thatâs all right, because
itâs 115 degrees and my girlfriendâs boys
are playing outside
on their bicycles
and diving into the wading pool
while waiting to grow up.
for me,
itâs too hot to fuck
too hot to paint
too hot to complain,
those horses across the road donât even
brush off the flies,
the flies are too tired and too hot to bite,
115 degrees,
and if Iâm going to conquer the literary world
maybe we can get it down to
85 degrees first?
right now I canât write poetry,
Iâm panting and lazy and ineffectual,
thereâs a fly on the roller of my typer
and he rides back and forth, back and forth,
my literary fly,
you son-of-a-bitch, get busy,
seek ye out another poet and bite him
on his ass.
I canât understand anything
except that itâs hot, thatâs what it is,
hot, itâs hot today, thatâs what it is, itâs hot, and
that guy from Canada I drank with 3 weeks ago,
heâs probably rolling in the snow right now
with Eskimo women and writing all kinds of
immortal stuff, but itâs just too hot for me.
let him.
memory
Iâve memorized all the fish in the sea
Iâve memorized each opportunity strangled
and
I remember awakening one morning
and finding everything smeared with the color of
forgotten love
and Iâve memorized
that too.
Iâve memorized green rooms in
St. Louis and New Orleans
where I wept because I knew that by myself I
could not overcome
the terror of them and it.
Iâve memorized all the unfaithful years
(and the faithful ones too)
Iâve memorized each cigarette that Iâve rolled.
Iâve memorized Beethoven and New York City
Iâve memorized
riding up escalators, Iâve memorized
Chicago and cottage cheese, and the mouths of
some of the ladies and the legs of
some of the ladies
Iâve known
and the way the rain came down hard.
Iâve memorized the face of my father in his coffin,
Iâve memorized all the cars I have driven
and each of their sad deaths,
Iâve memorized each jail cell,
the face of each new president
and the faces of some of the assassins;
Iâve even memorized the arguments Iâve had with
some of the women
Iâve loved.
best of all
Iâve memorized tonight and now and the way the
light falls across my fingers,
specks and smears on the wall,
shades down behind orange curtains;
I light a rolled cigarette and then laugh a little,
yes, Iâve memorized it all.
the courage of my memory.
Carlton Way off Western Ave.
while the rents go up elsewhere
this is where the poor people
come to live
the people on AFDC and relief
the large families with bad jobs
the strange lonely men
on old age pensions
waiting to die.
here among the massage parlors
the pawn shops
the liquor stores
caught in the smog and the squalor
even the dogs look
inept
donât bark or
chase cats,
and the cats walk up and down the
streets
and never catch a bird
but the birds are there
but you canât see them
you only hear them
sometimes in the night
at 3:30 a.m.
after the last streetwalker has made her
last score.
the rents go up here too
but compared to most others
we are living for free
because nobody wants to live with the
likes of us.
none of us have new cars
most of us walk
and we donât care who wins the
election.
but we have wife-beaters
here too
just like the others
and child-beaters
just like the others
and sex freaks
and TV sets
just like the others
and weâll die
just like the others
only a little earlier and weâll eat
just like the others
only cheaper stuff
and lie
just like the others
only with a little less
imagination.
and even though our streetwalkers donât
look as good as your wives
I think our cats and our birds and dogs
are better
and donât forget the low
rents.
at the zoo
hereâs a male giraffe
he wants it
but the femaleâs not
Allie Juliette Mousseau
R.P. Dahlke
Jan Burke
Andy Mandela
Oscar Wilde, Ian Small
Laura Resau
Marié Heese
Terry C. Johnston
James P. Blaylock
Sarah May