urgent.
She arched her back and lifted her arms, slipping her hands behind his neck. "Just be gentle," she whispered in his ear, drawing him to her and setting him on fire.
He reached around to the lamp and turned it off, then began to unbutton her blouse.
Afterward, in the darkness, they held each other, and he felt the cool night air flow gently over them through the open windows. Savoring the rise and fall of her breathing against his chest, he thought of all the other times like this when he'd cherished the extraordinary blessings in his life- Janet, Brendan, and now a new son on the way- but always with a glance over his shoulder. He knew from a lifetime in ER how quickly joy and love could be snatched away by fate, bad luck, or raw malice. Working emergency had ingrained it in him. While he could recount victories, the defeats, like permanent toxins in human tissue, embedded themselves the deepest and stayed with him the longest.
"Hey, you have to trust life more," Janet had told him shortly after their first encounter sixteen years ago when she'd gotten her initial glimpse of his dark take on the brutal laws of chance. "For all the victims who end up in your ER, there's thousands more who make it safely home to bed. Besides, people like us, you and me, we'll make our own luck." Such unswerving optimism suited a woman who brought new life into the world for a living. It also counterbalanced his own daily workload of lives lost or torn apart.
Lately his tendency to think the worst had taken a new twist. Although he hadn't said anything to her yet, he worried about Janet giving birth at St. Paul's. Nobody had exposed the OB units to SARS, but it had happened in other hospitals. The culprits were usually residents who came from a ward where they'd unknowingly been around an infected patient who hadn't been diagnosed. The result was that newborns arrived only to be slapped into isolation. Only a matter of time, he kept telling himself whenever she went to work in her own department. But she knew that as well as he did, would be no less worried about it, and didn't need the extra pressure of hearing him lay it out.
He'd started to read up on home deliveries instead.
The breeze from outside picked up slightly, and he savored a sweet fragrance of nicotinia that wafted into the living room. It came from the front garden where she had planted an entire bed of the white, star-shaped flowers. Their pleasing, clean scent made him think of the lonely woman in Palliative Care who had confided how she loved the freshness in the air following a rainstorm. What was her name? Sadie Locke? Tomorrow, weather permitting, he'd have one of the orderlies take her out onto the roof garden in a wheelchair. Maybe maintenance could even spruce the area up a bit, perhaps bring in a few pallets of annuals. Janet would know what varieties might do well up there. Then patients who were strong enough could escape the walls and odors of the hospital.
He smiled and indulged in a rare moment of feeling pleased with himself. Why not? He seemed to have a knack for this VP, medical stuff. It gave him a rush of satisfaction, the prospect of having all that power and using it to do good things.
So there, Jimmy.
Sunday, 6:00 a.m.
Palliative Care Unit, St. Paul's Hospital
Monica Yablonsky dashed for the bedside phone. "Code blue!" she yelled, the standard order to bring a resuscitation team running to the aid of a cardiac arrest victim. "And I want the R-three in ICU or Emergency."
Not just a bunch of beginners, she added to herself, slamming down the receiver and reaching for the gray face with the staring eyes. It felt cold and rubbery. God knew when she'd died. Not recently. But with no DNR order on the chart, and given the stunt Earl Garnet had pulled last night, she'd better play this one by the book. Damn him, sticking his nose in where it didn't belong.
She plopped a pocket breathing mask over the dead woman's lips and nose, then blew.
The
She arched her back and lifted her arms, slipping her hands behind his neck. "Just be gentle," she whispered in his ear, drawing him to her and setting him on fire.
He reached around to the lamp and turned it off, then began to unbutton her blouse.
Afterward, in the darkness, they held each other, and he felt the cool night air flow gently over them through the open windows. Savoring the rise and fall of her breathing against his chest, he thought of all the other times like this when he'd cherished the extraordinary blessings in his life- Janet, Brendan, and now a new son on the way- but always with a glance over his shoulder. He knew from a lifetime in ER how quickly joy and love could be snatched away by fate, bad luck, or raw malice. Working emergency had ingrained it in him. While he could recount victories, the defeats, like permanent toxins in human tissue, embedded themselves the deepest and stayed with him the longest.
"Hey, you have to trust life more," Janet had told him shortly after their first encounter sixteen years ago when she'd gotten her initial glimpse of his dark take on the brutal laws of chance. "For all the victims who end up in your ER, there's thousands more who make it safely home to bed. Besides, people like us, you and me, we'll make our own luck." Such unswerving optimism suited a woman who brought new life into the world for a living. It also counterbalanced his own daily workload of lives lost or torn apart.
Lately his tendency to think the worst had taken a new twist. Although he hadn't said anything to her yet, he worried about Janet giving birth at St. Paul's. Nobody had exposed the OB units to SARS, but it had happened in other hospitals. The culprits were usually residents who came from a ward where they'd unknowingly been around an infected patient who hadn't been diagnosed. The result was that newborns arrived only to be slapped into isolation. Only a matter of time, he kept telling himself whenever she went to work in her own department. But she knew that as well as he did, would be no less worried about it, and didn't need the extra pressure of hearing him lay it out.
He'd started to read up on home deliveries instead.
The breeze from outside picked up slightly, and he savored a sweet fragrance of nicotinia that wafted into the living room. It came from the front garden where she had planted an entire bed of the white, star-shaped flowers. Their pleasing, clean scent made him think of the lonely woman in Palliative Care who had confided how she loved the freshness in the air following a rainstorm. What was her name? Sadie Locke? Tomorrow, weather permitting, he'd have one of the orderlies take her out onto the roof garden in a wheelchair. Maybe maintenance could even spruce the area up a bit, perhaps bring in a few pallets of annuals. Janet would know what varieties might do well up there. Then patients who were strong enough could escape the walls and odors of the hospital.
He smiled and indulged in a rare moment of feeling pleased with himself. Why not? He seemed to have a knack for this VP, medical stuff. It gave him a rush of satisfaction, the prospect of having all that power and using it to do good things.
So there, Jimmy.
Sunday, 6:00 a.m.
Palliative Care Unit, St. Paul's Hospital
Monica Yablonsky dashed for the bedside phone. "Code blue!" she yelled, the standard order to bring a resuscitation team running to the aid of a cardiac arrest victim. "And I want the R-three in ICU or Emergency."
Not just a bunch of beginners, she added to herself, slamming down the receiver and reaching for the gray face with the staring eyes. It felt cold and rubbery. God knew when she'd died. Not recently. But with no DNR order on the chart, and given the stunt Earl Garnet had pulled last night, she'd better play this one by the book. Damn him, sticking his nose in where it didn't belong.
She plopped a pocket breathing mask over the dead woman's lips and nose, then blew.
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