is I didn’t know what I was going to do. I was too confused. I don’t even know if I could go through with an abortion. But what kind of life would I give a kid? Could I even love it?
Moon stood to his feet and started pacing back and forth rubbing the back of his neck. He was pissed.
“This isn’t just your decision, Sam. It’s my baby, too.” he said firmly, but he wasn’t looking at me.
“I know,” I whispered. “I just need time to think.”
“Ok,” he said, and then walked out the front door. I listened for the roar of his truck starting but I didn’t hear it.
I curled up in a ball on my living room floor for at least an hour. I couldn’t move. My mind was going in a thousand directions. When I felt like I had cried out all my tears, I finally sat up. My eyes were swollen and my face felt stiff. I’m sure I looked like hell. I stood up and walked over to the living room window and peeked out. Moon’s truck was still sitting in the driveway. I opened the front door and there he was. Just sitting on the porch with his head resting against the pillar.
“I thought you would have left by now,” I said, and I walked over and sat beside him.
“I told you a long time ago darlin that I wasn’t leaving you. And I won’t. So think about whatever it is that you need to think out, but please don’t make any hasty decisions. Will you promise me that, please?” He said, as he looked at me, his eyes pleading.
“Ok,” I whispered, and grabbed his hand. I really did love him, no matter what.
“And you don’t have to be scared. We’re in this together. I’ll take care of y’all, I promise,” he said, as he squeezed my hand.
“But what if I’m the one who can’t take care of it?” It.
“You’re not her.” he said bluntly.
My eyes filled with tears again. I thought those mother fuckers were finally gone.
“Sam, I don’t think you give yourself enough credit. You love harder than anyone I’ve ever met. You’re as stubborn as they come, and that drives me fucking crazy sometimes, but it also makes me love you even more. It’s what makes you so strong. You don’t do anything half-ass. You will be a good mom, trust me on this.”
All I could do was put my face in my hands and cry. Again. I was an emotional wreck.
“Look, it’s getting late, why don’t you try and get some sleep.” Moon said.
“Ok.” He was right. I was physically and emotionally drained. I didn’t want to be alone, though.
“Will you stay with me?” I asked.
“I ain’t going anywhere, darlin. Come on,” Moon said; he grabbed me by the hand and led me back inside.
Chapter 14
Moon
My eyes fluttered open, but it was still dark outside. I glanced over at the digital clock on Sam’s nightstand. It was only 4 a.m. Sam didn’t have to get up for work for another 2 hours. I’m surprised she was sleeping, but I think her body just gave out. She tossed and turned most of the night. Her body was tense and I kept hearing her sniffle, and I knew she probably finally
“Hell yeah, I’m smiling,” he said with a little laugh, as he wrapped his arms around me.
“Damn girl, I thought you were dying or something. You fucking scared me,” he said, and then kissed the top of my head.
“So you’re smiling because I’m not dying?” I asked. What about the part about me being fucking pregnant?
“Well, yeah,” He said with a laugh. “And because we’re gonna have a baby, darlin.”
“What? You’re happy about it?” I said. I was in shock.
“Yep,” He said with a smile “I think I’ll be a good fucking dad.”
“But I can’t be a mom,” I said before the tears started falling again.
“What do you mean?” He asked quietly, but there was an edge to his voice.
“I mean, I don’t think I can do it, Moon. I can’t have a baby.”
“We’re in this together, Sam,” he said, as he grabbed my hands.
“It’s my body, Moon; I don’t think I can do this.” The truth is I didn’t know what I was going to do. I was too confused. I don’t even know if I could go through with an abortion. But what kind of life would I give a kid? Could I even love it?
Moon stood to his feet and started pacing back and forth rubbing the back of his neck. He was pissed.
“This isn’t just your decision, Sam. It’s my baby, too.” he said firmly, but he wasn’t looking at me.
“I know,” I whispered. “I just need time to think.”
“Ok,” he said, and then walked out the front door. I listened for the roar of his truck starting but I didn’t hear it.
I curled up in a ball on my living room floor for at least an hour. I couldn’t move. My mind was going in a thousand directions. When I felt like I had cried out all my tears, I finally sat up. My eyes were swollen and my face felt stiff. I’m sure I looked like hell. I stood up and walked over to the living room window and peeked out. Moon’s truck was still sitting in the driveway. I opened the front door and there he was. Just sitting on the porch with his head resting against the pillar.
“I thought you would have left by now,” I said, and I walked over and sat beside him.
“I told you a long time ago darlin that I wasn’t leaving you. And I won’t. So think about whatever it is that you need to think out, but please don’t make any hasty decisions. Will you promise me that, please?” He said, as he looked at me, his eyes pleading.
“Ok,” I whispered, and grabbed his hand. I really did love him, no matter what.
“And you don’t have to be scared. We’re in this together. I’ll take care of y’all, I promise,” he said, as he squeezed my hand.
“But what if I’m the one who can’t take care of it?” It.
“You’re not her.” he said bluntly.
My eyes filled with tears again. I thought those mother fuckers were finally gone.
“Sam, I don’t think you give yourself enough credit. You love harder than anyone I’ve ever met. You’re as stubborn as they come, and that drives me fucking crazy sometimes, but it also makes me love you even more. It’s what makes you so strong. You don’t do anything half-ass. You will be a good mom, trust me on this.”
All I could do was put my face in my hands and cry. Again. I was an emotional wreck.
“Look, it’s getting late, why don’t you try and get some sleep.” Moon said.
“Ok.” He was right. I was physically and emotionally drained. I didn’t want to be alone, though.
“Will you stay with me?” I asked.
“I ain’t going anywhere, darlin. Come on,” Moon said; he grabbed me by the hand and led me back inside.
Chapter 14
Moon
My eyes fluttered open, but it was still dark outside. I glanced over at the digital clock on Sam’s nightstand. It was only 4 a.m. Sam didn’t have to get up for work for another 2 hours. I’m surprised she was sleeping, but I think her body just gave out. She tossed and turned most of the night. Her body was tense and I kept hearing her sniffle, and I knew she probably finally
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