say as I snap my eyes over to him and he just laughs more. “Come on. Let’s go for a walk.” Nina says as she walks over and grabs my hand. I stand up and follow her out of the house and out towards the water. “What’s wrong Cad.?” She says as we walk looking at the water. “I'm just restless is all. I can’t be this still Nina. I mean I have been hold up in that house for weeks and I'm going stir crazy.” I say as she smiles up at me. “What do you want to do?” She says as I look down at that beautiful face. “I want to finish what I started.” I say as her smile fades. She knows I have been talking about trying to get in with Joel’s guys and find out if I can get any information about her sister. She wants to know but at the same she said she doesn’t want me in any more trouble. “Not now Cad. You barley made it this time. We can try something else like maybe a private investigator.” She says as we keep walking. I don’t respond for a few minutes because honestly I don’t know what to say to her. I know how much her sister means to her but at the same time I don’t even know if this girl is alive. A lot of these girls get so messed up they don’t make it. “You really think some half ass investigator can get in? You must have lost your mind.” I say as she stops and turns to face me. “Damn it Cad. I can’t handle anymore. Don’t you understand? I lost her once and I almost lost you. I don’t think I can deal with it again. I was so scared and stressed out when we didn’t hear from you. I won’t do it again.” She snaps as she watches me. “I'm sorry Nina. We will figure something out.” I say as I pull her to me. I already figured it out. I'm going to see what I can do and if she is alive how I can get to her. I let go of Nina and grab her hand as we head back to the house so I can get some play time with Josh. *** “She will fucking kill you first!” Bradon snaps as we sit out back watching Josh play. I told him what I wanted to do. “Yea I'm pretty sure you’re right about that but I made a promise Bra. I intend to keep it.” I say as I smile at Josh. He has to be the perfect little boy ever. He is always so happy and smiling. “I mean going to Joel isn’t so bad but going into his setup is. Why can’t we get some guys to go in?” He says as he looks at me now. I turn to face him. “Bra. I can get a thousand men to go in there but when it comes time to actually get her out of there it’s on me.” I say as he nods. “Well then let’s get some guys set up to go in and if she is alive and where we can get to her then we go in.” He says as I smile at him. Listen to him and all this We shit. He really thinks I would take him in again? Oh hell no. I almost lost him hell I thought I did lose him and that will never be a fear of mine again. “I know what you’re thinking. I'm going if you go.” He says as I laugh. I reach over and slap his shoulder. “You think you are but little brother this time you’re out.” I say as I watch his face contort in anger. That’s ok. He can get mad and take it out on me but there is no way in hell he is going in. We watch as Josh plays and the girls come out of the house. “Come on guys let’s eat.” Josie yells as we turn to see them bringing out plates of food. I stand and run over grabbing Josh and throwing him in the air while he laughs that sweet little laugh of his. I walk over and set him in his little high chair so he can eat too. “You ok?” Nina says as she hugs me around my neck as I smile down at her. “I'm perfect.” I say before I kiss her. She smiles back up at me and we sit down and eat. *** It’s been 2 weeks since I’ve called in to Joel. He agreed to let my guys in only on this one trip. He said he still dabbles in the trafficking game and he didn’t want anything to mess with that which I totally get. I sent in some of my guys that helped out with my dad’s shit. I'm waiting on a