black, too!â
âYou felt and thought black and you thought they felt and acted black, too? You mean black in the sense of absence of light and love and good, shining happiness?â
âYeah, exactly.â
âDid you know then what you know now: that people see others in direct ratio to how they see themselves , in color, meaning, importance, feelings and everything else?â
âIâve been thinking about that since you mentioned it before and Iâve accepted that it positively and absolutely is true.â
âGold star for you. Can you remember exactly when the unfamiliar discomfort took over?â
âWell toward myself andâ¦you knowâ¦it came down in one black swoop like a bigger than person-size vampire bat. I told you that after that incident everything in life was like a slow-motion, old black-and-white late, late, late, late-night movie, didnât I?â
âWhat about other people? I mean besides you andââ I shrugged.
â Everything in life lost all color, even the trees and grass and flowers became black or dull grey. They were even more colorless than anything. Well, at first not my mom and the girls and my home and stuff, but they too gradually drifted down to nothingâsort of dark, evil shadows.â
âSammy, have you ever had ringworm?â
He looked startled. âYes. Dorie brought it home from school once, and it spread like wildfire.â
âDid everyone get it?â
âYeah, some more, some less.â
âWho got less?â
âI think me.â
âHow come?â
âI think by then we knew what we were looking for and caught it beforeâ¦Oh, I see what youâre getting at. You think I let the black, disgusting, mind-eatingâ¦beginâ¦â Sammy stopped and bowed his head until it almost touched his waist.
âExtending?â
âExpandingâ¦â
âEnlarging?â
âDefeatingâ¦â
âImprisoning?â
âMind-controllingâ¦â
âEgo-deflating?
âConfidence-shatteringâ¦â
âDistrust- and unhappiness-causing?
âConsumingâ¦â
âIsnât it scary to think that the common, old, everyday variety of black depression can become completely consuming?â
Sammyâs voice was little more than a gentle, pained whisper. âBut only if I let it be. Is that what youâre trying to get me to say?â
âOnly if you thoroughly and completely believe it.â
âI not only believe it! I lived it!â
I touched his hand softly. âIâm so happy that youâre emerging out of your long trip through a tunnel of darkness. How would you measure the light in your life on a 1 to 10 scale today?â
âWhere doesâ¦sayâ¦112 grab you?â
âRight in my bright-light-, sunshine-, happiness-filled heart.â
âDonât you ever feel depressed?â
âOf course! Everyone does! There are times when pain, sadness, emptiness, and/or depression are a part of each human existence. Can you think of some of those times?â
âFor sure when parents divorce their kids.â
âAnd?â
âWellâ¦Iâd feelâ¦I donât know how Iâd stand it if Mom died, or even Uncle Gordon, or Grandma Gordon, orâ¦I guess anybody I love, even Dread Red Fred.â
âWhat about when someone is treated cruelly or disrespectfully, especially over a period of time?â
âYeah, or loses a job, or doesnât make a team, orgets sacked. Man, there must be millions of things that could make us depressed to the max.â
âSo should we learn how to handle trauma before it enters our lives?â
âIs that possible?â
âYes, if we retain the knowledge that any trauma deserves time and space for grieving and healing.â
âYou mean like a short time for a small wound and a longer time for a deeper one?â
âDoes that
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