one of the only people who knew that went on at the club. She knew everything.
“I wanted to see how you’re doing.”
“I’m fine. Why?”
“You’ve seemed different.” She shrugged. “More antsy.”
“I’m fine.”
“You can leave this all behind you know, Greyson.” She walked up to the desk. “We could leave, let someone else take over. You don’t have to do this anymore.”
“I can’t stop now.” I shook my head. “This is my bed. I need to lie in it.”
“No you don’t ,” she countered. “This doesn’t have to be your life.”
“Patsy, is there anything else?” I sighed and looked at her expectantly. I didn’t want to be rude and throw her out of the office, but I was getting annoyed.
“I thought you didn’t believe in love.” She bit her lip and stared at me. “I thought that the reason you were the way you were was because you couldn’t love.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“But you’re different. You care about that Riley girl, don’t you?” Her eyes looked sad. “I wondered why you hired her. She doesn’t fit the mold of the girls we accept at the club. Not the old club or the new club.”
“Patsy ,” I started, but she shook her head.
“No .” She sounded upset. “I just wished I understood what she has that I don’t. I’ve seen it all, Greyson. I know who you were and who you are and I’m still here.”
“I know and I appreciate that.”
“I’m still here. I’ve always been here. I’ve kept your secrets, but you still don’t love me.”
“I don’t love anyone.” I sighed, not even knowing how I felt any more.
“You don’t see it yet, but I do. We all do.” She turned away from me. “But she’ll destroy everything, Greyson. She won’t be able to accept it. I know girls like her. She doesn’t know what life is like. The real grit, the dirt, the hard times, the bad times, the evil times. She doesn’t know it like I do. She’s not worth your energy, Greyson.”
“Please don’t talk about her like that ,” I said softly, trying to hide the anger building up in me. “Please, Patsy.”
“You don’t even know her !” Her voice rose. “How can you feel this way about her already? I’ve been here for years.”
“Patsy.” I sighed. “I’m sorry . I don’t know what to say.”
“She’s going to bring it all back up, you know. That girl Nancy ? She came to me, but I don’t know where she went. She’s Maria’s sister, you know.”
“I know.” I nodded. “I know a lot of things, Patsy.”
“Oh?” She looked at me then and her face stilled.
“I know about you and David.”
“What?” Her eyes popped open. “I never told him anything, I swear.”
“I know, Patsy. I trust you.” I walked over to her and hugged her. “I trust you and I love you like a sister, Patsy. But I don’t love you as anything more. I will never love you like that.”
She didn’t answer then, but I could feel wet tears on my shoulder as she sobbed. I held her tight, sad that I had broken her in this way. I felt sick to my stomach. It seemed that all I did was bring pain to women.
I allowed her to get it out. But as I stood there, all I could think about was Meg. My beautifu,l wonderful Meg. I knew that she had questions about the club. She had questions and she had theories. I was scared to tell her the truth while she still had some hope about me. I knew that once she knew the truth she would be gone and I’d never see her again. And I wasn’t ready for that to happen just yet.
I wasn’t ready for the heart I hadn’t even known existed until a few days ago to break already.
Chapter 9
Present Day
Meg
I walked through the corridors aimlessly. I felt empty inside. The phone call had changed something in me. It had made me completely raw inside. As soon as Greyson had received another call from Patsy, he’d had to leave. He had asked me to wait so we could talk, but I’d slipped out of the bedroom as soon
“I wanted to see how you’re doing.”
“I’m fine. Why?”
“You’ve seemed different.” She shrugged. “More antsy.”
“I’m fine.”
“You can leave this all behind you know, Greyson.” She walked up to the desk. “We could leave, let someone else take over. You don’t have to do this anymore.”
“I can’t stop now.” I shook my head. “This is my bed. I need to lie in it.”
“No you don’t ,” she countered. “This doesn’t have to be your life.”
“Patsy, is there anything else?” I sighed and looked at her expectantly. I didn’t want to be rude and throw her out of the office, but I was getting annoyed.
“I thought you didn’t believe in love.” She bit her lip and stared at me. “I thought that the reason you were the way you were was because you couldn’t love.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“But you’re different. You care about that Riley girl, don’t you?” Her eyes looked sad. “I wondered why you hired her. She doesn’t fit the mold of the girls we accept at the club. Not the old club or the new club.”
“Patsy ,” I started, but she shook her head.
“No .” She sounded upset. “I just wished I understood what she has that I don’t. I’ve seen it all, Greyson. I know who you were and who you are and I’m still here.”
“I know and I appreciate that.”
“I’m still here. I’ve always been here. I’ve kept your secrets, but you still don’t love me.”
“I don’t love anyone.” I sighed, not even knowing how I felt any more.
“You don’t see it yet, but I do. We all do.” She turned away from me. “But she’ll destroy everything, Greyson. She won’t be able to accept it. I know girls like her. She doesn’t know what life is like. The real grit, the dirt, the hard times, the bad times, the evil times. She doesn’t know it like I do. She’s not worth your energy, Greyson.”
“Please don’t talk about her like that ,” I said softly, trying to hide the anger building up in me. “Please, Patsy.”
“You don’t even know her !” Her voice rose. “How can you feel this way about her already? I’ve been here for years.”
“Patsy.” I sighed. “I’m sorry . I don’t know what to say.”
“She’s going to bring it all back up, you know. That girl Nancy ? She came to me, but I don’t know where she went. She’s Maria’s sister, you know.”
“I know.” I nodded. “I know a lot of things, Patsy.”
“Oh?” She looked at me then and her face stilled.
“I know about you and David.”
“What?” Her eyes popped open. “I never told him anything, I swear.”
“I know, Patsy. I trust you.” I walked over to her and hugged her. “I trust you and I love you like a sister, Patsy. But I don’t love you as anything more. I will never love you like that.”
She didn’t answer then, but I could feel wet tears on my shoulder as she sobbed. I held her tight, sad that I had broken her in this way. I felt sick to my stomach. It seemed that all I did was bring pain to women.
I allowed her to get it out. But as I stood there, all I could think about was Meg. My beautifu,l wonderful Meg. I knew that she had questions about the club. She had questions and she had theories. I was scared to tell her the truth while she still had some hope about me. I knew that once she knew the truth she would be gone and I’d never see her again. And I wasn’t ready for that to happen just yet.
I wasn’t ready for the heart I hadn’t even known existed until a few days ago to break already.
Chapter 9
Present Day
Meg
I walked through the corridors aimlessly. I felt empty inside. The phone call had changed something in me. It had made me completely raw inside. As soon as Greyson had received another call from Patsy, he’d had to leave. He had asked me to wait so we could talk, but I’d slipped out of the bedroom as soon
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