laughs.
“Well you did get mind fuck today so that is normal. La, don’t you think that you should hear him out?” I shake my head, I don’t want to talk about it.
“La, we have been through hell and back and stared fear in the eye. There was one point while I saw you laid up in the hospital bed that you were gone. I can’t lose you now. What happened to “I get what I want” where is that girl? This one that lays here listening to stupid shit is not you.” I look around and think about it all. She is right. This isn’t me.
“Okay, it’s time for La to come back, but I’m not talking to him. I already heard him out so I choose to walk away. I choose to. And after everything you should know that I need to be the one to choose for myself.” She nods as she walk out of the room. This is going to be an interesting year and we are only at end of September.
CHAPTER 5
I hate that I had to say goodbye to my brother last night. If it weren’t for the suspension last month then I would have missed school today. Ashley has been there through it all, but also has been through a lot with Gage as well. I am not jealous I am happy that she’s able to find the one again. I on the other hand have not. I have slept around a lot more than normal. It’s part of my coping. My dad promised that they would be here for the holidays, but I am not expecting it. Mark told me that if I didn’t want him to go he wouldn’t. It’s what he wanted and I wasn’t going to rob him of that. I am staring into the mirror looking at the person before me who has slowly started to disappear before my eyes. This girl looking back was not the same one that started this year. My mom made me see a counselor and I was diagnose with depression. Well shit any one would when you bring up the death of someone that you caused, and a grandma and family who hate you. After I was cleared to be alone a month later they hauled ass to Nevada. It was like really? Whatever. I changed my number to stay away from Brandon and made sure that other than at school. I didn’t speak to him. After the second week he gave up typical male. I hear noise coming from the stairs. I finish my makeup and head that way knowing who is here.
“Ready bitch?” I laugh as I grab my purse off the table in the foyer.
“Let’s go. So what are we doing Halloween tonight?” She beams as we get into the car. I grab my seat belt letting my eyes roam to Brandon’s house. Once it was an escape. Now is a hurting place for my heart.
“So there is this underground fighting that Gage has been talking about. I went to one last week and oh my god La it is amazing. So Gage told me on the way here that he got a phone call from his buddy that there is one going down tonight. It is the last one before the break. So I told him I’d ask if you wanted to go. So do you? He misses you actually the whole frat house does. So afterwards we can go party it up there. Huh?” I look at her. I feel bad neglecting the frat boys.
“I am game, but I’m going to turn this song up, because it is awesome.” We laugh as we sing Here by Hellogoodbye all the way to school. We jump out and she does her famous prep talk before I walk into first period.
“La, you are a strong woman who can make it through the day without Mr. AH being on your mind. Okay?” I laugh. I answer him with “Yes Mr. AH” he assumes it’s a cute nickname, but it means asshole so it makes me laugh.
“Love you slut.” She laughs as we part ways. I know I am late the moment I reach the second floor and the bell rings. Shit. I still have a floor to go. I run up the stairs and it was like Déjà vu all over again. Only this time I knock into a guy who has blue jeans that were just fucking sexy, a Hollister shirt, and converse. I look up and was met with these
“Well you did get mind fuck today so that is normal. La, don’t you think that you should hear him out?” I shake my head, I don’t want to talk about it.
“La, we have been through hell and back and stared fear in the eye. There was one point while I saw you laid up in the hospital bed that you were gone. I can’t lose you now. What happened to “I get what I want” where is that girl? This one that lays here listening to stupid shit is not you.” I look around and think about it all. She is right. This isn’t me.
“Okay, it’s time for La to come back, but I’m not talking to him. I already heard him out so I choose to walk away. I choose to. And after everything you should know that I need to be the one to choose for myself.” She nods as she walk out of the room. This is going to be an interesting year and we are only at end of September.
CHAPTER 5
I hate that I had to say goodbye to my brother last night. If it weren’t for the suspension last month then I would have missed school today. Ashley has been there through it all, but also has been through a lot with Gage as well. I am not jealous I am happy that she’s able to find the one again. I on the other hand have not. I have slept around a lot more than normal. It’s part of my coping. My dad promised that they would be here for the holidays, but I am not expecting it. Mark told me that if I didn’t want him to go he wouldn’t. It’s what he wanted and I wasn’t going to rob him of that. I am staring into the mirror looking at the person before me who has slowly started to disappear before my eyes. This girl looking back was not the same one that started this year. My mom made me see a counselor and I was diagnose with depression. Well shit any one would when you bring up the death of someone that you caused, and a grandma and family who hate you. After I was cleared to be alone a month later they hauled ass to Nevada. It was like really? Whatever. I changed my number to stay away from Brandon and made sure that other than at school. I didn’t speak to him. After the second week he gave up typical male. I hear noise coming from the stairs. I finish my makeup and head that way knowing who is here.
“Ready bitch?” I laugh as I grab my purse off the table in the foyer.
“Let’s go. So what are we doing Halloween tonight?” She beams as we get into the car. I grab my seat belt letting my eyes roam to Brandon’s house. Once it was an escape. Now is a hurting place for my heart.
“So there is this underground fighting that Gage has been talking about. I went to one last week and oh my god La it is amazing. So Gage told me on the way here that he got a phone call from his buddy that there is one going down tonight. It is the last one before the break. So I told him I’d ask if you wanted to go. So do you? He misses you actually the whole frat house does. So afterwards we can go party it up there. Huh?” I look at her. I feel bad neglecting the frat boys.
“I am game, but I’m going to turn this song up, because it is awesome.” We laugh as we sing Here by Hellogoodbye all the way to school. We jump out and she does her famous prep talk before I walk into first period.
“La, you are a strong woman who can make it through the day without Mr. AH being on your mind. Okay?” I laugh. I answer him with “Yes Mr. AH” he assumes it’s a cute nickname, but it means asshole so it makes me laugh.
“Love you slut.” She laughs as we part ways. I know I am late the moment I reach the second floor and the bell rings. Shit. I still have a floor to go. I run up the stairs and it was like Déjà vu all over again. Only this time I knock into a guy who has blue jeans that were just fucking sexy, a Hollister shirt, and converse. I look up and was met with these
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