Watch Me Walk Away by Jill Prand Page A

he knew how my heart had shattered and I was living like a zombie? Do we stand a chance after so much time?
    Jodi comes in and sits down on the bed with me, “I’m sorry. I never should have said anything.” She moves my hair away from my face. “I want you to be happy. I always have. I didn’t know that he was calling John. I would have told you. If you want to try again I will give you all the support I can. I know you still love him but he is not the same person who left. He came back changed. He doesn’t speak with any of us much and when he does it’s like he doesn’t feel anything. He is very robotic”
    “He told me that people call him heartless now. He said that he is because I have his heart and the only time he feels anything is when I am near. How can I not want to be with him when he tells me that? I don’t see the person you just described to me. If anything when he is with me all I feel are emotions pouring off of him. Read his letter and then tell me if he seems like a robot. It’s like he can’t stop himself from telling me what he feels. Like a dam has opened up and maybe it has if you say he’s been emotionless. I need to try with him I know that. The same thing that’s happening to him is happening to me. He makes me feel alive. He makes me want.” I look at her pleading her to understand.
    She hugs me, “Just go slow. I am just worried about you but if he can make you happy then go for it.”
    I sit up, “I was going to wait to open this but I think we both need to see it.”
    “You don’t think it’s a ring do you?” she settles on my bed cross legged.
    “No I know what it is. Remember what he said he was giving me for our first anniversary?” I start to unwrap it.
    “I forgot all about that! Hurry up now I want to see what a rock he got you!” she is practically jumping now.
    The box is blue. Tiffany’s damn even if its small this had to have cost him. I close my eyes and open the box. I can feel Jodi move to get a look at it, “Wow! It’s beautiful”
    I open my eyes. Nestled in the box is a sapphire on a platinum chain. The stone is the color of Bobby’s eyes. It would be like wearing a part of him. Like just wearing it would make me his or maybe make him mine. I just stare at it. It is so much more than I was expecting. I reach out a finger to touch it. I want to put it on to see what it looks like around my neck.
    Jodi takes the box from my hand and starts to take it out. “You have to try it on” she says.
    “I can’t. Not yet. When I put it on there is no going back. I’m not ready yet,” I look at her.
    “Just see what it looks like.” She is unclasping it and holding it out for me to put my neck in. I move forward and she closes the clasp behind my head then takes my hair out. I reach my hand up, the stone falls right below my neck.
    “Stunning,” Jodi says.
    I get off the bed and go over to my mirror. I look at myself and she’s right, stunning. I want to keep it on but I know I can’t. Not yet. “Can you take it off please?” I ask her. She comes up behind me and I move my long hair out of her way.
    “You know you could wear it for a few days since he’s going to be away. Just get used to it.” Her hands are on the clasp but she hasn’t opened it yet.
    “No the next time I wear it I will have Bobby put it on me,” I say looking at her reflection.
    John walks in before she can get it undone. “Wow is that what was in the box? It’s gorgeous and it looks great on you.”
    Jodi takes it off me and hands it to me. “He out did himself with this. She won’t wear it yet though.”
    “Too soon?” he asks. I nod my head. “Well your phone has been going off for the last few minutes. I would say someone wants to know if you like it.” He hands me my cell. He takes Jodi’s hand and starts to leave, “He is a good guy, Lisa.”
    I look at my phone as I make my way back to the bed. I missed two calls and a text message. Where are you?
    I lay on my