The McRae Series 01 - Twelve Days Sam and Rachel

The McRae Series 01 - Twelve Days Sam and Rachel by Teresa Hill

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with Sam.
    "The house looks good," she said tentatively.
    Sam nodded, looking at it instead of at her. She thought about taking him by the collar of his coat and turning him to her, making him look, saying, See me, Sam. Me. Think about leaving me now. Can you do it? Can you give up on us? After all these years? All we've been through?
    But she didn't. Not yet. She was still too afraid of what he'd say. Afraid he'd say, Yes, I can go. Because I don't love you anymore, Rachel. Maybe I never did.
    "I spent a lot of money," she said instead.
    She went to the car and opened the door, showing him all the packages. He didn't say anything, just took what she handed him. And then the thought of money had her stomach clenching tightly. What was she going to do for money if Sam left? She made some money off her stained glass, but truly she'd always done it for the challenge and the sheer pleasure of it, not for the money. And what she'd made in the past wasn't enough to support herself, certainly not enough to keep up this house, which she honestly loved and would hate to leave. She hadn't even thought of it before, but what about the money?
    Oh, she had people who wanted to hire her now. At least, they had after she'd finished the Parker mansion. Melissa Reynolds, whom she went to school with, had a gift shop in town and often talked to Rachel about selling small custom-made glass products, wind chimes, sun-catchers, small windows, mosaics, maybe even stained glass panels to fit in doors and windows. But Rachel had never talked to her seriously about prices or quantities of products or anything like that.
    "Rachel?" Sam said. "It's fine, Rachel."
    But it wasn't. She was an incredible anachronism in this thoroughly modern world. She'd never had a real job. Oh, she'd always been busy, and Sam had told her more than once, when she'd worried about what she was contributing to the family finances, that he never would have gotten the business off the ground without her. Truly, they'd worked side by side in the first few years. Every minute she hadn't spent taking care of her sick grandfather or her mother, she'd spent helping Sam.
    But the business was his. She'd helped get it started, but it would never be hers. She would never claim a share of it. It wouldn't be fair. And she certainly would never expect Sam to go on supporting her once they were no longer man and wife.
    She felt so ridiculous. She was a grown woman, thirty years old. How could she be so unprepared to take care of herself?
    "Rachel, I don't care how much you spent on these kids, okay?"
    She nodded, her gaze locked on his for a moment, that sense of panic rushing over her again. What was she going to do?
    "Look," he said, still caught up in the kids and clothes, thinking that was all this was about, "I know what it's like to live in hand-me-downs. To have—"
    He stopped abruptly, his face flushed in the cold, and she puzzled over what he'd been about to say. Sam had lived in hand-me-downs?
    She remembered him in disreputable-looking jeans, the fabric worn almost white and so smooth, clinging to every muscle in his thighs, and some kind of shirt. Nothing that nice, but she hadn't seen Sam as the kind of boy who'd ever care that much about what he wore, and the snug, worn jeans fit with that bad-boy image of his. She'd never given his clothes a second thought. His grandfather was known as a tightwad around town, but she didn't think he was poor. She hadn't thought much about the way they lived at all, except that his grandfather was a grouch. She'd wanted to make it up to Sam for the lack of closeness between them, for what she suspected was a lack of love, by lavishing him with love of her own and pulling him into the midst of her big, loving family. She had wanted to be the one who made that all better for him.
    Rachel frowned. What a joke that was. How long had it been since she'd lavished her husband with any kind of love?
    "Are you okay?" he asked, finally looking at

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