gone I took several deep breaths, trying to hold myself together. I felt the tears pricking my eyes and I didn't want to let them go. I knew Connor would take it as he did something wrong when it had nothing to do with him. It was the fact that I needed this to survive, to begin to heal.
Connor came back to bed and pulled the blanket around us. "I love you Madison." His voice was soft and low. I couldn't hold it in any longer. The tone of his voice, the words he said and the million other emotions that had been stirred up had to be let out. I reached out for him and pulled him close as I began to sob. I sobbed for everything I had lost that time I spent with someone who didn't deserve me. I sobbed for everything I had gained in Connor. I cried for the fact that I needed to let the hurt out so I could be what Connor deserved and needed me to be.
Connor didn't say anything. He just laid and held me. After I had no tears left to cry and calmed down I finally spoke.
"I'm sorry. That wasn't about you, or what just happened. I just needed to."
He hugged me closer to him. "I understand. You may be broken Madison, but it isn't something I'm not willing to help you fix. If you talk to me and are always honest I will always, and I mean always try to understand."
To hear his voice back to normal relieved me. I let out a huge breath, believing that he understood I wasn't crying because of him or what we did.
"That's why I love you. You just understand and care unconditionally."
"I can only do that if you let me." He wrapped his arm around me and that's how we fell asleep.
Chapter 15
I woke the next morning just as the sun was beginning to rise. I was about to get out of bed until I realized I had no idea where my clothes were. Connor was fast asleep next to me. I quietly and carefully slid out of bed, grabbing the closest articles of clothing I could find. Luckily one of those articles was my panties. I slid those on and grabbed Connor's T-Shirt that was laying on the floor next to them. Sliding that on I slipped out of the bedroom and closed the door quietly behind me.
There were soft rays of light coming into the house and I once again looked around the house in awe. It was so beautiful and so, elegant that I couldn't get over it. I padded off toward the kitchen and started a pot of coffee. I searched through the fridge and pulled out some things to make breakfast with. I was surprised I had woken before Connor, but decided to get breakfast together before he woke up.
I made scrambled eggs, and bacon and just as my first batch of toast popped up I heard shuffling feet followed by a yawn. I couldn't help but smile seeing Connor standing in the middle of this beautiful kitchen in nothing but a pair of boxers, sleepy eyes and completely disheveled hair.
I poured a cup of coffee and kissed his cheek as I handed it to him. "Good morning sunshine." Connor just gave a non-committal groan and took a sip of coffee. Not five minutes later he came up behind me, wrapping his arms around me and hugged me to him. "Good morning baby. I must say my T-Shirt has never looked so sexy." He kissed my cheek and let go, pouring another cup of coffee.
I blushed as I put his breakfast down in front of him.
He smiled as he ate. "I could get used to this. Waiting at home for me on Friday night, wearing my T-Shirt on Sunday morning. I think I'm dreaming." He gave me a silly grin and I couldn't help but smile.
"I'm going to shower. I'll be back. Finish your breakfast."
When I returned from the shower Connor was on the phone in the kitchen.
"Yes...Three weeks tops...I'll owe him if he does me this favor...Tell him I'll give Donna first pick here." He smiled when he saw me. "Yea...just get him on board. I'll check in tomorrow...bye."
"Are you working on a Sunday?" He smiled at
Connor came back to bed and pulled the blanket around us. "I love you Madison." His voice was soft and low. I couldn't hold it in any longer. The tone of his voice, the words he said and the million other emotions that had been stirred up had to be let out. I reached out for him and pulled him close as I began to sob. I sobbed for everything I had lost that time I spent with someone who didn't deserve me. I sobbed for everything I had gained in Connor. I cried for the fact that I needed to let the hurt out so I could be what Connor deserved and needed me to be.
Connor didn't say anything. He just laid and held me. After I had no tears left to cry and calmed down I finally spoke.
"I'm sorry. That wasn't about you, or what just happened. I just needed to."
He hugged me closer to him. "I understand. You may be broken Madison, but it isn't something I'm not willing to help you fix. If you talk to me and are always honest I will always, and I mean always try to understand."
To hear his voice back to normal relieved me. I let out a huge breath, believing that he understood I wasn't crying because of him or what we did.
"That's why I love you. You just understand and care unconditionally."
"I can only do that if you let me." He wrapped his arm around me and that's how we fell asleep.
Chapter 15
I woke the next morning just as the sun was beginning to rise. I was about to get out of bed until I realized I had no idea where my clothes were. Connor was fast asleep next to me. I quietly and carefully slid out of bed, grabbing the closest articles of clothing I could find. Luckily one of those articles was my panties. I slid those on and grabbed Connor's T-Shirt that was laying on the floor next to them. Sliding that on I slipped out of the bedroom and closed the door quietly behind me.
There were soft rays of light coming into the house and I once again looked around the house in awe. It was so beautiful and so, elegant that I couldn't get over it. I padded off toward the kitchen and started a pot of coffee. I searched through the fridge and pulled out some things to make breakfast with. I was surprised I had woken before Connor, but decided to get breakfast together before he woke up.
I made scrambled eggs, and bacon and just as my first batch of toast popped up I heard shuffling feet followed by a yawn. I couldn't help but smile seeing Connor standing in the middle of this beautiful kitchen in nothing but a pair of boxers, sleepy eyes and completely disheveled hair.
I poured a cup of coffee and kissed his cheek as I handed it to him. "Good morning sunshine." Connor just gave a non-committal groan and took a sip of coffee. Not five minutes later he came up behind me, wrapping his arms around me and hugged me to him. "Good morning baby. I must say my T-Shirt has never looked so sexy." He kissed my cheek and let go, pouring another cup of coffee.
I blushed as I put his breakfast down in front of him.
He smiled as he ate. "I could get used to this. Waiting at home for me on Friday night, wearing my T-Shirt on Sunday morning. I think I'm dreaming." He gave me a silly grin and I couldn't help but smile.
"I'm going to shower. I'll be back. Finish your breakfast."
When I returned from the shower Connor was on the phone in the kitchen.
"Yes...Three weeks tops...I'll owe him if he does me this favor...Tell him I'll give Donna first pick here." He smiled when he saw me. "Yea...just get him on board. I'll check in tomorrow...bye."
"Are you working on a Sunday?" He smiled at
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