Yours for Eternity: A Love Story on Death Row by Damien Echols, Lorri Davis Page B

even realizing that they really want to destroy it. But you and I are beyond that. We could no more destroy what we have than we could destroy each other—because in essence, that is exactly what we would be doing. We aren’t capable of destroying this. So please believe me, you are more safe with me than you have ever been. I could never hurt you. Never think back on those times again. That is the past. I am your future, and you are mine. Forever. I love you.
    Oh Lorri, I know I couldn’t possibly be tormenting you as powerful as you are now doing to me. If it was this bad for you every day, you would have long ago lost your sanity. Put my hand between your legs and then to my mouth? Are you trying to give me heart failure? If you are, you don’t have much further to go, you little demon. You better remember that it will work both ways. I can do the same. If you do that, you had better be prepared to be dragged off into a dark room for 2 or 3 days at a time. There is noway I could be tormenting you this bad. I must be in hell, it’s the only explanation. You remember when you said that if you could be with me, you feared that I would be in grave danger? Well my dear, if only I were with you now— Need I say more? I have never heard, seen, or felt anything in my life that was more erotic than that paragraph. I think I could have very easily fainted—my ears were ringing, and my legs turned to rubber. Oh yes, my love, you will definitely pay for that one. You just wait. I am going to drive you to the very brink of insanity from pure desire. You just wait.
    About Endless Love — Yes, David was the only one in that book that really felt anything, but even his emotions were so weak. I mean, if that would have been you and me, I would have been a billion times worse than him. I would have thought of nothing except tracking you down, even if I had to search every corner of this planet. I would never have even slept until I had found you. I would have allowed nothing to stand in my way. His “obsessiveness” would have been nothing compared to the extremes I would go to. When I was reading the part about how they had hidden Jade’s letters from him, all I could think about were your letters—and if anyone tried to hide them from me, they would think all of hell had landed in their lap by the time I was finished. That’s why the story infuriated me—because I kept picturing what I would do if it were you and me, and I just wanted to scream at him, “Weakling! Coward! Get up and fight for her!” That’s why it drove me crazy.
    Yes, I have thought about our child and Seth meeting one day, and it seems like such a strange, alien thought to me. I don’t know why. But it’s something that I have thought about more than once. I wonder what it would be like? I believe that if they passed on the street, without even ever having known each other before—I believethey would still feel something. In a way, I fear Seth. I know that the day will come when he will want answers, he will be a man, and he will have questions—so he will seek me out. And what do I say then? How will I ever explain anything to him? I don’t think “oops” will be what he searched for so long to hear.
    Well my beloved, I have so much more to say, but it’s almost daybreak, which means they will be here to pick this up soon. I want you to know that I am thinking of you every second of the day and that I love you with every breath I take.
    I belong to you forever,
    Damien

September 6, 1996
    My Dearest Damien,
    What I was trying to say tonight is that I feel so fortunate that I found you in this life when I did—we have enough time to get to know each other so well emotionally and spiritually, and a little if not a lot physically in this very bizarre, wonderful way—and we’re still able to do things I’ve never wanted to do with anyone else—meaning—we can live together til we are very old, we will be able to have a child and watch him grow