jealous. You know what Ronan feels for you.”
Kestrel became acutely conscious of Arin’s presence in the room. She glanced at him, expecting the bored expression he usually wore in Jess’s company. It wasn’t there. He seemed oddly intent. “You may go,” she told him.
It looked like he might disobey. Then he spun on his heel and strode from the room.
When the door had shut behind him, Kestrel told Jess, “Ronan and I are friends.”
Jess huffed with impatience.
“And there is only one reason young men of his set visit Lady Faris,” Kestrel continued, thinking of Faris’s baby and his dimpled smile. She considered the possibility that the child was Ronan’s. This didn’t trouble her—which did trouble her. Shouldn’t she care? Didn’t she welcome Ronan’s attention? Yet the idea that he had fathered a child skimmed the surface of her mind and slipped in quietly, without a splash or gulp or quiver.
Well, if the baby was his, he had been conceived more than a year ago. And if Ronan was with Faris now, what promise was there between him and Kestrel?
“Faris is notorious,” she told Jess. “Plus, her husband is in the capital.”
“Young men visit her because her husband is one of the most influential men in the city, and they hope Faris will help them become senators.”
“What price do you think she makes them pay?”
Jess looked scandalized.
“Why would Ronan mind paying?” Kestrel said. “Faris is beautiful.”
“He would never.”
“Jess, if you think you can convince me that Ronan is an innocent who has never been with a woman, you are mistaken.”
“If you think Ronan would prefer Faris over you, you are mad.” Jess shook her head. “All he wants is a sign of your affection. He has given you plenty.”
“Meaningless compliments.”
“You don’t want to see it. Don’t you think he is handsome?”
Kestrel couldn’t deny that Ronan was everything she might hope. He cut a fine figure. He was witty, good-natured. And he didn’t mind her music.
Jess said, “Wouldn’t you like for us to be sisters?”
Kestrel reached for one of Jess’s many shining, pale braids. She slipped it out of the girl’s upswept arrangement, then tucked it back in. “We already are.”
“ Real sisters.”
“Yes,” Kestrel said in a low voice. “I would like that.” She had always wanted to be part of Jess’s family, ever since she had been a child. Jess had the perfect older brother and indulgent parents.
Jess made a delighted sound. Kestrel looked at her sharply. “Don’t you dare tell him.”
“Me?” Jess said innocently.
* * *
Later that day, Kestrel sat with Arin in the music room. She played her tiles: a pair of wolves and three mice.
Arin turned his over with a resigned sigh. He didn’t have a bad set, but it wasn’t good enough, and beneath his usual level of skill. He stiffened in his chair as if physically bracing himself for her question.
Kestrel studied his tiles. She was certain he could have done better than a pair of wasps. She thought of the tiles he had shown earlier in the game, and the careless way in which he had discarded others. If she didn’t know how little he liked to lose against her, she would have suspected him of throwing the game.
She said, “You seem distracted.”
“Is that your question? Are you asking me why I am distracted?”
“So you admit that you are distracted.”
“You are a fiend,” he said, echoing Ronan’s words during the match at Faris’s garden party. Then, apparently annoyed at his own words, he said, “Ask your question.”
She could have pressed the issue, but his distraction was a less interesting mystery compared to one growing in her mind. She didn’t think Arin was who he appeared to be. He had the body of someone born into hard work, yet he knew how to play a Valorian game, and play it well. He spoke her language like someone who had studied it carefully. He knew—or pretended to know—the habits
Kestrel became acutely conscious of Arin’s presence in the room. She glanced at him, expecting the bored expression he usually wore in Jess’s company. It wasn’t there. He seemed oddly intent. “You may go,” she told him.
It looked like he might disobey. Then he spun on his heel and strode from the room.
When the door had shut behind him, Kestrel told Jess, “Ronan and I are friends.”
Jess huffed with impatience.
“And there is only one reason young men of his set visit Lady Faris,” Kestrel continued, thinking of Faris’s baby and his dimpled smile. She considered the possibility that the child was Ronan’s. This didn’t trouble her—which did trouble her. Shouldn’t she care? Didn’t she welcome Ronan’s attention? Yet the idea that he had fathered a child skimmed the surface of her mind and slipped in quietly, without a splash or gulp or quiver.
Well, if the baby was his, he had been conceived more than a year ago. And if Ronan was with Faris now, what promise was there between him and Kestrel?
“Faris is notorious,” she told Jess. “Plus, her husband is in the capital.”
“Young men visit her because her husband is one of the most influential men in the city, and they hope Faris will help them become senators.”
“What price do you think she makes them pay?”
Jess looked scandalized.
“Why would Ronan mind paying?” Kestrel said. “Faris is beautiful.”
“He would never.”
“Jess, if you think you can convince me that Ronan is an innocent who has never been with a woman, you are mistaken.”
“If you think Ronan would prefer Faris over you, you are mad.” Jess shook her head. “All he wants is a sign of your affection. He has given you plenty.”
“Meaningless compliments.”
“You don’t want to see it. Don’t you think he is handsome?”
Kestrel couldn’t deny that Ronan was everything she might hope. He cut a fine figure. He was witty, good-natured. And he didn’t mind her music.
Jess said, “Wouldn’t you like for us to be sisters?”
Kestrel reached for one of Jess’s many shining, pale braids. She slipped it out of the girl’s upswept arrangement, then tucked it back in. “We already are.”
“ Real sisters.”
“Yes,” Kestrel said in a low voice. “I would like that.” She had always wanted to be part of Jess’s family, ever since she had been a child. Jess had the perfect older brother and indulgent parents.
Jess made a delighted sound. Kestrel looked at her sharply. “Don’t you dare tell him.”
“Me?” Jess said innocently.
* * *
Later that day, Kestrel sat with Arin in the music room. She played her tiles: a pair of wolves and three mice.
Arin turned his over with a resigned sigh. He didn’t have a bad set, but it wasn’t good enough, and beneath his usual level of skill. He stiffened in his chair as if physically bracing himself for her question.
Kestrel studied his tiles. She was certain he could have done better than a pair of wasps. She thought of the tiles he had shown earlier in the game, and the careless way in which he had discarded others. If she didn’t know how little he liked to lose against her, she would have suspected him of throwing the game.
She said, “You seem distracted.”
“Is that your question? Are you asking me why I am distracted?”
“So you admit that you are distracted.”
“You are a fiend,” he said, echoing Ronan’s words during the match at Faris’s garden party. Then, apparently annoyed at his own words, he said, “Ask your question.”
She could have pressed the issue, but his distraction was a less interesting mystery compared to one growing in her mind. She didn’t think Arin was who he appeared to be. He had the body of someone born into hard work, yet he knew how to play a Valorian game, and play it well. He spoke her language like someone who had studied it carefully. He knew—or pretended to know—the habits
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