a smoke.
I sit at the patio table and enjoy the sun on my face. That first cigarette is always heavenly, I know I should quit, but I actually love smoking. There are worse things I could do to myself, and believe me I have tried a lot of them.
I turn when I hear the sliding door open and Trevan step through. He is carrying two coffee mugs, and hands one to me.
"Thank you."
"I hope I made it right."
"I'm sure it's fine."
He nods and lights himself a cigarette. He sits in the chair next to me and we sit in silence. I'm not sure how to act anymore, this is new for me, well in a long time. I haven't done this since Ben and I. That ended in disaster. We had such a great relationship in the beginning and look where that got me.
"Where are you?" Trevan asks, breaking me of my thoughts.
I shake myself, "No where."
"You know, you can talk to me. I won't judge you," he smiles sweetly at me.
I grab another cigarette and light it. I take a long drag from it and look over at Trevan. Damn, why does he have to be so fucking hot. Why do I feel so comfortable around him, like I might be able to have some normalcy. But what the fuck in normalcy, anyway.
"I was thinking about my relationship with Ben. It started off great and then look where I am now."
"That's the way most relationships start. Abusive or not, everything is great and then it's not."
"WOW. Such fucking wise words."
I look him in the face and neither of us can help, but laugh our asses off. It feels so good to laugh, I haven't done it in so long.
"You are so beautiful when you laugh. You should do it more often."
"Yeah, is that more of your wisdom."
We smile at each other, and I think maybe. Maybe I could let him in, a little.
"Do you want more coffee?"
He nods and I grab both of our mugs. I lean against the counter and fill our mugs. What a change in events. How freeing it is, knowing Ben is in jail right now. Plus having Trevan here, makes me feel so safe. I don't where things go from here with Ben, but I know it will be better.
I grab both mugs and walk back outside. I hand Trevan his mug and sit back in mine.
"So what are your plans today? Do you have to work?" I ask him.
"Well I'm taking today off. I wanted to spend the day with you. If that's okay?" he winks at me.
I smile back at him and nod. "That would be great. Let me get ready."
"Great. I will go home, shower and change. I'll be back to pick you up in about two hours."
I nod. We get up from the table, grabbing our mugs. Setting them on the counter, I follow him to the front door.
"See you in a bit."
I watch him walk down the path and into his car. I turn, shut the door and lean my back against it. I hope I am doing the right thing, by letting him. I will try a little at a time. I push away from the door and run upstairs to get ready.
I never thought I could have such a fun time going to the zoo, of all places. Trevan picked me up and informed me that's where we were going. I haven't been there since I was a kid. It was such a beautiful day to be outside. It was so strange to do something so normal.
I can tell that he is being very patient with me. When he grabbed my hand to hold it, I told him I had to us the restroom. I'm not one to hold hands and do all that lovie, dovie stuff in public. He didn't try again, thankfully.
Once we reach my house, I don't want the day to end.
"Want to stay for some dinner, or something?"
"Sure," he says with a chuckle.
We get out of the car and he follows me up to the front. I unlock it, walk in and throw my purse onto the floor. I make my way to the kitchen and open the frig to see what I have to eat. Trevan comes up behind me and wraps his arms around my middle. I forget all about the food and turn into his arms. I kick the frig door shut with my foot.
I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him to my lips. His tongue finds it's way into my mouth and I love the taste of him. We kiss passionately while his arms, work there way under my shirt.
We
I sit at the patio table and enjoy the sun on my face. That first cigarette is always heavenly, I know I should quit, but I actually love smoking. There are worse things I could do to myself, and believe me I have tried a lot of them.
I turn when I hear the sliding door open and Trevan step through. He is carrying two coffee mugs, and hands one to me.
"Thank you."
"I hope I made it right."
"I'm sure it's fine."
He nods and lights himself a cigarette. He sits in the chair next to me and we sit in silence. I'm not sure how to act anymore, this is new for me, well in a long time. I haven't done this since Ben and I. That ended in disaster. We had such a great relationship in the beginning and look where that got me.
"Where are you?" Trevan asks, breaking me of my thoughts.
I shake myself, "No where."
"You know, you can talk to me. I won't judge you," he smiles sweetly at me.
I grab another cigarette and light it. I take a long drag from it and look over at Trevan. Damn, why does he have to be so fucking hot. Why do I feel so comfortable around him, like I might be able to have some normalcy. But what the fuck in normalcy, anyway.
"I was thinking about my relationship with Ben. It started off great and then look where I am now."
"That's the way most relationships start. Abusive or not, everything is great and then it's not."
"WOW. Such fucking wise words."
I look him in the face and neither of us can help, but laugh our asses off. It feels so good to laugh, I haven't done it in so long.
"You are so beautiful when you laugh. You should do it more often."
"Yeah, is that more of your wisdom."
We smile at each other, and I think maybe. Maybe I could let him in, a little.
"Do you want more coffee?"
He nods and I grab both of our mugs. I lean against the counter and fill our mugs. What a change in events. How freeing it is, knowing Ben is in jail right now. Plus having Trevan here, makes me feel so safe. I don't where things go from here with Ben, but I know it will be better.
I grab both mugs and walk back outside. I hand Trevan his mug and sit back in mine.
"So what are your plans today? Do you have to work?" I ask him.
"Well I'm taking today off. I wanted to spend the day with you. If that's okay?" he winks at me.
I smile back at him and nod. "That would be great. Let me get ready."
"Great. I will go home, shower and change. I'll be back to pick you up in about two hours."
I nod. We get up from the table, grabbing our mugs. Setting them on the counter, I follow him to the front door.
"See you in a bit."
I watch him walk down the path and into his car. I turn, shut the door and lean my back against it. I hope I am doing the right thing, by letting him. I will try a little at a time. I push away from the door and run upstairs to get ready.
I never thought I could have such a fun time going to the zoo, of all places. Trevan picked me up and informed me that's where we were going. I haven't been there since I was a kid. It was such a beautiful day to be outside. It was so strange to do something so normal.
I can tell that he is being very patient with me. When he grabbed my hand to hold it, I told him I had to us the restroom. I'm not one to hold hands and do all that lovie, dovie stuff in public. He didn't try again, thankfully.
Once we reach my house, I don't want the day to end.
"Want to stay for some dinner, or something?"
"Sure," he says with a chuckle.
We get out of the car and he follows me up to the front. I unlock it, walk in and throw my purse onto the floor. I make my way to the kitchen and open the frig to see what I have to eat. Trevan comes up behind me and wraps his arms around my middle. I forget all about the food and turn into his arms. I kick the frig door shut with my foot.
I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him to my lips. His tongue finds it's way into my mouth and I love the taste of him. We kiss passionately while his arms, work there way under my shirt.
We
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